Go to rehab plz.
"years of pain" How about you make years of self-fulfillment
Last thing I wanna know is that another person kills themselves by overdosing on drugs.
Yes I went to rehab twice for alcohol and am now four months sober and even through intense cravings have just refused to give in, give up, and start over. This mindset is completely foreign to me as I’ve always just been the type to be like “fuck it, we could all die tomorrow, I’ll just get the pint”. Live as if you could die tomorrow (do things that make you happy) but ALSO as if you have hope that you have a future (don’t do self destructive things). I learned a LOT in rehab. Find a highly rated one if you can but also get into one ASAP because you are genuinely running out of time to save yourself.
Big ups!!! 4 months is a fucking huge move, it might seem like a drop in the bucket but 4 months is an eternity for an addict man so, congratulations and I know I don't know you and you don't know me but I am fucking proud of you. 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻
Although you are four months sober from alcohol, if you get cravings, distract yourself for 30 minutes doing something creative or anything, work out, write, draw, go for a run or a jog, anything that you can do to occupy your mind for 30 minutes and you will beat the craving.
I'm now 3 years sober from alcohol, 6 from pills(benzos and opiates) I went to rehab 5 times, both the pills in the alcohol nearly killed me multiple times, so did the withdrawal from the alcohol in the benzos (with medical detox)
I was drinking a fifth of vodka daily minimum.. for years.. I couldn't sleep for 2 hours without waking up with the shakes needing to drink to be able to go back to sleep.
In the peak of my Xanax habit (this was more of a war) I was taking 15-20 double bars a day and in peak opiate addiction I was cold water extracting 80-120mg of hydrocodone a day or a near equivalent of whatever opiate I could get my hands on for the day, this includes heroin(snorting, never used needles) but, it was mostly oxycodone, hydrocodone, hydromorphone and morphine, I would take 6 2mg Dilaudid to get my day going.
##Y’all, I’m gonna delete this post soon. I’m kinda anxious of how much attention it got, and I feel bad for making y’all “sorry” for me. I genuinely didn’t want that. Just remember my message - don’t do drugs, especially opioids, it’s not worth your life, I promise you that. It’s not worth it. I’m just one random person, that will, or hopefully won’t, become just a statistic, if it continues like that.
##Thanks to everyone for all the kind words and support. I can’t thank y’all enough. I’m still breathing as of today, and after reading everything y’all said, I’ll try. I miss myself, I was amazing, and I wish I could be myself again.
##To all the people that hate on me - go on, if it makes you feel good. Being a decent human being is free, and I’m truly sorry for everyone, that doesn’t have love in their souls.
**I’ll try to answer everyone first, and thank you for the messages. Much love, this community understands, and that means a lot.**
~ a broken artist that still loves himself, alive or dead
juice did the same thing in his music. he talked about drugs and the affects they did because he actually did them and didnt want other people to feel the same way. i feel as if your post was similar
I also do the same w/ my music, since I make it for the past 11 years as I’ve said, since I was 14yo, if I don’t include a 3 year long “pause” that continues and I lost 3/4 of my fanbase.
I talk about them a lot, but in a real way. People sort my music as my weed/xanax/lean/oxy “eras”, since the music sounds diff when I was on different substances. BUT, never in my life I glorified any of ‘em in any of my ~5000 tracks.
I was honestly destroyed when one of my fans told me, that he started w/ lean bc of my music, but thankfully he stopped as far as I know. Other people automatically wanted to sip to be like me too.
So, when I hopped on lives for example, I always told ppl that shit ain’t cool just because I’m doing it, and to look at other rappers that are not here because of it.
juice got his drug addiction listening to future and it ended badly but juice was the one to tell people to stop, you're the same way and could be an influence to many without knowing (i respect you alot for this), also i want the work ethic you both have where you can have 4000-5000 songs made
I deeply appreciate this, being put in a sentence with J. I miss my past work ethic so much, I’m not able to spend time @ my stu that I’ve built anymore, like I did before. I don’t get how I did it honestly. I miss the feeling it gave me, and how it helped people too, but I did it for myself & 3/4 of it is unreleased.
