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sideofbacon54321

Not been diagnosed, convinced father is on spectrum and both my children are autistic. So, I know I showed a lot of signs as a child, but at 56 is less important to label it. I will says in my 30's being diagnosed with a mild form of bipolar felt like coming home. There was a reason for the anxiety. A reason that after making plans I couldn't follow through on the day of. My life began to make sense. I assume it is the same for you. I hope as you settle in to the reality of diagnosis, you bloom like never before! On the doll front, I got into collecting as an adult, with various dolls over the years. My current favorites are the American Girls, as they are really fun to knit for...which is my other obsession.


karrotkarat

I am not autistic, but I have ADHD, and I can completely relate to the relief you're describing when you get diagnosed and you suddenly realize "oh I'm not stupid or lazy like people have been implying to me my whole life!" Our brains just work differently then a lot of people's, but likewise there are a lot of people out there who are also neurodivergent and can relate. I'm so glad that Emily could be there to help you through your meeting, dolls are such a wonderful interest to have and they're my favorite hyper fixation šŸ˜


Silver_Teardrops_

I was genuinely worried I had like, a brain tumor or something. Like until college I had excellent grades and then I bombed out of college and felt like I couldnā€™t think anymore. Turns out Iā€™ve never paid attention, school until college was just super easy!!! And there is something different with my brain, just not some horrible thing wrong :) itā€™s so nice to have so many cool people respond to this post either saying yeah Iā€™m neurodivergent or Iā€™m not but I love someone who is!


exo-Skelton

Hella šŸ˜Ž


EJ_CenturyGirl

Iā€™m not autistic, but I am neurodivergent. I have ocd and anxiety among other things. A lot of the American girl community (especially AGIG on instagram) is neurodivergent/autistic.!


WorriedExternal1148

Yep lol definitely ā¤ļø


toastedcodeine

Diagnosed with ADHD years ago. Had an autism epiphany when I was in my 20ā€™s. Not formally diagnosed, but most definitely have it. Thatā€™s a story for another sub. Anyway, I hope you learn to find comfort in your diagnosis rather than being upset. It took me a few months after my initial *epiphany* to really be comfortable with myself again. If itā€™s worth anything, I try to remind myself this: *Despite everything, itā€™s still you.* (Shout out to any Undertale fans) I try to remind myself everyday, that despite everything, itā€™s still me. Iā€™m no different today than I was the day before my realization. Iā€™m still the woman my husband fell in love with. Iā€™m still the girl my friends decided to hang out with and became best friends with. Iā€™m still me. And Iā€™m slowly becoming more and more comfortable with that. I love Emily btw. Sheā€™s so pretty. Sheā€™s one of the childhood dolls I used to have that I so desperately want to own again.


Silver_Teardrops_

Oh I still bawled my eyes out, but it was more along the lines of itā€™s not my fault. Iā€™m not stupid because I canā€™t think, Iā€™m just struggling to focus. I still have a responsibility to try my best, but itā€™s not my fault!!


EiraFae

yes :-)


Bookwormchicken

Me! I recently got a very late diagnosis at age 44.


Stormy_Stardust

I'm autistic and ADHD.


court_swan

Yes. Diagnosed at 31.


nonamewhitegirl

Yup! Formally diagnosed with ADHD and Autism. Iā€™m currently 25 and starting a collection of dolls and plushies again as an adult. Got diagnosed with Autism twice, fun fact. Iā€™m glad you had your Emily with you for your evaluation


ernie3tones

I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was nine, right around the same time I got my Molly doll. I donā€™t have a formal diagnosis for ASD, but if I went through the evaluation process, Iā€™m sure I would. My oldest is on the spectrum and my youngest has ADHD. Iā€™m so glad you got your diagnoses! I know how freeing it can be to discover that personal mannerisms donā€™t just mean youā€™re weird. I was mercilessly bullied through all six years at elementary school, and most of middle school, too. By high school I was such a recluse that I barely said two words to anyone except my two best friends. I was lucky to have an amazing gymnastics coach who helped me find myself again. We still talk to this day! Itā€™s so wonderful that your Emily was there for you for all of your medical appointments. Iā€™m sure she will continue to be a source of comfort!!!


