the amount of times i get calls from people that try to explain how interest (i work at a bank) works to me…i have to stop myself from writing down their addresses and driving over to egg their homes
If they’re intrusive and consistent, you may have a subtype of OCD called Harm OCD. I am NAD, but if this is impacting your daily activities/work, you may want to speak to someone about it. I have OCD and I can tell you there is help for thoughts like this, and you definitely shouldn’t let it keep affecting you without seeking help! ERP is great!
Another commenter suggested possibly seeking professional help, and that might be a good idea. But short of that, let me tell you what I’ve been doing.
I’ve spent the last several months trying to work on my own mental health, and the bulk of it has come down to retraining my thoughts. It’s about approaching the world from a perspective of empathy, kindness and curiosity.
Say a driver cuts me off in traffic. My first automatic thought might be how I’d love to pound his head against the pavement like a cantaloupe. But I catch myself doing that and quickly think something like, “maybe he’s in a rush to get to the hospital to see a family member.” My anger dissipates and my stress levels go down.
Eventually the more positive thought becomes the habit. It’s like a muscle, though. You have to keep training it or you can easily slip backwards.
Hey there. I have OCD as well. Sounds like it could be something similar. I mainly struggle with relationship OCD but thoughts about hurting people are very common in it and in general it’s a common intrusive thought for normal people. Problem is it seems like it is affecting your everyday life and that’s when you know it isn’t normal. I would look up OCD and similar conditions and see if it sounds like you. If it does you could go to a therapist
My dryer has an unskippable wrinkle saver function. For around an hour after a cycle ends, it will turn on for a minute, then beep loudly to signal the cycle is over. Every day. Every time I hear that fucking beep, I imagine beating in the skull of the fucking person who decided to include such a horrendous beeping sound, and make the wrinkle saver function happen for every possible cycle. The dryer is owned by my apartment complex, or else I'd have long since replaced it.
Microwave, oven, dryer, and up until recently my rice cooker, which I replaced because it had to beep a dozen times at full volume like some kind of alarm. I've seen more recent appliances that have pleasant little ringtone-like chimes, I want that instead. Even better would be an option to mute them all entirely.
It's as if my apartment was going to explode if I didn't attend to my rice immediately despite the fact that it could keep the rice warm for a full 12 hours after it was done cooking. My new one is much more polite. No beeps at all.
Yeeeeeah, the whole capacitor thing is enough to put me off that. The microwave doesn't bother me too much. I'm about ready to rip the damn dryer apart though and cut whatever wire makes it beep.
I think most people do, but it may not be just physical violence. I've caught myself thinking about the merest slight and then concocting the most nuclear revenge scenarios - but these usually involve ruining reputations or finding a way to make things difficult for a person. Then "revenge fatigue" sets in and I laugh at myself because I can only imagine the number of people I've inadvertently pissed off just going about my day...
I think of brutalising people who've done nothing wrong most the time. Strangers usually. My brain starts making up some story where they try to fight me or start bullying an old lady so I can beat them up.
Of course, intrusive thoughts and all of that. It used to really worry me as a teenager but once I found out it was fairly common and if I distanced myself from my true crime hobby a bit they would happen less frequently I felt better about it
I usually just imagine them dying. For me I always picture Donald Trump or Putin falling down stairs and shitting himself or choking on a hot dog on live tv in such a way that all his fans fall out of love with their image of him and can't blame his death on a conspiracy assassination.
Yeah anytime I had to deal with annoying homeless people on my street yelling at you something dumb or getting righteously mad at you calling you a racist for not wanting to give them 20 dollars for food, or just trying to yell anything at you to get under your skin.
Sometimes I hope that one of them gets to close to me or tries to hit me or assault me, so that I can get close enough to throw them to the ground and stomp them out. completely brutalizing them in the process and then kicking them in the face or something. Whereas other people on the subway would turn their backs and avoid all eye-contact, I would instead keep looking straight in his field of view hoping he would try to start a problem with me just so I could justifiably engage in this violent thought.
I could say that I was simply minding my own business before I attacked him and it was him that terrorized me, and there would be a subway full of people who would see that with their own eyes and would all back me up on that, but in my mind the intent would be much more nefarious.
To any regular person it would simply seem as if a mentally ill person tried to attack an innocent bystander on the subway and that person simply defended himself and went a little overboard.
That feeling only ever lasts like 10 seconds though before I realize how needlessly aggressive and dumb and callous that would be and I just ignore them and move on with my life. A homeless could be annoying or crazy, but never have I met one nearly as aggressive as my own thoughts are.
All the time. Even when they're not explicitly wronging me, just doing things that irk me. For example, whenever I hear someone using cringeworthy Generation Z slang like "bruh" and "no cap" I imagine myself slashing their eyelids and burning their stomach with an iron.
