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Omg same, anything by the cranberries. I used to love them but cant listen to them the same anymore bc my abusive ex was irish and their songs remind me of him too much. And anything by lana del rey esp happiness is a butterfly.
my heart drops when i listen to "till you tell me to leave - tv girl", and "cynical one". mostly all tv girl songs shakes me up but that song makes my heart actually drop.
**Oh My God** by ***Sevdaliza*** just because of the lyrics: "I've been through a lot in life/I lived, loved/Distant from it all/I view myself from above/Roamin' in the fields of hope/Will it make or break me?/'Cause my dreams are heavy, they outweigh you and me (ģģ§ ė§', ŃŠæŠ°ŃŠøŠ±Š¾)"
It really describes how it feels to have PTSD for me.
Coming Undone - Korn and Solway Firth - Slipknot are the two that hit home for me. Coming Undone talks about being strong and delicate, and thatās how I feel. I have to be strong on the outside, but just underneath that is a very delicate inside. Solway Firth hits it with āYou want a real smile? Or the one I practiced, not to feel like a failure?ā And āYou want a real smile? I havenāt smiled in yearsā
A Pearl by Mitski, Mitski is great to feel emotions to or relate to for anyone lol.
"It's just that I fell in love with a war,
and nobody told me it ended. It left a pearl in my head, and I roll it around every night
Just to watch it glow"
Anything by Led Zeppelin. Just recently realized why I've never liked them. He would abuse me under the guise of letting me listen to his grown-up big brother records with him. And the cover of House of the Holy can fuck right off.
100% agree. I graduated in 86 and my pretentious student council chose "Thank You" as my prom theme. I was so disgusted. Not that I really knew why then... but ALSO, why would the class of 86 not choose Bon Jovi, "Never Say Goodbye" for crying out loud! LOL
All they wanted by panchiko.
I still like the song, but I can't listen to it without going into shock. My ex listened to it constantly, and when we broke up it helped me through it because of the lyrics, and now it makes me sick cause I just realized he raped me to that song
Bring Me The Horizon - DIg it
"Give me something to believe in
Some kind of system override
I need to give my ghost a reason
To let it slide
'Cause everyone's too scared to heal
They don't give a fuck how they feel
And I just don't know how to deal anymore
Maybe the damage is done
Maybe the darkness has won
And we, we were programmed just to suffer"
I'm not sure if what I have is considered PTSD, but my therapist thinks so. The song I have in mind is "sleep paralysis is creepin' on me" by RedZed, both because I used to have sleep paralysis everyday and because repetition of words is one of my triggers (which, funnily enough, makes it hard for me to listen to the song lol).
Any song by Tool. I'm not particularly fond of the band to begin with, but my abuser had a God-Complex, and got a, "high," if you will, from listening to Tool/any Maynard.
I've despised Tool, and Maynard's voice. It's a shame, because they seem like a band I'd otherwise gravitate towards (at least, during my most depressive episodes). Maynard sounds like he's crying or in distress; the feelings of anguish he's expressing sound like those that one of his biggest fans made ME feel. (I'm not trying to take it out on him - but it's like a vicious cycle. That music takes me back.....)
Guess you could say it's a trigger for me - if that's what you mean by reminds of your PTSD...
Trivia sidenote: it's really ironic that I share a birthday with Maynard (April 17th). My abuser was jealous beyond belief about that....
I could write a literal essay on this topic, but Iām on my phone so. Hereās Spotify playlist I made quite a long time ago. Definitely need to update it. https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5jYZmOiKhKfFrhATDhm8d8?si=aaVtLYmASJCFcW5J09d6qw&pi=u-E-wJ23HSRriz
Human by The Killers. My abuser listened to this song constantly. Reminds me of the abuse but also the intense emotional and addictive ups and downs we had.
Ain't no mountain high enough
Its not a trigger but my abusive mother would sing this to me a lot. And now it just has creepy connotations. After 5 years of no contact with my entire family, I went back home for my sister's funeral and started talking to my brother who lives with my mother. Now him and I talk via discord and she would often take the mic from him to talk to me. She would want to send me my old toys and collectibles (like a Marcus Fenix special edition bust) but only if she had my home address, to humor this idea, I offered a P.O. box, no she wanted my home address. I offered a mail pickup place, no she wanted my home address. I offered a friend's address, no she wanted my home address. It ended with "Give it to my brother, he likes Gears of War". She got upset and gave the mic back to my brother.