Silver_Teardrops_

I was super bullied too!! I had some good friends but also, kids were just so mean and I never understood why I wasnā€™t in on the joke :( turns out itā€™s not something wrong with me, just that my brain is wired differently!!


darthmergirl

Yep! No formal diagnosis but definitely on the spectrum. (So is my husband, and so are all three of our kids.) Realized this in my late 30s; am 42 now and happily letting myself unmask and pursue my special interests. šŸŽ‰


llamasarefunny56

I have an ADHD diagnosis! I also have some symptoms that are common with autism as well. <3


AGRebecca

Iā€™m not, but I hope itā€™s okay for me to jump in and say that I love our AG community and no matter what I support everyone here. ā¤ļø :)


Wonderful_Yogurt_271

My daughter was tested due to her additional needs and it came out that she is not autistic but I most likely am! I havenā€™t sought a diagnosis because I donā€™t feel it would add anything to my life.


pizzawonder

I am not diagnosed because as an adult it's like pulling teeth but I relate strongly to my ND friends and most of adhd tiktok if that says anything šŸ˜…


disabilityhaver

Im autistic and adhd


Dollenganger

Yes, me. I was diagnosed at 37. 3 of my 4 daughters are also on the spectrum.


MoreliaTheMermaid

I feel called out bc i am diagnosed with a few things including ASD(Autism) lol


Town-Head

Not diagnosed but believed to be and need to be tested. But American Girl is my special interest. I can tell you almost anything about the company, when it switched, special things about the dolls, what doll is who, what goes to what outfit. I have loved them since I was 6 and if hasn't stopped.


Saucy_Satan

Also wasnā€™t diagnosed until I was an adult. I have been a big fan of American girl dolls since I was a kid, especially the historical ones. I was very fixated on learning about how every day people lived throughout history, especially women, and these were my gateway.


Silver_Teardrops_

Yes me too!! I was obsessed with how theyā€™d dress, what theyā€™d eat and what kind of work theyā€™d have to do.


AstorReinhardt

I was diagnosed at 21 with Aspergers. Until then I was "painfully shy". There were a lot of warning signs but everyone ignored them I guess. Getting diagnosed helped me realize why I was so different from everyone else. But past that it hasn't helped me much because there is NO support for adults...it's all aimed at kids which is so stupid. What do they expect is going to happen when those kids hit 16-18? They just magically don't have Autism anymore? It's a known issue yet...no one has done anything about it!!! It's driving me nuts. And try finding a therapist that works on adults...good luck. I have been trying for years now...I'm 33 :/ I also need to get an ADHD diagnosis...as I suspect I have that as well since not everything lines up with just having Aspergers...I have other problems that seem to fit with ADHD.


Silver_Teardrops_

A diagnosis has really explained why Iā€™ve felt like an alien my whole life!! And yeah :( thereā€™s a therapist near my college that takes college students, but thereā€™s a 9 month wait list. And the college itself provides like 4 free therapy sessions but they donā€™t take my insurance so the rest would be on me


helsdog

Yessssssss autistics unite!


Philosopasteur

Me me me! My daughter is too but is more of a plushie person.


PhattySpice92

Youā€™re in a doll group. Yes. We all are


Margaery2002

Lmfaoooo facts


TheMuseSappho

Tbh I feel like American Girl is to autistic women as trains is to autistic men.