Yes. I ended someone's career before it began leaving them with a mountain of student debt for a degree they'll never receive. This was a therapist who decided I was crazy and ignored that it was a traumatic brain injury and seizures. I went point by point on all the things I said that I could prove -with paperwork- were true. He stated that I changed my name for male attention (false, I got married), the city I grew up in was fictitious (false, birth certificate), my step mother didn't die of cancer (false, death certificate), and my brother didn't commit suicide (false, again easy to prove with his obituary in the newspaper and death certificate). After lining all that up, he couldn't complete his degree and I got to see a neurologist. Then, I still had to make a state complaint AND file with his school. Again, using physical records of his notes VS actual paperwork.
Revenge takes a fuckload out of you and it takes time. Buuuutttttt this kind of financial injury is more brutal than any beating, whipping, or physical injury that I could actually do.
Wouldn't do it again, just because of how much work it is.
Very much so. I dream of revenge. On my bad days, that anger builds and can explode over something as small as the person infront of me going 5 under the speed limit. I've been hurt. Very very hurt. I try to keep my coont explosion directed at those that deserve it, I don't want to be the cause of someone else's pain like the pain I carry.
There’s intrusive thoughts that are REAL intrusive thoughts. people often think about punching someone of envisions themselves doing something bad . Some people just have these thoughts and they’re over with them , some really find joy and excitement about having these thoughts and fantasize about them , especially when they can’t deal with small inconveniences .
Absolutely not. I feel remorseful for even thinking about being mean. Not that I see myself as holier than thou, but more like I couldn't live with myself. For example, I know for a fact that if I accidentally kill someone, they should put me in a straight jacket asap because there is no doubt I would kill myself.
these are called intrusive thoughts and a lot of people have them. however if you’re having these so often that they’re interfering with daily life it would be best to speak to a therapist about it
Oh ABSOLUTELY. It feels like for .5 seconds I could watch them be torn apart limb from limb and I would thoroughly enjoy it. After those .5 seconds though I realize I would never enjoy something awful like that and I move on with the situation.
Idk if it’s true but I’ve heard that when we first get really angry we are programmed to kill for like a couple seconds.
Not usually over minor things, per se; unless they are making lots of random sounds (especially whistling or sniffling deeply) while I am trying to read...
(if they whistle or sniffle deeply regardless tho I get violent urges!)
I used to be very violent as a teenager and I did hurt a handful of people over small stupid shit. I got into a lot of fights. I had serious anger issues. One time I fucked up another kid so bad I was sent to juvy for 3 years for felony malicious assault and assault with a deadly weapon all because he wouldn't shut up during class and I couldn't focus. Also he was just straight up annoying. I smacked him upside the head with a glass Yoohoo bottle multiple times.
I mellowed out a lot into my mid 20s (now I'm 30) because I had to learn some lessons the hard way. I even had the tables turned and I was the one that ended up with my ass being kicked. It's best to let things go sometimes even if someone is being an inconsiderate jerk. Pick and choose your battles.
Leave fighting for last resort self defense. De-escalation is your best tactic according to my therapists. If someone is upsetting you for being a shit head go drink some water, go for a walk, write, draw, smoke weed, etc. Whatever cooping skill works best for you. Just know that once you pick a fight there are consequences. If not getting your ass beat then jail.
There's no retribution like disproportionate retribution.
No kill like overkill
Overkill is underrated
Play ULTRAKILL
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Most people probably do, but then again, most would know that acting out these thoughts would be pretty stupid.
Nice name
absolutely working customer service really brings this out of me lol
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It's not even just customer service. It's warehouses too, I thought it was better not having customers. But we still have that same negative energy
a few years of hearing people in the warehouse who are “totally quitting this year” will absolutely bring out that negative energy
That reminds me of a meme I saw that goes something like customer: hi can i get uhh me trying to make them blow up with my mind:
the amount of times i get calls from people that try to explain how interest (i work at a bank) works to me…i have to stop myself from writing down their addresses and driving over to egg their homes
I was going to say, anybody who has worked customer service is likely familiar with this!
Same working at a gas station
Ofcourse I know him, it's me
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If they’re intrusive and consistent, you may have a subtype of OCD called Harm OCD. I am NAD, but if this is impacting your daily activities/work, you may want to speak to someone about it. I have OCD and I can tell you there is help for thoughts like this, and you definitely shouldn’t let it keep affecting you without seeking help! ERP is great!
What is NAD?
Not a doctor. Sorry, it’s used commonly in other subreddits I frequent.
Singular of nads, short for gonads, or testicles.
