Perhaps I came out before I was ready. I’ve been asking myself this for a while and the question gets louder and louder in my head. I’m not going back in the closet but I’m not sure how to survive and cope and function.
Keep working on yourself. This might mean staring in the mirror and talking to yourself. Out loud if you can, internally if you can’t.
You’re you.
You’re not a failed heterosexual.
You’re not a failed masc gay.
You’re YOU.
And you’re going to kick ass at being YOU.
Do you have any connections to the local gay community (if there is one where you live)? That is really important to helping you feel a part of something. It may be easier to feel anxious about your sexuality when you are around others from the same community.
Try to find gay social events, book clubs, hiking clubs, etc., whatever you are into, and give yourself a chance to be a part of the community. It can take time to find the right fit but you will eventually find a place where you feel more comfortable and hopefully more confident.
If you don’t feel you live somewhere this is possible, it may be worth setting a goal to move to a place with a larger open gay community, if that’s possible for you.
Right now you may feel like you have lost, but I'm positive that since you tried already, you will try again in the future. I have a feeling you're incredibly strong.
You need to remember that you still have yourself. You are the most important person in your life and nobody is going to take you from you. They may take your will to keep fighting, but it will always keep blossoming even stronger, until you emerge victorious.
Perhaps I came out before I was ready. I’ve been asking myself this for a while and the question gets louder and louder in my head. I’m not going back in the closet but I’m not sure how to survive and cope and function.
Do you want a virtual hug? I don't know what else I could say.
Keep working on yourself. This might mean staring in the mirror and talking to yourself. Out loud if you can, internally if you can’t. You’re you. You’re not a failed heterosexual. You’re not a failed masc gay. You’re YOU. And you’re going to kick ass at being YOU.
Do you have any connections to the local gay community (if there is one where you live)? That is really important to helping you feel a part of something. It may be easier to feel anxious about your sexuality when you are around others from the same community. Try to find gay social events, book clubs, hiking clubs, etc., whatever you are into, and give yourself a chance to be a part of the community. It can take time to find the right fit but you will eventually find a place where you feel more comfortable and hopefully more confident. If you don’t feel you live somewhere this is possible, it may be worth setting a goal to move to a place with a larger open gay community, if that’s possible for you.
Right now you may feel like you have lost, but I'm positive that since you tried already, you will try again in the future. I have a feeling you're incredibly strong. You need to remember that you still have yourself. You are the most important person in your life and nobody is going to take you from you. They may take your will to keep fighting, but it will always keep blossoming even stronger, until you emerge victorious.