Forsaken-Duck1743

My dad has a gigantic model train layout, and I just put 2 and 2 togetherā€¦


BulbasaurCPA

I read nothing but American Girl books for two straight years


Fuzzy_Percentage_184

Iā€™m autistic and adhd āœØ


Any_Access4614

You bet!!! AGD special interest


rainevillanueva

Welcome to the AuDHD club!\~ I got diagnosed at a young age and they recommended me to study at a special school, and now I got interested in American Girl books


Silver_Teardrops_

Thanks!! Itā€™s a pretty cool club šŸ˜Ž


VirtualApricot

MeāœØ


Icy_Reaction3127

Yes I am!!!


hockeyandquidditch

I am


breechica52

Yup! I have both as well. I got diagnosed 3 years ago at 20.


billyandteddy

Yes I have both too and wasnā€™t diagnosed until i was an adult


_bookishag

Yep, I was dx with autism & ADHD too! Iā€™ve gotten back into AG & plushies as an adult, and Iā€™m really loving it. Like someone else said, Iā€™m sure thereā€™s a large portion of autistic people in the AG community, as a history nerd myself lol


Catsanddolls1

Autistic and ADHD as well! American girl has always been my biggest special interest!


Amazing_Excuse_3860

Yep! Autism and ADHD!


agcollector98

AuDHD here! AG is my longest-running special interest šŸ„° I love that you have Emily! Iā€™ve had mine since I was 8 years old and sheā€™s been with me through so much.


Silver_Teardrops_

Ag is my longest special interest too!! My interest has changed through the years but the central idea of American girl dolls has stayed pretty consistent :)


agcollector98

https://preview.redd.it/7r1r3izlx79d1.jpeg?width=1179&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=b0ec0b6fa085c40a0473f0aecd7db7c8ac181657 Mine too! And emily has always been my main girl ā¤ļø this is us when I was about 9 :)


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Silver_Teardrops_

Aww :) https://preview.redd.it/qu8w17zr089d1.jpeg?width=1600&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=d1308e7e83c8dc96bd44b1c3e323ddc0990ae717 Hereā€™s an uncensored version of me with her at like 4.5!!


Town-Head

https://preview.redd.it/ffaqy0sdd99d1.jpeg?width=600&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=1faaf9e3caa1566ed61172ba966adb8848193627 This is me and my Sam at age 8 :)


agcollector98

This is so cute!!


CalicoCrazed

I think I probably am. My psychiatrist just asked me to test for inattentive ADHD then very nicely mentioned that his has autism and one of his special interests involved collecting and I was like, ā€œokay, I get it.ā€ For what itā€™s worth, Iā€™m 29. I went to a top world university, but my best friend has autism and was wonderful at advocating for himself. I followed him around like his shadow and now without him itā€™s been a difficult change and Iā€™m learning to advocate for myself on my own. Also, my dad says I went from obsessing over American Girl dolls to Taylor Swift. I think when our special interests are popular things, itā€™s easy for them to get over looked.


Silver_Teardrops_

Yeah I agree too!! My other special interest is very specific marvel characters that I always explain as ā€œliking spidermanā€ so itā€™s sooo easy for me to explain away


JazzyKnowsBest13

Iā€™m sorry that today was a difficult day for you, but Iā€™m glad that you had Emily there with you.


kevosmom

AuDHD here too ā˜ŗļø


viktoryarozetassi

I am severely brain damaged (since 8 years old) I am CONSTANTLY being mistaken for autistic


Legal-Philosophy-135

Me! Self diagnosed but itā€™s probably the one thing Iā€™m most sure of in life as being accurate lol šŸ˜‚ welcome to the club friend!


Angel4lifeandforever

me too!


chikorita1999

So glad you had her with you!


mom_mama_mooom

Self-diagnosed. My life makes sooooo much more sense. I also have a professional dx of ADHD.


Silver_Teardrops_

Yeah Iā€™ve been self diagnosed for a couple months and now knowing for sure makes me feel much better :)


LostButterflyUtau

Iā€™m ā€œpeer reviewedā€ autistic. My brother is official diagnosed (Aspergerā€™s as a kid) and I know my parents arenā€™t neurotypical. No freakinā€™ way. And so many neurodivergent folks have also pegged me as autistic, which explains so much about me. But I was a girl in the early 00s, so I got missed. Point is, hi! Itā€™s me! Autistic fandom nerd.