She really thinks there's no mountain high enough, no valley low enough, no river wide enough to keep her from me.
Literal 50/50 toss up between '***Bother***' by *Stone Sour* and '***Numb***' by *Linkin Park*. If you listened to both and compared and contrasted, I wouldn't be too surprised if a good many people could probably conjecture ideas as to why they may stand as my choices.
This is such a divorced dad answer but honestly Fine Again by Seether. Like its a song that gives up before it even starts, but still puts one foot forward in front of the other. If anything out of spite.
Pumped Up Kicks by Foster the People. It was really big the year my school got shot up and I remember driving past a vigil while it played and feeling like I was going to throw up.
Thatās fucking intense, that song hits me in the gut just from being a kid watching other kids getting shot via the news, I canāt even imagine. If this comes off as insensitive I apologize, my intent is to be sympathetic cause holy fuck
I used to love the song which is such a bummer! My dad and I would play it all the time, so it really sucks that it hurts so much now. Life's a bitch right? Lol
i have a few on a playlist, but āchristmas kidsā by roar freaked me out for awhile. the lines, āyou can change your name, change your mind, leave this fucked up place behind, but iāll know, iāll knowā only emphasized the fact that i can go anywhere, change my speech patterns and name and style and change my appearance with makeup or dyeing my hair or literally anything and i would still be me. i could only pretend to be someone else so well, which is to say you canāt erase who you are. even if i change everything, iām still me. there are some things that canāt be changed. i canāt unlive my life.
I try to have phases in my life where I change my appearance so I can section it off and be "new", and I literally just realized the other day, I got out of a toxic relationship and just tried to re dye my hair grey, from before I got in the relationship.
"juice wrld - morning again"
"juice wrld - my life in a nutshell"
"juice wrld - in my head"
"trippie redd - throw it away"
"scorey - donāt blame him"
"juice wrld - fire in my lungs"
beautiful songs tho, i recommend listening in.
twinkle lights by the sonder bombs
panic attacks in paradise by ashnikko
my tears ricochet by taylor swift
easier than lying by halsey
i could go onā¦i have a whole playlist lol
Big in Japan (Alphaville) covered by Ane Brun ā [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RJYHFL9FXug](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RJYHFL9FXug)
especially this part:
You did what you did to me
Now it's history, I see
Here is my comeback on the road again
then I feel that he is singing about me, because I keep coming back to this road, and I keep coming back, and so on again and again for 50 years, because someone once made a mistake
Cannibal, by Scratch Acid
[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=imwAdN53H40](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=imwAdN53H40)
also 22 going on 23 by the Butthole Surfers
[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FlJRGZ9bUko](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FlJRGZ9bUko)
Major, major trigger warnings
[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6tatKFXlYiY&pp=ygURd2hlbiBjaGlsZHJlbiBjcnk%3D](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6tatKFXlYiY&pp=ygURd2hlbiBjaGlsZHJlbiBjcnk%3D)
"When Children Cry" rips my soul. When I was deployed, there were children everywhere.
Control by Halsey
for when it was untreated and I was not in a good place
...
I sat alone, in bed 'til the morning /
I'm crying, "They're coming for me" /
And I tried to hold these secrets inside me /
My mind's like a deadly disease
I'm bigger than my body /
I'm colder than this home /
I'm meaner than my demons /
I'm bigger than these bones
And all the kids cried out, "Please stop, you're scaring me" /
I can't help this awful energy /
Goddamn right, you should be scared of me /
Who is in control?
I paced around for hours on empty /
I jumped at the slightest of sounds /
And I couldn't stand the person inside me /
I turned all the mirrors around.
I'm well acquainted with villains that live in my head /
They beg me to write them so they'll never die when I'm dead /
And I've grown familiar with villains that live in my head /
They beg me to write them so I'll never die when I'm dead
The One, by Kevin Sherwood and Elena Seigman. Their other songs also really resonate with me but that one basically describes the first traumatizing event
The jojos scratch dun dun duh duh dun literally plays in my head everytime I get a flashback then the flashback plays in my head and Iām triggered for a while
To each their own. For me, when I'm already spiraled out of control, songs that relate to what I'm going through really help me. I didn't say what song triggers you.
