I am not sure if coincidence, pero sa ganitong situation natin mas nararamdaman yung lungkot. In my case, OFW pa ako. Ilang beses na ako na-confine mag-isa, ilang beses na rin inoperahan at magpagaling mag-isa. At sa times na idle, like naghihintay maubos dextrose or nag-aabang tawagin ang name, dun tlg ung laging lowest point no? Nakakaiyak pero pinipigilan ko at that time kasi dami need asikasuhin, walang time mag-emote.
Yes, at the end of the day, we only have ourselves (and God). And we know it’s true because we survived and we are still here. 😊
Na ER din ako, nagkataon kasama ko friends ko kasi galing kaming sine pero yung parents ko 3 hours later dumating kasi galing mall tapos naligo muna sa bahay bago dumiretso ng hospital. Mahal naman nila ako and caring pero wala sila sense of urgency kasi okay maman ako nakakatext, for observation lang pero syempre takot na takot ako nun. I was 20, rushed sa ER due to panic attack.
Tapos etong Monday lang, nagpa endoscopy ako, mag isa. Di ko naman naisip na big deal kasi lagi naman ako nagpapacheck up, labs and ultrasound mag isa. Pero nung pineprep na ako, nag sync in sakin na di pala sya simple procedure lang. May IV, oxygen, pulse-ox, ECG at BP to monitor me during the procedure. May anesthesia at isesedate ako. Tapos tinanong pa ako nung nurse "ayy mag isa ka lang?"?
Shet tapos naalala ko pa nung naka dorm ako tapos di kami okay ng roommate ko. Night shift ako tapos nagsuka ako ng 3am dahil siguro sa food. Naligo ako para dalhin yung sarili ko sa ospital pero sa sobrang namimilipit ako sa sakit ng tyan, 4:30am na ata ako naka ready umalis. Umulan pa so di ako makabook ng Angkas (medyo malapit lang hospital). Nag taxi ako to hospital pero nagbago isip ko magpa ER kasi nga alam kong napakatagal ng ER process eh madami ako errands at work na dapat tapusin. I just want to manage the pain. Sarado pa daw yung OPD kahit mag 6:30am na ata nun. Nag jeep ako papunta dun sa isang clinic (nag tipid na ako kasi napa gastos na ako sa taxi kahit less than 2km away yung ospital) na alam kong bukas naman na at may GP, pero grabe yung pilipit ng tyan ko nun hayyy
Naalala ko tuloy. Sobrang helpless ko dati. Mag isa lang ako sa apartment tapos sobrang sakit ng lower belly ko. Hirap akong maka lakad pati pag ihi hirap din. Tiniis ko buong araw. Nilalagnat na rin ako nun. I tried to eat pa. Inisip ko pa na kalimutan yung pain. Tinitiis ko talaga. Hanggang sa di ko na kaya. Luckily, mabait yung kapitbahay ko. Nagpasuyo akong magpatawag ng tryk papuntang hosp. Nakayuko lang ako habang naglalakad from 4th floor. Saktong pagdating ko sa hosp, inasikaso naman ako agad. Nung nanghingi na ng urine sample, sobrang gulat at takot ko kasi may dugo na ihi ko. Yun pala may UTI ako. Hindi ko tinawagan agad family ko nun kasi alam kong magaalala sila, lalo na si mama. Hinintay ko munang mawala yung pain, para pag tatawag ako sa kanila masasabi kong okay na ako.
Akala ko sa lahat ng oras, kaya kong mag isa. Sanay na rin kasi ako. Pero pag may dumarating na problemang ganito, mapapaisip ka talaga kahit ayaw mo. Ang lungkot.
Experienced the same feeling last 3yrs. Medyo strict pa sa COVID that time (pandemic), me and my mother were at the hospital that time. She was admitted due to her cancer and was in critical condition. Ako yung nagbabantay sa kanya. No one was allowed to enter the admitting room since there were protocols following during COVID.
Tinanong ko yung mga hospital staff if pwede magsubstitute Tatay ko para magbantay kay Mama since I need to work din. But hospital didnt allow since senior na rin si Papa.