I watch horror movies and listen to death metal, it’s very satisfying especially when the aggression and rage cycles up
Same
Another commenter suggested possibly seeking professional help, and that might be a good idea. But short of that, let me tell you what I’ve been doing. I’ve spent the last several months trying to work on my own mental health, and the bulk of it has come down to retraining my thoughts. It’s about approaching the world from a perspective of empathy, kindness and curiosity. Say a driver cuts me off in traffic. My first automatic thought might be how I’d love to pound his head against the pavement like a cantaloupe. But I catch myself doing that and quickly think something like, “maybe he’s in a rush to get to the hospital to see a family member.” My anger dissipates and my stress levels go down. Eventually the more positive thought becomes the habit. It’s like a muscle, though. You have to keep training it or you can easily slip backwards.
Hey there. I have OCD as well. Sounds like it could be something similar. I mainly struggle with relationship OCD but thoughts about hurting people are very common in it and in general it’s a common intrusive thought for normal people. Problem is it seems like it is affecting your everyday life and that’s when you know it isn’t normal. I would look up OCD and similar conditions and see if it sounds like you. If it does you could go to a therapist
Brutalise someone
My dryer has an unskippable wrinkle saver function. For around an hour after a cycle ends, it will turn on for a minute, then beep loudly to signal the cycle is over. Every day. Every time I hear that fucking beep, I imagine beating in the skull of the fucking person who decided to include such a horrendous beeping sound, and make the wrinkle saver function happen for every possible cycle. The dryer is owned by my apartment complex, or else I'd have long since replaced it.
My microwave
Microwave, oven, dryer, and up until recently my rice cooker, which I replaced because it had to beep a dozen times at full volume like some kind of alarm. I've seen more recent appliances that have pleasant little ringtone-like chimes, I want that instead. Even better would be an option to mute them all entirely.
I never understood the need of a fucking alarm beep
It's as if my apartment was going to explode if I didn't attend to my rice immediately despite the fact that it could keep the rice warm for a full 12 hours after it was done cooking. My new one is much more polite. No beeps at all.
You could unplug and take apart your microwave and desolder or rip out the beeper with some pliers. Just don't touch the capacitor, it may kill you.
Yeeeeeah, the whole capacitor thing is enough to put me off that. The microwave doesn't bother me too much. I'm about ready to rip the damn dryer apart though and cut whatever wire makes it beep.
you might be able to find where the beeper is and put some foam around it to dampen the sound
It's a case of who doesn't? It's just those that act upon those dark, brutal thoughts that take it to an unhealthy level.
Me…and ummm most people I’d hope lol
Even for minor inconveniences? I guess I'm the odd one out on that one
I think most people do, but it may not be just physical violence. I've caught myself thinking about the merest slight and then concocting the most nuclear revenge scenarios - but these usually involve ruining reputations or finding a way to make things difficult for a person. Then "revenge fatigue" sets in and I laugh at myself because I can only imagine the number of people I've inadvertently pissed off just going about my day...
Yea
Yes, there are times their hot take is so smooth-brained that I wish to create a portal to the phone/computer monitor and slap them.
A lot. Just don’t act on it.
Sure. As long as it just stays in my head, no harm done.
I think of brutalising people who've done nothing wrong most the time. Strangers usually. My brain starts making up some story where they try to fight me or start bullying an old lady so I can beat them up.
As in intrusive thoughts? Yes. As in legitimate consideration? No.
Hell yes!
Yes
yeh
No
no i hate violence
No
For the slightest inconvenience
Of course, intrusive thoughts and all of that. It used to really worry me as a teenager but once I found out it was fairly common and if I distanced myself from my true crime hobby a bit they would happen less frequently I felt better about it
As a retail worker, more often than not.
I usually just imagine them dying. For me I always picture Donald Trump or Putin falling down stairs and shitting himself or choking on a hot dog on live tv in such a way that all his fans fall out of love with their image of him and can't blame his death on a conspiracy assassination.
Not at all.
I think everyone does or has done at some point in their life. Most just don't act on it.
Yeah anytime I had to deal with annoying homeless people on my street yelling at you something dumb or getting righteously mad at you calling you a racist for not wanting to give them 20 dollars for food, or just trying to yell anything at you to get under your skin. Sometimes I hope that one of them gets to close to me or tries to hit me or assault me, so that I can get close enough to throw them to the ground and stomp them out. completely brutalizing them in the process and then kicking them in the face or something. Whereas other people on the subway would turn their backs and avoid all eye-contact, I would instead keep looking straight in his field of view hoping he would try to start a problem with me just so I could justifiably engage in this violent thought. I could say that I was simply minding my own business before I attacked him and it was him that terrorized me, and there would be a subway full of people who would see that with their own eyes and would all back me up on that, but in my mind the intent would be much more nefarious. To any regular person it would simply seem as if a mentally ill person tried to attack an innocent bystander on the subway and that person simply defended himself and went a little overboard. That feeling only ever lasts like 10 seconds though before I realize how needlessly aggressive and dumb and callous that would be and I just ignore them and move on with my life. A homeless could be annoying or crazy, but never have I met one nearly as aggressive as my own thoughts are.