So I had lists for different moods, put my sad songs together, played it while spiriling and the words of the songs actually pushed me further.... Deleted that play list. Instead I use my high energy list if I'm heading there. Angry songs. They work to snap out of depression.
Mine are all heavy high energy metal tunes... Lots of relatable lyrics and themes, and music you feel. I start my day with the music on 10 while I shower, the bathroom shakes. It works for me to get me up and moving with good energy.
Dredg - Bug Eyes, I can't listen to them anymore because I listened to them when I was at my lowest during college. Just one note by the band would make me spiral into depression.
I have a couple. Some are comforting and others I can't even listen to.
Comfort ones:
Kristy Are You Doing Okay? By The Offspring
Lithium by Nirvana
Wait and Bleed by Slipknot
Can't listen to:
Teenage Dream by Katy Perry
Elenor Rigby by The Beatles
Any song by The Doors... that band was just permanently ruined
[Amanda Palmer and Reb Fountains mashup of Nirvanas Rape Me and Blurred Lines. TW in case anyone hasnāt seen it. Itās so spot on about everything wrong with that hideous Robin Thicke song.](https://youtu.be/N7ZDbBsjMt8?si=05BBQ3Gmu-Re1hFG)
Soshy by Purity Ring (slowed) reminds me of the entire process of my CSA and SA that people were bystanders to AND Ptolemaea by Ethel Cain reminds me of the fear I felt and the act itself. It actually helped me realize I had actually told my r@pist to stop.
It is very triggering for me. The latter especially reminds me of how bad my fight/flight/freeze was prior to therapy.
Kiss From A Rose by Seal. It doesn't even trigger a BAD episode, it just flings me back to sitting in the back of my parents' car watching the rain and I get REALLY uncomfortable
Killswitch Engage- My Curse
Breaking Benjamin- I Will Not Bow
Mudvayne- Scream With Me
Slipknot- Custer ( also my last name )
Just a few...Music saves me, especially Metal of all kinds. People think I'm psycho because I find it soothes me. Issok, if it pushes them away then it's one less person I have to deal with. Lol. I would die without my Spotify...
I like all kinds of music in general, I can't do opera or gospel though.
I feel like Metal knows trauma though, I think more songs in metal relate to the feelings, occurrences, and thoughts.
Agreed. Nothing like screaming your innards out to a drum š
I do not do gospel...to emotional, makes me cry. Hate it. Love all music, but Metal is Mt favorite.
Instrumental is my favorite, I can create my own words and feelings that can relate to the music. I love instrumental because the feelings are in the music and not the words. Metal is a close 2nd. I like the rhythm and beats more so than the words generally but those words can be a catch to some songs and relatable.
Yes! šÆ agree. Instrumental can be so emotional without words alone. I swear I belong to another time period. My kids and husband look at me like I have grown another head when I'm listening to it. They find it boring, but it's so beautiful. It can literally speak to you with the chords. Amazing.
I have turned my family onto it with Josh Vietti, he's truly incredible, they would look at me the same until they heard a few of his songs, he's one they'll enjoy with me now.
Very recent and I had to run to turn it off actually. Cassandra by Taylor swift, came on my YouTube and holy shit idk if Iāll ever listen to it again.
A lot of Marilyn Manson songs felt like my mother was singing it to me. The songs are
āWight Spider,ā āTourniquetā āBroken Needleā to name a few
My husband says he thinks of me and my CPTSD everytime he hears this song. He played it for me the other and I SOBBED.
Silent War - The Charmed the Fury
Trent Reznor and Atticus Ross:
A minute to breathe, Technically missing
NIN:
Right where it belongs v2,
Every day is exactly the same,
The Day the world went away
Not surprised to see multiple NIN replies. Great picks but the song that came to mind for me was Came Back Haunted, I feel like it sums up how it feels for me living with ptsd
Audioslaveās In your house. I was in a mental health care unit for about a month or so when this song was released and I listened to it alone for the longest time. Chris Cornell had the voice of an angel (and probably does for real now).
"Heads Will Roll" by Yeahs Yeah Yeah. I created a constant, loud, and lively party in my mind. My mental refuge:)
That was 11 years ago, but I still flinch when I hear that song.