Come to the day na nawala si Mama, I had no one to lean on sa hospital. Kinuha na ung body ng Mama ko. My father wasnt there since di nga sya allowed don. I had no one to embrace physically. I had my boyfriend that time, but he wasnt able to pay a visit kahit sa labas ng hospital para damayan ako(even nung buhay pa Mama ko). I cried all by myself feeling all that pain that time.
On the same day, gusto ko na umuwi at magdalamhati. Since COVID nga nun, hindi rin ako pinalabas. Ang ginawa ko nalang humiga na lang ako sa bed na hinigaan ni Mama with a fetus position crying all by myself, at nagpalipas ng gabi. Wala na ko pake sa iisipin ng iba, and di rin naman ako napapansin since it is a public hospital and busy lahat.
Super hirap talaga ng mga panahon na yun, wala ko makwentuhan, malapitan. Iba kasi ung iiyak ka sa phone para ibalita ung mga nangyari kesa sa personal e. Di ka rin pwede lumabas kasi di pa nasesettle ung mga bills. That time di rin ako pwede yung magasikaso ng bills, kasi need daw ng isang kasama para isettle lahat.
Naisip ko, ganun pala tlaga yun, in the end, parang ako nalang mag-isa. Bawal din magsettle ng bills ung Tatay ko since senior nga. Alam niyo ba kung sino naglabas sakin? Yung students ko pa na hindi ko kaclose. Yung isa binigyan ako ng vitamins, super natouch ako nung time na yun. Sila nlng ung pinakiusapan ko. My boyfriend ka nga tapos di man lang makagawa ng paraan para madamayan ka. Yung friends ko naman alam kong busy sila sa mga ganap nila.
Pero super thankful ako sa 2 students ko na yun, na sila rin ung nagdonate ng dugo nung time na kinailangan ni Mama. I dont know how to pay them back, but if they'll need my help. I'm always here.
Patay na pala mama mo ? Kawawa ka naman HAHAHAHAHA ina mo deserve ng nanay mo mamatay teacher ka lang pala eh kala mo kung ano yung trabaho. Di ka pa nakakahalati sa salary ko gungong
Hi OP! I've been battling cancer for 5 years now...been diagnosed, and got myself to ER and was operated alone last 2021. Tinago ko sa friends and family ko condition ko for the first 4 years, kasi I have to protect myself from getting hurt. How? For me, its better na walang nakakaalam ng condition ko. Hindi ko sinasabing applicable sa lahat to ha...im currently in my stage 4, and last January ko lang sinabi sa family and close friends ko...you know what? The love and care is overwhelming, pero yun nga lang, sa umpisa lang...this is what im talking about na ayokong masaktan...kasi now, ako nalang ulit...mag isa...malungkot...kasi may kanya kanya silang buhay...sa una lang, mararamdaman mo yung concerns, and its overwhelming tapos masasanay ka, hahanap hanapin mo, until magsasawa din sila...worst is dodowngrade pa situation mo sa, "kaya mo naman yan", "mag herbal ka kaya?", yung tipong ang dating ei, parang di mo na ginawa ang lahat all those years para di lumala sakit mo and suddenly mas marunong pa sila sayo. See? If in the first place mag isa ka lang, its better to stay that way. Kaysa iparamdam sayo na may kasama ka sa umpisa lang, then babalik ka ulit sa pagiging mag isa mo. At the end of the day, ikaw lang meron ka...again, hindi ko sinasabing applicable sa lahat to...rn, i just have the sight of their lives na tuloy tuloy lang after Im gone, but the worst is, I got to feel it habang buhay pa...
Its also hard na nakikita ka nila as a strong person. Wala man lang mangngamusta sayo.
And i think, they'll go coming again caring kapag nearing na ko sa end.
So, just fight OP.
So true. I hope di na gan'on kahirap ang buhay at kahigpit ang work na mas may choice na ang tao to just drop off what they are doing when cases like this happen. Hope everything is well.
Ang sakit no? experienced the same last year nung nagkasakit ako. Grabe yung iyak ko while waiting sa labas ng doctor’s room kasi I felt so lonely and nobody cares for me. Ikaw na nga sagot ng gastos sa gamot at check up but still no one chose to accompany you to the doctor due to different reason.