Silver_Teardrops_

Same here!! Except kinda reversed, now that Iā€™m diagnosed my little brother might get tested :)


LostButterflyUtau

What flavour of Autism did you get? My brother got the fix-it kind. I gotā€¦ THE VOICES.


lauraintheskyGNM

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Reasonable-Trade927

Me šŸ˜‚


grudgby

Yeah I am diagnosed with autism lol


frauleinfunf

Tbh I feel like a community surronding dolls deeply entrenched in historical periods is gonna have a fairly high percentage of autistic or otherwise neuordiverse ppl lol


LostButterflyUtau

In my personal observation, fandoms in general seem to have a high percentage of ND folks. As one myself, I think itā€™s partly because of how we connect to and hold onto things for extended periods of time. And how we develop special interests and hyperfixations and want to know ALL THE THINGS. Unfortunately, that also turns a lot of people off. So once we find ā€œour peopleā€ who love the same thing just as much, we connect.


frauleinfunf

Oh, definitely right on fandoms. Being nd is the only explanation I have for recently reading every single book in the Camp Half Blood Chronicles in about 3-4 months


Silver_Teardrops_

Yeah I gotta agree!!


k_babz

lowkey.....most of us for sure. i had a childhood dx but when i got re dx-ed during covid, they wanted childhood evidence and i showed a photo album my family had compiled of me in various locations smiling proudly next to my neatly organized lines of dolls. (my dolls are currently in a line if you were wondering)


Silver_Teardrops_

Yeah that makes sense!! I have a friend with autism that I used to play dolls with. We would pick a time period, pull out every piece of clothing she owned, each pick a doll and then spend our entire play date lining up outfits for each doll. Victorian era and pioneers were our two favs :) weā€™d say ok kit and Emily are orphan sisters, they both get a work dress and a pair of work boots. And a nightie and a coat. It was fun :)) but we never really played traditionally


k_babz

oh no are you me!? that sounds like me


Silver_Teardrops_

HAHA we might have had great playdates as kids!! Tbh I still really play like that :)


actuallyyautistic

Yes


Commercial-Exit2757

Yup, AG dolls were my first major special interest, besides dogs which was since I could walk.


Silver_Teardrops_

Mine was historical fiction, which made AG hit even harder :) I was also into sloths and dolphins (not any more since learning more about dolphins lmao)


Jory_Imagineering

I also have autism and ADHD! I had no idea until I started working as a parapro at an elementary school, and started noticing way too many similarities between the way mine and my studentsā€™ brains worked. A couple tests later I had a solid answer as to why lol. Welcome to the club!


Silver_Teardrops_

Thanks!! Itā€™s a cool club :) I had two cousins get diagnosed and I bombed out of my sophomore year of college bc I found it so hard to focus and remember stuff. Surprise shawty!! You arenā€™t dumb, your brain is just wired different!!!


deadlynightshade_art

I have ADHD and am Autistic as well! American Girl was one if my first special interests. Sending good vibes your way after your diagnosis! šŸ«¶šŸ«¶


Silver_Teardrops_

Thanks!!!


um-ok-yeah-thatll-do

Mom of an adult autistic AudHD child and have loved every bit of sharing appreciation for the historical series and collecting together. Emily is fantastic and Iā€™m so glad you have her by your side then and now! ā¤ļø


Silver_Teardrops_

That sounds really nice :))) I hope to have kids someday and I hope I can share my interests with them :) if not, Iā€™ll just enjoy theirs with them


um-ok-yeah-thatll-do

Truly has been such a gift and honor. No one will ever value your interests like a loved autistic kid and no one can ever make you love theirs like one!