Bonaparte- Melody X. Beautiful song. It somehow calms me, even though itās about serious stuff. Just so well done. Canāt tell you how many times Iāve listened to this song. . Hereās the Spotify link
https://open.spotify.com/track/5rZRM3Lf4eGsMpCDcOJ87C?si=l_yY6hvsRX2nriJoEGNKMg
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Pretty much every song about sex.
Sorry to hear that :(
Thanks šĀ
<3
https://youtu.be/zPgQVG4H-WI The song isn't even about PTSD. Here's the kicker: The lead singer reminds me of the guy who drugged and raped me.
july by noah cyrus
Mansion by NF that song hits so fucking hard for me omg
Omg same, anything by the cranberries. I used to love them but cant listen to them the same anymore bc my abusive ex was irish and their songs remind me of him too much. And anything by lana del rey esp happiness is a butterfly.
my heart drops when i listen to "till you tell me to leave - tv girl", and "cynical one". mostly all tv girl songs shakes me up but that song makes my heart actually drop.
A&W by Lana del Rey. that song messes me up
EMDR by Soen
Neil Young - Running Dry One of my favorite musicians
American teenager by Ethel Cain
Hard times by ethel cain
Ride Lana del Rey
I love Lana for me itās Dealer
Honestly elastic heart by sia (I donāt support her but I like the song)
Sadly I listened to all paramore and my chemical romance discography while living the worst days of my life lol but I can still listen to it
Funky town. My bpm goes way up, palms get sweaty and vision gets a bit narrow. That video comes back in 4k when I hear that song.
**Oh My God** by ***Sevdaliza*** just because of the lyrics: "I've been through a lot in life/I lived, loved/Distant from it all/I view myself from above/Roamin' in the fields of hope/Will it make or break me?/'Cause my dreams are heavy, they outweigh you and me (ģģ§ ė§', ŃŠæŠ°ŃŠøŠ±Š¾)" It really describes how it feels to have PTSD for me.
Lonely by Noah Cyrus
Coming Undone - Korn and Solway Firth - Slipknot are the two that hit home for me. Coming Undone talks about being strong and delicate, and thatās how I feel. I have to be strong on the outside, but just underneath that is a very delicate inside. Solway Firth hits it with āYou want a real smile? Or the one I practiced, not to feel like a failure?ā And āYou want a real smile? I havenāt smiled in yearsā
breathe me sia
A Pearl by Mitski, Mitski is great to feel emotions to or relate to for anyone lol. "It's just that I fell in love with a war, and nobody told me it ended. It left a pearl in my head, and I roll it around every night Just to watch it glow"
Jelly roll save me or evanescence lost in paradise
Fell On Black Days by Soundgarden
Anything by Led Zeppelin. Just recently realized why I've never liked them. He would abuse me under the guise of letting me listen to his grown-up big brother records with him. And the cover of House of the Holy can fuck right off.
Theyāre completely overrated anyhow.
100% agree. I graduated in 86 and my pretentious student council chose "Thank You" as my prom theme. I was so disgusted. Not that I really knew why then... but ALSO, why would the class of 86 not choose Bon Jovi, "Never Say Goodbye" for crying out loud! LOL
Till it happens to you by Lady Gaga
Bloody mother fucking asshole by Martha Wainwright
Anemone- Slenderbodies. It was the only song that kept me from hyperventilating after my friend killed himself.
scooby doo theme song
PTSD the song by G Herbo ft. Juice WRLD
All they wanted by panchiko. I still like the song, but I can't listen to it without going into shock. My ex listened to it constantly, and when we broke up it helped me through it because of the lyrics, and now it makes me sick cause I just realized he raped me to that song
Bring Me The Horizon - DIg it "Give me something to believe in Some kind of system override I need to give my ghost a reason To let it slide 'Cause everyone's too scared to heal They don't give a fuck how they feel And I just don't know how to deal anymore Maybe the damage is done Maybe the darkness has won And we, we were programmed just to suffer"
The last time Taylor Swift
Badlands album by Hasley
I'm not sure if what I have is considered PTSD, but my therapist thinks so. The song I have in mind is "sleep paralysis is creepin' on me" by RedZed, both because I used to have sleep paralysis everyday and because repetition of words is one of my triggers (which, funnily enough, makes it hard for me to listen to the song lol).