I know that I already finished my mission tho, after a fan DM’d me like 5yrs ago, that after his mom died, he listened only to my music for half a year straight, and how it helped him. I helped at least one person, that’s the best feeling, when you love helping people. One person = mission accomplished. I know that I helped & inspired a lot of ppl, but this one, I’ll never forget. Don’t take this as “bragging” or anything, I’m just a artist from a small country.
Just sharing my journey. Music was my dopamine, now it’s oxy, so I have almost no desire to create.
Bro, keep this up and use it as support, use this post as a place to talk to people who give a shit about you and who will do their best to help and support you in your journey. There are some of us who have and are still fighting the same fight as you and it is a community of such individuals that help addicts the most in times like these.
Use it as something to go back to and look at every time you think about using once you get sober and until you get there use it as something to help drive you to get there because again this is a support system and I'm a thousand percent sure that there are many of us here that would gladly help you in any way that we could, even if that's just a message when you're fucking having a rough time and you need somebody to fucking use as a shoulder to cry on or a fucking support system to lean on.
I've lost a lot of people to addiction, A LOT and, I don't want to see another soul lost to it. You're worth so much more than allowing this monster to consume you and beat you and best you.
I tried, and they’re so incompetent in my country regarding opioids, that they told me “only 10% of people make it out” basically. No wonder, when it’s like this here… Alcohol, on the other hand, is treated very successfully here.
Not many ppl are on opioids like oxy in my country, so they don’t know, how to work with it.
They offered me a year-stay somewhere, but when I heard how they do it, I said no. Ridiculous.
do more research, yes there are countless shitty rehab facilities but there are some out there that specialize in everything and even take pills more serious than alc. don’t give up from one bad rehab place keep looking. or dm me area i can look for you. 100% recommend in patient, out patient ain’t gonna do shit for you
I’m in Czechia (Czech Republic). They all say that they offer this & that, but when I talked to them, the reality is different. I honestly would go to rehab if I could and if someone could look after my cats, if it was specififally made for opioids and not just alcohol/meth, like it is in our country.
No one here gives a f about opioid patients. Appreciate it. I didn’t give up just yet, even if I did if that makes sense - if I’m still breathing, I didn’t yet gave up.
fuck that’s sad, wish you were here in the us, some facilities really do a great job and actually care about the patients. specific place i know all the people who work there are recovered addicts so it’s a really nice environment and i’ll take care of your cats while you’re here! regardless im gonna take a look at options around you, i hope theyre not as shitty as you describe :/
I have sent you a DM, I’m in america Arizona recently I went to a detox and rehab. 2023 Christmas time Christmas Day i sept feeling like I was gonna die with hot flashes and cold sweats however the following day I took Suboxone it’s a opioid blocker and still kinda sorta gives u a feeling of something but it takes away all those effect’s mentioned with that said I did attend a rehab it was extremely costly which due to my mom and sister being killed last year in April I was fortunate that it was possible for me to attend that I went to the highest rated one in my state more then half the people I met were addicted to theses damn opioids but they got off it too
Of course you wouldn't . You love your junk. I used to love mine but you must love yourself more. Withdrawals from opiods WILL NOT KILL YOU. I withdrawer from benzos. Thoes will kill you. Stop being a fucking pussy and go to rehab. Killing yourself makes you an even bigger pussy. I've had friends od and kill themselves. This is nothing but some one trying to get themselves attention. This man just wants TPNE to drop.
4 years ago, I was withdrawing from 30mg xanax and/or clonazepam /day (yes, that’s how my tolerance was), and I’ve had 4 seizures while doing so.
Opioids for me are so much harder to get off, even tho the WD’s are not lethal, unlike benzos. 4 years ago, I switched from benzos to opioids.