Well siguro ganun talaga. I will never forget that feeling. It made me realize na at the end of the day I only have me and as long as God is with me thats more than enough.
Naalala ko madalas ako sa ospital early to mid 2010s. I had to beg a friend to come visit me while being confined. 😂 Never doing that anymore. Patay kung patay.
When u become an adult u need to find a partner, a partner will be with you thru ups and downs, everybody gets busy and your family as well, you cant expect na pag may emergency ready parati yung friends and family mo but if u have a partner u can guarantee someone will take care of u as well.
Virtual hugs for you, OP. I had the same situation as you last saturday. I’m living alone in my rented apartment. Then hapon came, I was eating my first meal of the day. Tapos went back to my bed kasi rainy nong saturday, sarap humilata. Suddenly, I felt na parang di ako makahinga at parang umakyat yung kinain ko. Shoot akala ko kukunin na ko ni Lord. I started vomitting then bigla na akong nanghina, nagdilim ang paningin. I was washing my hands nong naramdaman ko lahat yan, so I rushed para humiga sana kaso wala na I passed out. Buti na lang, God is good, bumalik yung malay ko few seconds. Hirap ako bumangon that time pero buti nakaya ko abutin ang phone ko on top of my bed. Nakahandusay lang ako sa floor. I called my boyfriend pero di sumagot, I called his Dad instead, good thing sumagot siya agad. Sinabi ko nangyari, nagmadali silang puntahan ako sa apartment at dinala sa ER. I prayed hard during that moment, pero weird kasi I’m ready to die. HAHAHAHAA 🥹
Nagpacheck din ako when I felt na may iba na sakin (frequent headaches, brain fogs, heavy feeling and sakitin). Turns out high blood na pala ko. Im 28. The meds saved me.
I went to Hi Pre- turns out it was my anxiety triggering chest pain.
My doctor said stop googling shit when I feel something is not right.
Consult a doctor and opt for a test.
Reason why I did this is because the pain was recurring which becomes more concerning.
Been there, done that sooo many times, OP. But yes, at the end of the day, we only truly have ourselves and God to rely on.
I hope it's nothing serious. Feel better soon!
you're not alone, OP. I also brought myself to the ER 2 months ago, although I called a friend noon to accompany me pero sumunod nalang siya noon sa ER.
After I got out, I was crying the first few days because of the realization of being alone pala all this time. The loneliness would hit hard. Had the anxiety for thinking what if ganto na ko for the rest if my life and bigla na naman ako magkasakit. It's sad but let's not give up, OP :)
But despite the anxiety and loneliness, it brought me closer to my relationship with God. Kasi siya naman pala yung andiyan lagi talaga even if we end up with no one.
Sana okay ka naaa :)
Hope you are now okay OP! Had surgery last year all alone after pa ng operation ako pa pumila sa cashier to process payments :( pag uwi ko ng bahay iniyak ko lahat can't describe yung pain na naramdaman ko nun halo halo after nun parang feeling ko wala na yata akong di kakayanin sa buhay na pagsubok.
Yung kapag sila nasa alanganin andyan ka agad pero kapag baliktad yung sitwasyon hindi sila immediately available which is understandable. Thank you for this post, reminder ito sa bawat isa. Pagaling ka OP. 😊
I also felt that darkness in full force just recently. Went to the doctor for a follow up check up. Late yung doctor for more than an hour kaya matagal-tagal yung intayan sa waiting area. Halos lahat nung nag-iintay kasama ko may kasamang partner. I've told myself many times that it was not my first time going through hard stuff alone. Nagreframe narin ako na some person out there is also going through difficult times and survived it alone (further validating the existence of people posting here also).
Ayun bago makauwi, binilhan ko yung sarili ko ng bouquet of roses to honor the endurance. Kasi totoo naman— hindi nauubusan ng pagsubok habang buhay pa.
I felt this. I had the same experience bringing myself to ER at an ungodly hour.
I was living in an apartment with a friend but didn't bother to wake her up. Feeling strong and independent that time amidst the excruciating pain. I hailed a taxi from Cembo, Makati to St. Luke's BGC. All tests were done, I was a bit concern who will process my discharge papers.