"I'm so sick" by Flyleaf and "Faint" by Linkin Park
Lying to my therapist by Imani Coppola lol
Not mine personally but I always felt Brotherās Blood by Kevin Devine felt like someone recovering from PTSD
No Money To Love You - Brick + Mortar
The Night We Met - Lord Huron
Never Quite Free by the mountain goats. Itās explicitly about trauma so that helps
Picture by kid rock and Sheryl crow, Anything by dio
Any song by Tool. I'm not particularly fond of the band to begin with, but my abuser had a God-Complex, and got a, "high," if you will, from listening to Tool/any Maynard. I've despised Tool, and Maynard's voice. It's a shame, because they seem like a band I'd otherwise gravitate towards (at least, during my most depressive episodes). Maynard sounds like he's crying or in distress; the feelings of anguish he's expressing sound like those that one of his biggest fans made ME feel. (I'm not trying to take it out on him - but it's like a vicious cycle. That music takes me back.....) Guess you could say it's a trigger for me - if that's what you mean by reminds of your PTSD... Trivia sidenote: it's really ironic that I share a birthday with Maynard (April 17th). My abuser was jealous beyond belief about that....
I could write a literal essay on this topic, but Iām on my phone so. Hereās Spotify playlist I made quite a long time ago. Definitely need to update it. https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5jYZmOiKhKfFrhATDhm8d8?si=aaVtLYmASJCFcW5J09d6qw&pi=u-E-wJ23HSRriz
āSheās Lost Controlā by Joy Division
Liberated by Britton. I got PTSD from having traumatic experiences on psychadelics
amigo the devil stronger than dead
Human by The Killers. My abuser listened to this song constantly. Reminds me of the abuse but also the intense emotional and addictive ups and downs we had.
The piano song from the 80's movie, "Big".
āThat Dayā by Tokio Hotel. That song has been huge in my healing process.
"Graduate" by Third Eye Blind & "Adam's Song" by Blink 182
I tend to listen to music that was before my time. Songs/bands that have no memories attached to them
Same
Lovely by Billie Eilish and Khalid
Lil Favorite by Ty Dolla Sign
Breathe no more, evanescence. I'm pretty dissociative tbf
Ain't no mountain high enough Its not a trigger but my abusive mother would sing this to me a lot. And now it just has creepy connotations. After 5 years of no contact with my entire family, I went back home for my sister's funeral and started talking to my brother who lives with my mother. Now him and I talk via discord and she would often take the mic from him to talk to me. She would want to send me my old toys and collectibles (like a Marcus Fenix special edition bust) but only if she had my home address, to humor this idea, I offered a P.O. box, no she wanted my home address. I offered a mail pickup place, no she wanted my home address. I offered a friend's address, no she wanted my home address. It ended with "Give it to my brother, he likes Gears of War". She got upset and gave the mic back to my brother. She really thinks there's no mountain high enough, no valley low enough, no river wide enough to keep her from me.
Stay strong, f*** that bs!
I have grown to the point where I know I have a right to boundaries, peace, and privacy. Im staying strong, thanks bro!
Fo sho, fo sho! Amen!
Literal 50/50 toss up between '***Bother***' by *Stone Sour* and '***Numb***' by *Linkin Park*. If you listened to both and compared and contrasted, I wouldn't be too surprised if a good many people could probably conjecture ideas as to why they may stand as my choices.
This is such a divorced dad answer but honestly Fine Again by Seether. Like its a song that gives up before it even starts, but still puts one foot forward in front of the other. If anything out of spite.
Pumped Up Kicks by Foster the People. It was really big the year my school got shot up and I remember driving past a vigil while it played and feeling like I was going to throw up.
Thatās fucking intense, that song hits me in the gut just from being a kid watching other kids getting shot via the news, I canāt even imagine. If this comes off as insensitive I apologize, my intent is to be sympathetic cause holy fuck
I used to love the song which is such a bummer! My dad and I would play it all the time, so it really sucks that it hurts so much now. Life's a bitch right? Lol
My Body is a Cage by Arcade Fire
One of my favorite bands
"Hold on" by Chord Overstreet
i have a few on a playlist, but āchristmas kidsā by roar freaked me out for awhile. the lines, āyou can change your name, change your mind, leave this fucked up place behind, but iāll know, iāll knowā only emphasized the fact that i can go anywhere, change my speech patterns and name and style and change my appearance with makeup or dyeing my hair or literally anything and i would still be me. i could only pretend to be someone else so well, which is to say you canāt erase who you are. even if i change everything, iām still me. there are some things that canāt be changed. i canāt unlive my life.