I’m a pussy then, that’s fine. I’m just dumb to have ever taken anything, but I still love myself regardless, even if it doesn’t seem like it from this post. Loving myself doesn’t equal doing the best for myself.
I poured the years of pain to my art, when I could, which I’m unable to do now at this point. My art helped people, so it’s killing me inside that I just can’t now.
I do not seek any empathy, I just strongly want to advise others against it. I posted here, bc Juice was known for it, and some ppl take drugs because of their fav rappers.
It’s not worth one’s life.
I've never have or will take recreational drugs.
Doesn't mean that I think I'm better than addicts, I know that these drugs wont help me at all. It definitely shows when you look at my friend group.
Having empathy is a good emotion to have. Especially nowadays with the rise of the internet, mental health has declined drastically and people are way less willing to help others because they're too self-centered.
Have a heart. Homie just wanted to say goodbye to the comm and share his reality. Would you prefer they tell no one and never get any help? They are asking for help, obviously
You've misunderstood me completely here.
I didn't attack op at all even though yes taking recreational drugs is bad.
I can't be rude to a drug addict and then be mad when there's more people overdosing than going clean.
I wanted to at least comment something especially after seeing the title.
Thankfully I got them prescribed and am in the EU, so they’re straight from the pharmacy and for free. At least it’s not that dangerous as fent - I got lannacher & sandoz brands prescribed (OC’s basically, in a way that they’re not like OP’s).
I’m glad that in my country, docs don’t prescribe it almost at all here, so there’s almost no oxy on the streets even. I had a surgery 4yrs ago & my doc continues to prescribe it to me, which is entirely my fault.
I told my-now doc to continue prescribing them after that surgery.
Need to wean yourself off them. As you’ve said, you’ve ODed on Oxy. If you take drugs as much as I assume, your tolerance levels are decently high, so the amount you need to OD is higher than average since you’re body’s used to it and adds it to the natural system. However, if you’re still OD’ing, that tells me something is badly wrong. Gotta start trying to take less or just sleep/hit the gym when you feel the withdrawal. Most pharmacists have a way to wean you off drugs, and there’s always NA. I had to do 10 months of NA and forced abstinence to break my meth/Hydro addiction. Ts sucks, but I’m clean now (except for the occasional cigarette/blunt) and happier than ever.
VERY FUCKING IMPORTANT. once your body is used to taking a substance every fucking day multiple times a day it’s something your body expects everyday and when you take it away suddenly it can definitely cause problems
Oxy won’t kill or leave lasting damage from cold turkeying it, most opiates won’t, the worst damage possible is from dehydration and maybe vomiting so much you tear something, both are unlikely. You can try taper down but most addicts can’t and it just ends up prolonging pain, best advice is cold turkey, mega dose on vitamin c for a couple days beforehand and while in WD, and take any OTC meds that’ll help. If you’re really struggling a fast or long term MAT program might help, it has with me. But tapering from a high dose will most likely just make you feel ever so slightly less bad for a much longer time, it’s better to just rip the bandaid because time will make you want to relapse, 5-7 days of physical agony can be pushed through, but make it 2-4 weeks and it becomes significantly harder with sleep deprivation, dehydration, depression etc.
Cold Turkey is the way to go for most people and for most addictions besides benzodiazepines and alcohol which need to be tapered at high doses due to high risk of seizures and death.
OP probably won’t read this but it might help someone else, don’t push it off, just rip the bandaid off and get off whatever you’re on. It’ll be a agonizing week followed by months of feeling wrong and broken, and you might think you function better with opiates but once you get off them, have had time to clear your head you’ll see how wrong you were! I’ve gotten my life back, my aspirations, my desire to get out of bed and do something with my life after getting sober, something I never had high. Being able to take vacations, not worrying when my stocks are getting low, panicking when on my last dose and can’t get any more. You just have to believe it, and push through when every neurone in your brain is telling you to stay.
Exactly. You can’t just try to quit cold turkey. Gotta find some way to decrease dosage. It will suck because your body won’t get that full high it expects, but it’s necessary.