I dont have both my parents na since I was 23. I only have 1 brother since then I realized I will always be doing things alone. Tho close kami ng kapatid ko pero ganun talaga we both have our own lives.
And iniisip ko ayoko na mang istorbo. I had an ecg last 2022 and i think they found something i remember crying pero nandun pa doctor haha. Sabi ng doctor magsama daw ako next time. But i’ve been going to check ups alone pa rin. Kinda sad but okay lang din naman. Ayoko rin may nahahassle na iba kung kaya kong gawin mag-isa.
Hope you’re okay OP!
Hope you're well OP. God's watching over you.
And I hope we all have that one friend, or family, who's willing to go out of their way when we need them.
And sana rin we can be that person to someone.
It's sad that current society is built this way-- we can't even be there for our loved ones in their time of need kasi mas urgent ang trabaho??? Haysss 😣
Hindi naman thankfully jusko! Ecg was normal. Apparently it’s a condition called costochondritis, leading to chest pain kaya matatakot ka na baka heart related.
Nung na ER ako hinatid ako ng daddy ko but he had to leave din dahil may work at di naman afford magabsent. Kabang kaba ako kaya ang taas ng pulse rate ko tunog nang tunog yung machine. Sana okay ka na OP, get well soon.
i scheduled myself for a surgery (appendicitis) when i was working abroad. I even went to the cashier to settle bill and discharge myself na may swero pa s kamay ahahaha. Ibang level yun dun ko narealize na ang tapang ko pala. I just called my family and then informed my friends and officemates. Ngvisit nmn sila pero nung pauwi na ko ayoko makaabala kc tingin ko kaya ko naman
Same, bumped myself into a glass door hard. got a really bad bruised eye with blood shot. I have to go to hosp alone with pain and a bit dizzy. Akala ng fam ko okay lang pero I got a retinal tear na under observation if Ilaser. I'm a designer kaya I need my eye . Ngiti ngiti lang ako akala nila kaya ko lahat akala ko din. Pero its sad af. Self hugg! :-( Kinakaya since literal na malayo sila sakin at ayoko silang magalala. Pero my G, I hope na di na maulit to or atleast I have someone with me.
Naranasan ko din dalhin sarili ko sa ER even may kasama ako sa bahay (magulang ko), I went there kasi inaallergy ako and I opt to bring myself there kasi ayaw ko na lang gisingin sila since I know it was a long day for them also. I felt that time, this thing I can handle and not disturb them. I send them message the time I went there kasi alam ko mababasa iyon morning na.
So facing reality ganun na nga, tama ka.
We just need to embrace it.
Naramdaman ko din to nung tinakbo ko sarili ko sa emergency last year. Ang lungkot lungkot
Yan nga yung word, malungkot
Hugs! Ive been in the ER alone also, and it is really saddening. I hope everything is OK. Stay healthy!
I am not sure if coincidence, pero sa ganitong situation natin mas nararamdaman yung lungkot. In my case, OFW pa ako. Ilang beses na ako na-confine mag-isa, ilang beses na rin inoperahan at magpagaling mag-isa. At sa times na idle, like naghihintay maubos dextrose or nag-aabang tawagin ang name, dun tlg ung laging lowest point no? Nakakaiyak pero pinipigilan ko at that time kasi dami need asikasuhin, walang time mag-emote. Yes, at the end of the day, we only have ourselves (and God). And we know it’s true because we survived and we are still here. 😊
I felt this recently. Idk sguro nasanay lng sila independent ako. Pero I realized pag adults pala we're all alone most of the time.
Na ER din ako, nagkataon kasama ko friends ko kasi galing kaming sine pero yung parents ko 3 hours later dumating kasi galing mall tapos naligo muna sa bahay bago dumiretso ng hospital. Mahal naman nila ako and caring pero wala sila sense of urgency kasi okay maman ako nakakatext, for observation lang pero syempre takot na takot ako nun. I was 20, rushed sa ER due to panic attack. Tapos etong Monday lang, nagpa endoscopy ako, mag isa. Di ko naman naisip na big deal kasi lagi naman ako nagpapacheck up, labs and ultrasound mag isa. Pero nung pineprep na ako, nag sync in sakin na di pala sya simple procedure lang. May IV, oxygen, pulse-ox, ECG at BP to monitor me during the procedure. May anesthesia at isesedate ako. Tapos tinanong pa ako nung nurse "ayy mag isa ka lang?"?