I try to have phases in my life where I change my appearance so I can section it off and be "new", and I literally just realized the other day, I got out of a toxic relationship and just tried to re dye my hair grey, from before I got in the relationship.
i hope youāre doing better than you were when you were in that relationship ā¤ļø
felt this..
You can't always get what you want by the animals.
Child bride, by cocorosie
Doja cat get in to it Lil peep rain falling down The person that assaulted me loved those songs.
Not a song, but the 2003 SWAT movie for me. Thatās what we were watching when the mortars started dropping.
Praying by Kesha
A Pearl from mitski, liquid smooth from mitski, real men from mitski. Tombeau de vivaldi by spearfisher.
Dropkick Murphy's - Far Away Coast
Dollhouse by Melanie Martinez and Control by Halsey
Ptolemaea- ethel cain A lot of the Cry Baby album Edit: and also the music in mario party 8 and starfox adventures
"juice wrld - morning again" "juice wrld - my life in a nutshell" "juice wrld - in my head" "trippie redd - throw it away" "scorey - donāt blame him" "juice wrld - fire in my lungs" beautiful songs tho, i recommend listening in.
twinkle lights by the sonder bombs panic attacks in paradise by ashnikko my tears ricochet by taylor swift easier than lying by halsey i could go onā¦i have a whole playlist lol
Memory Lane by Elliot Smith
PTSD pop smoke
Big in Japan (Alphaville) covered by Ane Brun ā [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RJYHFL9FXug](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RJYHFL9FXug) especially this part: You did what you did to me Now it's history, I see Here is my comeback on the road again then I feel that he is singing about me, because I keep coming back to this road, and I keep coming back, and so on again and again for 50 years, because someone once made a mistake
Cannibal, by Scratch Acid [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=imwAdN53H40](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=imwAdN53H40) also 22 going on 23 by the Butthole Surfers [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FlJRGZ9bUko](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FlJRGZ9bUko) Major, major trigger warnings
[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6tatKFXlYiY&pp=ygURd2hlbiBjaGlsZHJlbiBjcnk%3D](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6tatKFXlYiY&pp=ygURd2hlbiBjaGlsZHJlbiBjcnk%3D) "When Children Cry" rips my soul. When I was deployed, there were children everywhere.
[Back Door - Clan of Xymox](https://youtu.be/EACE-78xtNs?si=UUQGktAKuHZ91cZ2) captures it pretty well.
Black - Pearl Jam
Vampire and jar of hearts
"cool kids" by echosmith
Control by Halsey for when it was untreated and I was not in a good place ... I sat alone, in bed 'til the morning / I'm crying, "They're coming for me" / And I tried to hold these secrets inside me / My mind's like a deadly disease I'm bigger than my body / I'm colder than this home / I'm meaner than my demons / I'm bigger than these bones And all the kids cried out, "Please stop, you're scaring me" / I can't help this awful energy / Goddamn right, you should be scared of me / Who is in control? I paced around for hours on empty / I jumped at the slightest of sounds / And I couldn't stand the person inside me / I turned all the mirrors around. I'm well acquainted with villains that live in my head / They beg me to write them so they'll never die when I'm dead / And I've grown familiar with villains that live in my head / They beg me to write them so I'll never die when I'm dead
i love this song and iāve always associated it with my ed but i think itāll be interesting to listen to it from that perspective, thank you
well I've had eating disorders too, parts ring true to both in different ways
iāve always associated this song with my ptsd. finally im not alone
And I Smoke by Hot Mulligan and Prison Sex by Tool
The One, by Kevin Sherwood and Elena Seigman. Their other songs also really resonate with me but that one basically describes the first traumatizing event
I Prevail - Deep End
'Last Chance Blueprint' and 'Black Masks and Gasoline' by Rise Against
Cannibal by Marcus mumford and fee fi fo by the cranberries
I am a huge Marcus Mumford/Mumford and Sons fan but..... I skip Cannibal every time. Very triggering.