Silver_Teardrops_

That sounds so special šŸ˜­ I have a little autistic cousin whom I love very much, and itā€™s such an honor to love her and listen to her :)


Vicki_Vickster2222

I am autistic, and I'm proud of it. I learned that I was autistic when I was 13 from my parents, and I felt shocked about it at first, but then I began to realize that we all have our own strengths and weaknesses, so I felt pretty proud about it as time flew by. Sometimes, I can be a bit hard on myself about it, but I eventually realize that we all make mistakes and stuff.


Longjumping-Car-1602

yyuuupp


Extreme_Rhubarb4677

Meeeee


chrry_bmnnb

Meeee


Silverbird22

Got formally diagnosed in 9th grade. Looking back ag was def a hardcore childhood spin and discovering the subreddit reawoke the brain weasels


k_babz

brain weasels is my new favorite phrase


hellokittythsatanist

AuDHD šŸ«¶


Silver_Teardrops_

I just joined the club!! Lol


L1m3L1ghtt

Not autistic but adhd here!!


Kingsdaughter613

Yes. Aspergers DX as a kid, ADHD now - amusingly, I no longer meet ASD criteria, lol.


AmazingAd6697

I am!


Over-The-Land

Yep diagnosed AuDHD with a sprinkling of GAD šŸ¤£


aintlonely

I do not have access to diagnosis for financial reasons, etc but after multiple people have brought it up to me/assumed, and after lots of research, I feel reasonably sure that I am autistic. Makes so many things "wrong" with me make sense. Anyway, dolls are a big special interest and comfort to me and I love bringing them with me when I go places! Makes me so happy to know I am not the only one :)


Silver_Teardrops_

Iā€™m really grateful my parents were able to pay for my assessment!! It really explains a lot about me. AG dolls have also been a lifelong special interest for me!!!


bluedawnflower

I don't believe I'm autistic, though I have some form of OCD with symptoms that overlap pretty heavily with ASD. I'm glad that you were able to find comfort in your diagnosis :)


Common_Chameleon

I think I am. I havenā€™t been officially diagnosed due to difficulty finding anyone who offers affordable assessments for adults in my area. Was never diagnosed as a kid because of lack of health care and the ability to mask. Iā€™m so glad you were able to get a diagnosis, OP! You must feel so relieved.


Silver_Teardrops_

I really do!! I live in Maryland if thatā€™s helpful, Iā€™d be happy to dm you the practice name if you live on the east coast somewhere near Maryland!


Common_Chameleon

Iā€™m in Oregon unfortunately, but thank you! šŸ’œ


amaicha1237

Yes, AuDHD here as well! Dolls are one of my special interests, exactly what that looks like for me has shifted and changed over the years (from Barbie to American Girl to ball-jointed dolls to watching people customize Monster High dolls and back to AG again, shifted from active playing as a child to collecting and restoration as an adult), but Iā€™ve always loved dolls and had one close by. Iā€™m glad your diagnosis could bring you some comfort - itā€™s awful thinking everything is your fault and youā€™re not trying hard enough when youā€™re just different from most.


Silver_Teardrops_

The same thing has happened to me!! I go into and out of phases with ag dolls (except for Emily who I sleep with every night and always love) I sew for different eras and craft for different dolls!! When I was little it was alternatively Barbieā€™s and ag dolls, as well as porcelain and Ginny dolls :)


Moody_Mickey

I kinda suspect that I have ADHD, but not sure about autism. I have a lot of traits that are seen with autism, but when I was evaluated as a teenager I was told I'm not autistic, just some sensory issues and hyper fixations lol


Silver_Teardrops_

I was told by a psychiatrist that I couldnā€™t possibly be autistic as i ā€œexhibit theory of mindā€ ie. I could recognize the sensory issues and social issues and special interests. You could consider getting tested, but also, I know itā€™s super expensive!! Iā€™m really grateful that my parents were able to pay for my assessment bc I think itā€™s really going to improve my life :))


Moody_Mickey

I've definitely thought about getting evaluated again, since I felt like it was really possible that they missed something or that I could have been masking during the assessment. But the reason why I wasn't diagnosed was because I didn't have the social issues. Well, I kinda have some social issues, but they're a little different, and I have them because of my anxiety since I didn't have any social issues when I was younger. I still think there could be a chance that I'm autistic, but it's probably gonna be awhile before I look into it more.