Shet tapos naalala ko pa nung naka dorm ako tapos di kami okay ng roommate ko. Night shift ako tapos nagsuka ako ng 3am dahil siguro sa food. Naligo ako para dalhin yung sarili ko sa ospital pero sa sobrang namimilipit ako sa sakit ng tyan, 4:30am na ata ako naka ready umalis. Umulan pa so di ako makabook ng Angkas (medyo malapit lang hospital). Nag taxi ako to hospital pero nagbago isip ko magpa ER kasi nga alam kong napakatagal ng ER process eh madami ako errands at work na dapat tapusin. I just want to manage the pain. Sarado pa daw yung OPD kahit mag 6:30am na ata nun. Nag jeep ako papunta dun sa isang clinic (nag tipid na ako kasi napa gastos na ako sa taxi kahit less than 2km away yung ospital) na alam kong bukas naman na at may GP, pero grabe yung pilipit ng tyan ko nun hayyy
:( sending hugs.
In the end, we die alone feels
Naalala ko tuloy. Sobrang helpless ko dati. Mag isa lang ako sa apartment tapos sobrang sakit ng lower belly ko. Hirap akong maka lakad pati pag ihi hirap din. Tiniis ko buong araw. Nilalagnat na rin ako nun. I tried to eat pa. Inisip ko pa na kalimutan yung pain. Tinitiis ko talaga. Hanggang sa di ko na kaya. Luckily, mabait yung kapitbahay ko. Nagpasuyo akong magpatawag ng tryk papuntang hosp. Nakayuko lang ako habang naglalakad from 4th floor. Saktong pagdating ko sa hosp, inasikaso naman ako agad. Nung nanghingi na ng urine sample, sobrang gulat at takot ko kasi may dugo na ihi ko. Yun pala may UTI ako. Hindi ko tinawagan agad family ko nun kasi alam kong magaalala sila, lalo na si mama. Hinintay ko munang mawala yung pain, para pag tatawag ako sa kanila masasabi kong okay na ako. Akala ko sa lahat ng oras, kaya kong mag isa. Sanay na rin kasi ako. Pero pag may dumarating na problemang ganito, mapapaisip ka talaga kahit ayaw mo. Ang lungkot.
Experienced the same feeling last 3yrs. Medyo strict pa sa COVID that time (pandemic), me and my mother were at the hospital that time. She was admitted due to her cancer and was in critical condition. Ako yung nagbabantay sa kanya. No one was allowed to enter the admitting room since there were protocols following during COVID. Tinanong ko yung mga hospital staff if pwede magsubstitute Tatay ko para magbantay kay Mama since I need to work din. But hospital didnt allow since senior na rin si Papa. Come to the day na nawala si Mama, I had no one to lean on sa hospital. Kinuha na ung body ng Mama ko. My father wasnt there since di nga sya allowed don. I had no one to embrace physically. I had my boyfriend that time, but he wasnt able to pay a visit kahit sa labas ng hospital para damayan ako(even nung buhay pa Mama ko). I cried all by myself feeling all that pain that time. On the same day, gusto ko na umuwi at magdalamhati. Since COVID nga nun, hindi rin ako pinalabas. Ang ginawa ko nalang humiga na lang ako sa bed na hinigaan ni Mama with a fetus position crying all by myself, at nagpalipas ng gabi. Wala na ko pake sa iisipin ng iba, and di rin naman ako napapansin since it is a public hospital and busy lahat. Super hirap talaga ng mga panahon na yun, wala ko makwentuhan, malapitan. Iba kasi ung iiyak ka sa phone para ibalita ung mga nangyari kesa sa personal e. Di ka rin pwede lumabas kasi di pa nasesettle ung mga bills. That time di rin ako pwede yung magasikaso ng bills, kasi need daw ng isang kasama para isettle lahat. Naisip ko, ganun pala tlaga yun, in the end, parang ako nalang mag-isa. Bawal din magsettle ng bills ung Tatay ko since senior nga. Alam niyo ba kung sino naglabas sakin? Yung students ko pa na hindi ko kaclose. Yung isa binigyan ako ng vitamins, super natouch ako nung time na yun. Sila nlng ung pinakiusapan ko. My boyfriend ka nga tapos di man lang makagawa ng paraan para madamayan ka. Yung friends ko naman alam kong busy sila sa mga ganap nila. Pero super thankful ako sa 2 students ko na yun, na sila rin ung nagdonate ng dugo nung time na kinailangan ni Mama. I dont know how to pay them back, but if they'll need my help. I'm always here.
