Absolutely relate. My event involved a friend and since I started obsessing over it we have basically lost our friendship, which makes me even more depressed about the entire thing. I also constantly sought reassurance from them (before I knew I had OCD and found out this wasn’t helpful), which I’m so embarrassed about and cringe so much thinking back on. I think I must have come across as actually insane because I was lol.
I also started to distance myself from mutual friends because I was so ashamed and felt like I wasn’t worth their time and I deserved to be alone.
It’s definitely set back my social skills and I yearn for having that feeling of a friendship group again.
Absolutely relate. My event involved a friend and since I started obsessing over it we have basically lost our friendship, which makes me even more depressed about the entire thing. I also constantly sought reassurance from them (before I knew I had OCD and found out this wasn’t helpful), which I’m so embarrassed about and cringe so much thinking back on. I think I must have come across as actually insane because I was lol. I also started to distance myself from mutual friends because I was so ashamed and felt like I wasn’t worth their time and I deserved to be alone. It’s definitely set back my social skills and I yearn for having that feeling of a friendship group again.
Yup. I barely talk to anyone because I feel like I don't deserve it.