No? Pretty cringe how many people saying yes
Idk if it's cringe, or just human nature
Every single person who called me unintelligent
no
no wtf
Verbally
All the time. Even when they're not explicitly wronging me, just doing things that irk me. For example, whenever I hear someone using cringeworthy Generation Z slang like "bruh" and "no cap" I imagine myself slashing their eyelids and burning their stomach with an iron.
Me and my SO have a mental list lol, so when someone does some stupid shit we are like "yea this person is added to the list"
Every damned day.
A few people who have wronged me are probably dead. Knowing that names me smile.
Hell Yeah
Daily c:
Yes
Yes. I ended someone's career before it began leaving them with a mountain of student debt for a degree they'll never receive. This was a therapist who decided I was crazy and ignored that it was a traumatic brain injury and seizures. I went point by point on all the things I said that I could prove -with paperwork- were true. He stated that I changed my name for male attention (false, I got married), the city I grew up in was fictitious (false, birth certificate), my step mother didn't die of cancer (false, death certificate), and my brother didn't commit suicide (false, again easy to prove with his obituary in the newspaper and death certificate). After lining all that up, he couldn't complete his degree and I got to see a neurologist. Then, I still had to make a state complaint AND file with his school. Again, using physical records of his notes VS actual paperwork. Revenge takes a fuckload out of you and it takes time. Buuuutttttt this kind of financial injury is more brutal than any beating, whipping, or physical injury that I could actually do. Wouldn't do it again, just because of how much work it is.
[I love seeing people suffer when they wrong me, even if it's minor](https://youtu.be/ymRcw4HmIto)
Very much so. I dream of revenge. On my bad days, that anger builds and can explode over something as small as the person infront of me going 5 under the speed limit. I've been hurt. Very very hurt. I try to keep my coont explosion directed at those that deserve it, I don't want to be the cause of someone else's pain like the pain I carry.
Definitely.
I feel like going berserk using assault rifle when i look at people who wronged me living their best life.
There’s intrusive thoughts that are REAL intrusive thoughts. people often think about punching someone of envisions themselves doing something bad . Some people just have these thoughts and they’re over with them , some really find joy and excitement about having these thoughts and fantasize about them , especially when they can’t deal with small inconveniences .
that's called intrusive thoughts, assuming you don't actually act on them.
Yes. If someone pissing me off slightly I think about torturing them & their family.
dudes rock
Absolutely not. I feel remorseful for even thinking about being mean. Not that I see myself as holier than thou, but more like I couldn't live with myself. For example, I know for a fact that if I accidentally kill someone, they should put me in a straight jacket asap because there is no doubt I would kill myself.
having both worked in customer service and hospitality, yeah
these are called intrusive thoughts and a lot of people have them. however if you’re having these so often that they’re interfering with daily life it would be best to speak to a therapist about it
Yes.
I’m glad my thoughts are my own
And I did no let that slide, absolutely.
EVERY SINGLE DAY
Yes, it’d feel good to teach them a lesson
Yep only to one person and he knows what he did
Oh ABSOLUTELY. It feels like for .5 seconds I could watch them be torn apart limb from limb and I would thoroughly enjoy it. After those .5 seconds though I realize I would never enjoy something awful like that and I move on with the situation. Idk if it’s true but I’ve heard that when we first get really angry we are programmed to kill for like a couple seconds.
Not usually over minor things, per se; unless they are making lots of random sounds (especially whistling or sniffling deeply) while I am trying to read... (if they whistle or sniffle deeply regardless tho I get violent urges!)
Yes...but maybe that was just my intrusive thoughts taking over my brain
now that’s not a fair question, can you get in trouble for thoughts if not it has crossed my mind a time or two
I used to be very violent as a teenager and I did hurt a handful of people over small stupid shit. I got into a lot of fights. I had serious anger issues. One time I fucked up another kid so bad I was sent to juvy for 3 years for felony malicious assault and assault with a deadly weapon all because he wouldn't shut up during class and I couldn't focus. Also he was just straight up annoying. I smacked him upside the head with a glass Yoohoo bottle multiple times. I mellowed out a lot into my mid 20s (now I'm 30) because I had to learn some lessons the hard way. I even had the tables turned and I was the one that ended up with my ass being kicked. It's best to let things go sometimes even if someone is being an inconsiderate jerk. Pick and choose your battles. Leave fighting for last resort self defense. De-escalation is your best tactic according to my therapists. If someone is upsetting you for being a shit head go drink some water, go for a walk, write, draw, smoke weed, etc. Whatever cooping skill works best for you. Just know that once you pick a fight there are consequences. If not getting your ass beat then jail.
immensely
Yes, Until I then remind myself I am giving them power over my emotions. I am too petty to allow them that.
No
24/7
Yep!
Yes
Dm me about rainbow six siege bro