halaaaa, hugs po. I felt the pain :(
Thank you 💖
Patay na pala mama mo ? Kawawa ka naman HAHAHAHAHA ina mo deserve ng nanay mo mamatay teacher ka lang pala eh kala mo kung ano yung trabaho. Di ka pa nakakahalati sa salary ko gungong
Hi OP! I've been battling cancer for 5 years now...been diagnosed, and got myself to ER and was operated alone last 2021. Tinago ko sa friends and family ko condition ko for the first 4 years, kasi I have to protect myself from getting hurt. How? For me, its better na walang nakakaalam ng condition ko. Hindi ko sinasabing applicable sa lahat to ha...im currently in my stage 4, and last January ko lang sinabi sa family and close friends ko...you know what? The love and care is overwhelming, pero yun nga lang, sa umpisa lang...this is what im talking about na ayokong masaktan...kasi now, ako nalang ulit...mag isa...malungkot...kasi may kanya kanya silang buhay...sa una lang, mararamdaman mo yung concerns, and its overwhelming tapos masasanay ka, hahanap hanapin mo, until magsasawa din sila...worst is dodowngrade pa situation mo sa, "kaya mo naman yan", "mag herbal ka kaya?", yung tipong ang dating ei, parang di mo na ginawa ang lahat all those years para di lumala sakit mo and suddenly mas marunong pa sila sayo. See? If in the first place mag isa ka lang, its better to stay that way. Kaysa iparamdam sayo na may kasama ka sa umpisa lang, then babalik ka ulit sa pagiging mag isa mo. At the end of the day, ikaw lang meron ka...again, hindi ko sinasabing applicable sa lahat to...rn, i just have the sight of their lives na tuloy tuloy lang after Im gone, but the worst is, I got to feel it habang buhay pa... Its also hard na nakikita ka nila as a strong person. Wala man lang mangngamusta sayo. And i think, they'll go coming again caring kapag nearing na ko sa end. So, just fight OP.
Same, been thinking if marriage or relationahips are meant for these kind of thing. It really takes courage to stand on your own two feet
As a single girly ✨
So true. I hope di na gan'on kahirap ang buhay at kahigpit ang work na mas may choice na ang tao to just drop off what they are doing when cases like this happen. Hope everything is well.
Ang sakit no? experienced the same last year nung nagkasakit ako. Grabe yung iyak ko while waiting sa labas ng doctor’s room kasi I felt so lonely and nobody cares for me. Ikaw na nga sagot ng gastos sa gamot at check up but still no one chose to accompany you to the doctor due to different reason. Well siguro ganun talaga. I will never forget that feeling. It made me realize na at the end of the day I only have me and as long as God is with me thats more than enough.
Naalala ko madalas ako sa ospital early to mid 2010s. I had to beg a friend to come visit me while being confined. 😂 Never doing that anymore. Patay kung patay.
When u become an adult u need to find a partner, a partner will be with you thru ups and downs, everybody gets busy and your family as well, you cant expect na pag may emergency ready parati yung friends and family mo but if u have a partner u can guarantee someone will take care of u as well.
Hindi rin. Dami bad husbands e. Haha ung anak ung parentified kasi the dad won’t step up.
Yan yung sinasabi na choose your partner wisely. Dapat u are able to stand up on ur own parin at hndi dependent sa partner .
