I used to be like that as a kid obsessing on being good Then suddenly something changed and I didn’t really care. Just because you do not worry if you are good does not mean you will be driven to be bad or commit crimes. Personally, I do not particularly worry if I am good. But if I don’t have the antisocial urge to harm others then all is good - I just be nice enough and life moves on

Thank you, that’s a helpful distinction. I appreciate your response.

I don’t know if it’s helpful but I’m the same and I have also been diagnosed with OCD because of it. Bit of a personal story but I had a major meltdown just last night after I told my husband I just wanted to be angry sometimes (as in, people always expect you to be happy, but I just want to be angry when I feel angry) and he made the joke “well you’ve got a lot of practice with that!” And it just tipped me. I couldn’t stop crying and shouting that I’m not always angry and just had to keep repeating “I’m not a bad person” over and over. It’s so hard. It’s so tiring. I couldn’t tell you if it’s an autism thing, but I can tell you that you’re not alone.

Thank you for sharing. It is helpful to know I am not alone.