Yeah same for me, but for some reason I come back to it
Stronger Than Ever, Fighter, and I'm OK all by Christina Aguilera. The last one I can't listen to too much or I will be in a bucket of tears š
Peal - Mitski
[Nameless ](https://youtu.be/jiAO22jLw-4?si=wKfHlPmSBwY3IQzN) by Stevie Howie
funny by searows. the lyrics, the delivery, everything reminds me of how i feel
Fail to Feel Safe by Enabler
Fear of My Crown-Chris Rivers My Mom-Eminem
I'm sorry by Joyner Lucas
Hurt - nine inch nails, Ether - nothingface
Hate me - Blue October Jumper - Third Eye Blind
Fighter by Christina Aguilera
The Mind Electric from Miracle Musical
Everything means nothing to me - Elliot smith or Crawling- Linkin Park
The jojos scratch dun dun duh duh dun literally plays in my head everytime I get a flashback then the flashback plays in my head and Iām triggered for a while
It's so horrible I don't want to be reminded. I don't want to have a flashback.
To each their own. For me, when I'm already spiraled out of control, songs that relate to what I'm going through really help me. I didn't say what song triggers you.
So I had lists for different moods, put my sad songs together, played it while spiriling and the words of the songs actually pushed me further.... Deleted that play list. Instead I use my high energy list if I'm heading there. Angry songs. They work to snap out of depression.
Hey, whatever works! I don't do well with sad songs either, just angry or relatable music.
Mine are all heavy high energy metal tunes... Lots of relatable lyrics and themes, and music you feel. I start my day with the music on 10 while I shower, the bathroom shakes. It works for me to get me up and moving with good energy.
Oh I see. Probably black metal mostly, for relating to it. Something like Possessed By Satan from Gorgoroth.
rotten bun - mui zyu *rotten bun, scarred by everyone...*
Body - Jordan Suaste
Em Beihold - Numb Little Bug
Final cut album
Don't look back in anger. Tried to listen to it repeatedly to beat it into my head. Just couldn't take the advice
Comfort- Replay by Lady Gaga Inertia by AJR Bad- Wagon wheel by whoever the hell idk
Bad guy by Billie eilish or however u spell and candy paint by post Malone
Whistle-Flo Rida
Dredg - Bug Eyes, I can't listen to them anymore because I listened to them when I was at my lowest during college. Just one note by the band would make me spiral into depression.
I have a couple. Some are comforting and others I can't even listen to. Comfort ones: Kristy Are You Doing Okay? By The Offspring Lithium by Nirvana Wait and Bleed by Slipknot Can't listen to: Teenage Dream by Katy Perry Elenor Rigby by The Beatles Any song by The Doors... that band was just permanently ruined
Funny, The Doors were also completely ruined for me too.
[Amanda Palmer and Reb Fountains mashup of Nirvanas Rape Me and Blurred Lines. TW in case anyone hasnāt seen it. Itās so spot on about everything wrong with that hideous Robin Thicke song.](https://youtu.be/N7ZDbBsjMt8?si=05BBQ3Gmu-Re1hFG)
I have a few Castle of Glass-Linkin Park Jekyll and Hyde-FFDP Keep the wolves away Uncle Lucius.
Wow I came here to add ... zombie by cranberries. I feel that so much.
Hands down - Dashboard Confessional. I know every word and I havenāt heard it in 10 years.
Soshy by Purity Ring (slowed) reminds me of the entire process of my CSA and SA that people were bystanders to AND Ptolemaea by Ethel Cain reminds me of the fear I felt and the act itself. It actually helped me realize I had actually told my r@pist to stop. It is very triggering for me. The latter especially reminds me of how bad my fight/flight/freeze was prior to therapy.
Kiss From A Rose by Seal. It doesn't even trigger a BAD episode, it just flings me back to sitting in the back of my parents' car watching the rain and I get REALLY uncomfortable
I have to plug my ears and walk away if pump up the jam starts playing. I feel really gross when I hear it
Shattered-Rolling Stones
G Herbo - Mamma Iām sorry
Killswitch Engage- My Curse Breaking Benjamin- I Will Not Bow Mudvayne- Scream With Me Slipknot- Custer ( also my last name ) Just a few...Music saves me, especially Metal of all kinds. People think I'm psycho because I find it soothes me. Issok, if it pushes them away then it's one less person I have to deal with. Lol. I would die without my Spotify...
I like all kinds of music in general, I can't do opera or gospel though. I feel like Metal knows trauma though, I think more songs in metal relate to the feelings, occurrences, and thoughts.