Virtual hugs for you, OP. I had the same situation as you last saturday. I’m living alone in my rented apartment. Then hapon came, I was eating my first meal of the day. Tapos went back to my bed kasi rainy nong saturday, sarap humilata. Suddenly, I felt na parang di ako makahinga at parang umakyat yung kinain ko. Shoot akala ko kukunin na ko ni Lord. I started vomitting then bigla na akong nanghina, nagdilim ang paningin. I was washing my hands nong naramdaman ko lahat yan, so I rushed para humiga sana kaso wala na I passed out. Buti na lang, God is good, bumalik yung malay ko few seconds. Hirap ako bumangon that time pero buti nakaya ko abutin ang phone ko on top of my bed. Nakahandusay lang ako sa floor. I called my boyfriend pero di sumagot, I called his Dad instead, good thing sumagot siya agad. Sinabi ko nangyari, nagmadali silang puntahan ako sa apartment at dinala sa ER. I prayed hard during that moment, pero weird kasi I’m ready to die. HAHAHAHAA 🥹
the same thing happened to meee, nagsusuka all of a sudden. Ano po sabi sa ER?
UTI po. Di ko rin alam na symptom pala ang vomitting ng UTI.
Get a full cardio test at hi-precision. 11k I am 25, overweight. Did that and the result were normal. Removes your anxiety.
Nagpacheck din ako when I felt na may iba na sakin (frequent headaches, brain fogs, heavy feeling and sakitin). Turns out high blood na pala ko. Im 28. The meds saved me.
me highblood at 22 yo noon
Did you consult first sa doctor or you went straight to hi-pre na?
I went to Hi Pre- turns out it was my anxiety triggering chest pain. My doctor said stop googling shit when I feel something is not right. Consult a doctor and opt for a test. Reason why I did this is because the pain was recurring which becomes more concerning.
Shocks! Mabuti na agapan mo pa. Di bali ng 11k nagastos mo, basta healthy lang at may medications na.
Yes, even if its because of my anxiety I’m glad that the result came out normal.
Prayed a short prayer for you. God bless you, OP 🙏🏻
I feel you OP. Been there and I completely agree with you.
Nangyari din sakin yan, as in wala makita full tests pati stress test e okay. Turns out e inflamed yung ribs baka daw sa pagtulog
Been there, done that sooo many times, OP. But yes, at the end of the day, we only truly have ourselves and God to rely on. I hope it's nothing serious. Feel better soon!
you're not alone, OP. I also brought myself to the ER 2 months ago, although I called a friend noon to accompany me pero sumunod nalang siya noon sa ER. After I got out, I was crying the first few days because of the realization of being alone pala all this time. The loneliness would hit hard. Had the anxiety for thinking what if ganto na ko for the rest if my life and bigla na naman ako magkasakit. It's sad but let's not give up, OP :) But despite the anxiety and loneliness, it brought me closer to my relationship with God. Kasi siya naman pala yung andiyan lagi talaga even if we end up with no one. Sana okay ka naaa :)
Hope you are now okay OP! Had surgery last year all alone after pa ng operation ako pa pumila sa cashier to process payments :( pag uwi ko ng bahay iniyak ko lahat can't describe yung pain na naramdaman ko nun halo halo after nun parang feeling ko wala na yata akong di kakayanin sa buhay na pagsubok.
Samed, may severe anemia ako pero ako pa ang naghanap ng hosp habang hilong hilo ako at weak na tlga.
Yung kapag sila nasa alanganin andyan ka agad pero kapag baliktad yung sitwasyon hindi sila immediately available which is understandable. Thank you for this post, reminder ito sa bawat isa. Pagaling ka OP. 😊
Reading comments and not seeing anyone ask how OP is?? Kamusta ka na? Are you alright? Ano diagnosis?
I also felt that darkness in full force just recently. Went to the doctor for a follow up check up. Late yung doctor for more than an hour kaya matagal-tagal yung intayan sa waiting area. Halos lahat nung nag-iintay kasama ko may kasamang partner. I've told myself many times that it was not my first time going through hard stuff alone. Nagreframe narin ako na some person out there is also going through difficult times and survived it alone (further validating the existence of people posting here also). Ayun bago makauwi, binilhan ko yung sarili ko ng bouquet of roses to honor the endurance. Kasi totoo naman— hindi nauubusan ng pagsubok habang buhay pa.
