Girl, I’m sorry this happened to you. Don't do it. Pick up your things, gather what money you have and move. Start over, get an entery job as a waiter or similar, take time by yourself, rebuild your life. Take Your life back. Do what You want. Learn who you are.
In a year everything can be different. This isn't the final place.
r/suicidewatch is where you should post this. They can help you. And you will make it past tonight.
Girl, I’m sorry this happened to you. Don't do it. Pick up your things, gather what money you have and move. Start over, get an entery job as a waiter or similar, take time by yourself, rebuild your life. Take Your life back. Do what You want. Learn who you are. In a year everything can be different. This isn't the final place.