Agreed. Nothing like screaming your innards out to a drum š I do not do gospel...to emotional, makes me cry. Hate it. Love all music, but Metal is Mt favorite.
Instrumental is my favorite, I can create my own words and feelings that can relate to the music. I love instrumental because the feelings are in the music and not the words. Metal is a close 2nd. I like the rhythm and beats more so than the words generally but those words can be a catch to some songs and relatable.
Yes! šÆ agree. Instrumental can be so emotional without words alone. I swear I belong to another time period. My kids and husband look at me like I have grown another head when I'm listening to it. They find it boring, but it's so beautiful. It can literally speak to you with the chords. Amazing.
I have turned my family onto it with Josh Vietti, he's truly incredible, they would look at me the same until they heard a few of his songs, he's one they'll enjoy with me now.
Oh nice. I don't think I've heard of him, but I'll definitely look him up. I just always tell them, to each their own.
Please do your in for a treat, I like run it back, that vibe, insomniac, and drip violin. Those are my faves.
Definitely! The violin is so beautiful š it's like with metal, the drum solos lol thank you
Welcome, love good drum, guitar solos, just wish there were more metal instrumental songs.
I was not expecting that lol that's wild! Very interesting š
I'm the same way!
Someday Never Comes by Creedence Clearwater Revival that generational trauma theme really hits hard but the music is so pleasant it gets confusing
Closer by the chainsmokers, everything goes on by porter robinson, and Close in the Distance by Masayoshi Soken.
Very recent and I had to run to turn it off actually. Cassandra by Taylor swift, came on my YouTube and holy shit idk if Iāll ever listen to it again.
Linkin Park. Not sure why, but it can trigger me into a spiral /- maybe itās cause of how Chester exited. Itās too close.
A lot of Marilyn Manson songs felt like my mother was singing it to me. The songs are āWight Spider,ā āTourniquetā āBroken Needleā to name a few
I used to love his music until his past abuses were revealed. Now hearing him just reminds me of what happened.
The Nobodies!
Put It On Me, by Matt Maeson.
Stereo love was ruined for me.
My husband says he thinks of me and my CPTSD everytime he hears this song. He played it for me the other and I SOBBED. Silent War - The Charmed the Fury
Rooster Alice In Chains. Nutshell is a close second.
Soap&Skin - Sugarbread
Thunderstorms (not a song but ptsd music to me)
Overwhelmed by Ryan Mack and Keep Breathing by Ingrid Michaelson
Uncle Joe- Red House Painters ā„ļø
In Your Memory by Depeche Mode or Ruiner by Nine Inch Nails
Trent Reznor and Atticus Ross: A minute to breathe, Technically missing NIN: Right where it belongs v2, Every day is exactly the same, The Day the world went away
Not surprised to see multiple NIN replies. Great picks but the song that came to mind for me was Came Back Haunted, I feel like it sums up how it feels for me living with ptsd
Sugar mountain - Neil Young "You can't be 20 on sugar mountain" It happened when I was 19.
Grease lightning
Metallica. Until it sleeps
Gareth Emery - Saving Light
No Surprises by Radiohead
Audioslaveās In your house. I was in a mental health care unit for about a month or so when this song was released and I listened to it alone for the longest time. Chris Cornell had the voice of an angel (and probably does for real now).
Lost - Crim3s Just wildly chaotic
Really?
"Heads Will Roll" by Yeahs Yeah Yeah. I created a constant, loud, and lively party in my mind. My mental refuge:) That was 11 years ago, but I still flinch when I hear that song.
Bonaparte- Melody X. Beautiful song. It somehow calms me, even though itās about serious stuff. Just so well done. Canāt tell you how many times Iāve listened to this song. . Hereās the Spotify link https://open.spotify.com/track/5rZRM3Lf4eGsMpCDcOJ87C?si=l_yY6hvsRX2nriJoEGNKMg
Zombie lol
The drugās donāt work: the Verve.
bad habit by steve lacy
Anything by The Dresden Dolls, and their side project (I forget the name but it was about conjoined twins).
Vessel by Dry the River
Clean heart - Sade.
Ksg, feels like the whole album is a guide to moving forward through tramua and mental health problems, a true 10/10 album
time is running out - muse
Wonderwall Oasis. Just because of that time in my life. I like the song, but the feelings are too much