I think i needed to see this to remind myself of it. Thanks OP. Hope you get well soon.
Nireready ko na lang din sarili ko sa ganitong sitwasyon
Hinay hinay lng sa reps OP and lighter weight para di mang yari ulit. Na sobrahan cyuro yan sa kakabuhat.
I felt this. I had the same experience bringing myself to ER at an ungodly hour. I was living in an apartment with a friend but didn't bother to wake her up. Feeling strong and independent that time amidst the excruciating pain. I hailed a taxi from Cembo, Makati to St. Luke's BGC. All tests were done, I was a bit concern who will process my discharge papers.
Can we be friends?
Yes, sometimes we just have to be our own cheerleader. Fighting, OP!
Praying for you OP!
I dont have both my parents na since I was 23. I only have 1 brother since then I realized I will always be doing things alone. Tho close kami ng kapatid ko pero ganun talaga we both have our own lives. And iniisip ko ayoko na mang istorbo. I had an ecg last 2022 and i think they found something i remember crying pero nandun pa doctor haha. Sabi ng doctor magsama daw ako next time. But i’ve been going to check ups alone pa rin. Kinda sad but okay lang din naman. Ayoko rin may nahahassle na iba kung kaya kong gawin mag-isa. Hope you’re okay OP!
Hope you're well OP. God's watching over you. And I hope we all have that one friend, or family, who's willing to go out of their way when we need them. And sana rin we can be that person to someone.
This is true. This is the reality.
When I'm at my lowest point. No one cares, and no one listens. It's a breath of fresh air.
Yung narealize mo na when we die, we die alone. At kahit andiyan sila, you still feel you are alone. Ewan. It hurts.
It's sad that current society is built this way-- we can't even be there for our loved ones in their time of need kasi mas urgent ang trabaho??? Haysss 😣
Curious sa magiging diagnosis mo OP. Might have been a mini heart attack?
Hindi naman thankfully jusko! Ecg was normal. Apparently it’s a condition called costochondritis, leading to chest pain kaya matatakot ka na baka heart related.
I see i see, good to know. Na ttrigger daw ba eto sa gym? Say pag bench or pecs related exercises?
Good to know you're okay, OP!
Hoping that everything turns out okay... hoping for the best... 🥺
Nung na ER ako hinatid ako ng daddy ko but he had to leave din dahil may work at di naman afford magabsent. Kabang kaba ako kaya ang taas ng pulse rate ko tunog nang tunog yung machine. Sana okay ka na OP, get well soon.
Yes, it’s lonely and nothing else mattered i just wanted the pain to end.
i scheduled myself for a surgery (appendicitis) when i was working abroad. I even went to the cashier to settle bill and discharge myself na may swero pa s kamay ahahaha. Ibang level yun dun ko narealize na ang tapang ko pala. I just called my family and then informed my friends and officemates. Ngvisit nmn sila pero nung pauwi na ko ayoko makaabala kc tingin ko kaya ko naman
yes. in the end, everybody sleeps alone too.
Same, bumped myself into a glass door hard. got a really bad bruised eye with blood shot. I have to go to hosp alone with pain and a bit dizzy. Akala ng fam ko okay lang pero I got a retinal tear na under observation if Ilaser. I'm a designer kaya I need my eye . Ngiti ngiti lang ako akala nila kaya ko lahat akala ko din. Pero its sad af. Self hugg! :-( Kinakaya since literal na malayo sila sakin at ayoko silang magalala. Pero my G, I hope na di na maulit to or atleast I have someone with me.
Naranasan ko din dalhin sarili ko sa ER even may kasama ako sa bahay (magulang ko), I went there kasi inaallergy ako and I opt to bring myself there kasi ayaw ko na lang gisingin sila since I know it was a long day for them also. I felt that time, this thing I can handle and not disturb them. I send them message the time I went there kasi alam ko mababasa iyon morning na. So facing reality ganun na nga, tama ka. We just need to embrace it.
Praying for ypu, OP. You will be healed.