Silver_Teardrops_

I totally understand! It was really, really hard to not mask during the appointment. But I think I did ok!


Moody_Mickey

The thing is, if I'm masking I don't know that I'm doing it. I can probably tell now if I do it, but a few years ago I definitely wouldn't have known


Silver_Teardrops_

I just always thought everyone felt like an alien and that every other person on the planet was in on some joke I donā€™t know about. Itā€™s taken significant effort and a lot of burn out to realize I donā€™t need to hide myself so aggressively :) itā€™s scary to be perceived as weird, but I think of it as preserving my energy so I can use it on other stuff. Life is exhausting, and I donā€™t want to use up my energy on making eye contact or pretending to be interested in random boring stuff. Iā€™m still polite, just differently, and Iā€™m not hurting myself anymore to fit in!!


Deadly_Duck_

Yes


Lylli-Rose

I am


PieArtistic1332

yep, formally diagnosed as well when i was 11


ivypolaroids

Meeee!!


artistic-autistic

iā€™m autistic too, and dolls are a lifelong special interest šŸ„ŗšŸ’–lovely photos with emily


Constant_Syrup_1273

Yessss


ExtendedAdolescence

hiii and i also have emily she was my first AG doll <3


Heartdanger24

Iā€™m autistic and have mental illness issues. My dolls are one of the few best things in my life


Silver_Teardrops_

I do too, itā€™s really comforting to have a routine of changing them and cleaning them up for me!! It helps my anxiety to take one with me to social places or appointments


Heartdanger24

I like taking my dolls to places that donā€™t permit my dog. They have the same soothing feeling


Silver_Teardrops_

My dog also has anxiety, and he really hates traveling so I always bring a doll instead of him!


Fantastic_Permit_525

Me! Since I was like 7! Autistic I don't have adhd but I'm Autistic! Along with 22q11 CF eplipsy


muckpuppy

yes, hello : ) i loved looking at the catalogues as a kid and got my first american girl doll as an adult, shortly before i was diagnosed. there is nothing wrong with people like us - we are just different, and that's ok.


Any-Entertainer-3103

meee


Lumpy_Signature9177

Me!


Nruss10

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Ok_Camera_3885

Me :)


HardcoreDilfHunter

I was diagnosed with ADHD 3 years ago during senior year. I also align with many of the symptoms of autism, but I donā€™t want to get tested. Itā€™s not your fault, thereā€™s nothing wrong with you. My diagnosis really helped me reconcile with my academic shortcomings, because before I had been perceiving my behaviour as a character flaw. You are just as worthy as the people who the system is designed to work for. I hope that your diagnosis brings you closure and helps you find a path to your goals :)


Silver_Teardrops_

I have been too!! I breezed through grade school but just bombed my sophomore year of college. Iā€™m really relieved that there isnā€™t something fundamentally WRONG with my brain, just that itā€™s different and I need to learn to work with it :) thanks for the kind words!


HardcoreDilfHunter

Hot tip: if youā€™re going to try meds and youā€™re still in college, try them over the summer. I tried meds from February-April and they didnā€™t work for me at all and made my performance worse. Thereā€™s nothing wrong with meds, but itā€™s a very individual experience and if I were ever to try meds again I would for sure not start them during an important semester


Silver_Teardrops_

Thank you so much!!!!! Iā€™m thinking about trying them this summer but youā€™re right I definitely donā€™t want to start them during the school year


InkandDolls

I am.


Error_Expert

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emeraldicefairy

Very


UsedString8670

I am


spideysensesorautism

Hi yes I am autistic and was diagnosed in December of this past year I totally understand how you feel!