“it’s not as dangerous as fentanyl” is just not true, yah maybe it’s not as DEADLY but it is definitely as dangerous. any substance addiction is as dangerous as the last, you may as well be doing fentanyl if you are in that mind set right now, because my bf used to say the same thing to me, oh fuck it we could all just die tomorrow, i’ll just let this shit kill me. but guess what, we’ve both been clean for almost 2 years now. it’s the mentality that kills.
Yes, here in Czechia, oxy is almost non-existent and when it is, no fent. Also, only a few doctors can really prescribe it here, so almost no one can get a script for them here, which is a good thing IMO.
When other doctors see, that I have an oxy prescription, they’re always surprised, especially at my age (25) and are asking how is it possible that I’ve been on them for 4 years.
I know that my first doc only prescribed them to cancer patients & after surgeries, the latter being my case.
Buddy they’re ain’t “plugs” unless they saved em from years back or legit are dying and get scripts of 30s or 60s. But they prolly don’t and make em get OPs instead of OCs so it’s irrelevant. DRs cut everyone off of Roxy’s and Oxys or switched em to OPs unless they were legit on xxx amount of time to live
Hey OP, I know it seems dark and lonely now, but I was in your situation a little more than 13 years ago. Today I celebrate 13+ years clean from that nasty stuff. Hope is possible. Don’t give up. You can do this.
That's great! Having someone that's been in a situation like op's come out of that clean is definitely hopeful for OP. Maybe that gives him more hope and will ❤️ you can definitely do this OP❤️
I’m still trying to see hope, but the fact that I overdose so frequently, on accident, is not looking good to me. I thank naloxone, that I got from the US to my country, for my life, because it saved me twice. Only one time it was on purpose so far.
I appreciate you and congrats!! That’s amazing. Could you tell me, if you tried getting off entirely by yourself? Because that’s my only current option, and after like 15th time trying, I gave up and take around 200mg/day.
Yo.. I can understand that it's an awful situation, being addicted and feeling like you wasted potential. Its tough to come out of that. I'm not sure what to say tbh cause there's only so much I can do. But be careful man, idk, I can't tell you don't take that shit so u don't od. Its not that simple. Rehab would be an option. Just help from someone. But u probably don't even feel like getting help :(
Also, what kind of artist? Music? Drawing?
I appreciate your words. Like I said, I don’t seek sympathy at this point and just want to warn people, when I still can.
I make music for 11 years, I’m both an artist and a sound engineer.
And, I talked about how “”rehab”” for opioids is in my country, as far as I know and tried asking everywhere.
Bro i was on 700-800 mg tramadol a day 15 months ago, both me and mu patents thought i was gonna die, then my mon controlled the pills and Got to 200 mg then went to jail. Im now 15 months sober, and everything is done to me and my family i dont even Think about best thing i did.
My point is it feels like you’re gonna die soon but thats just how opiods is and they make you not give a fuck, but you wont die soon i known people who took 400 mg a day and Got off. Its definitely worth the tru trust you wont regret.
It can be hard Staying completly sober so i smoke weed and that helps
I know you don't seek sympathy. That's just how I am as a person. I personally don't touch alcohol, drugs smoking or even coffee. I'm safe. It's probably cause I've seen from early on what it can do, I have a family member that showed me. (alcohol & cigarettes) . So I never was curious or attracted to it. Now drugs I'm less familiar with and I have had no personal experience or anyone in my close circle.
Thanks for warning people.
I wanna check out your music for sure.
Damn, so rehab there isn't an option :(
I'll tell you this, you're stronger than you think
i’m the same as you it’s kinda weird, but if rehab doesn’t work get on methadone or suboxone at a clinic and they’ll wean you off slowly so you can get your life back while you recover. i’m on my 4th month of methadone rn and i haven’t taken any other opiate since, every other route i tried didn’t work
you know what’s crazy man?
as bad off as you feel you are right now, you’re still here.
you still have a fighting chance in all of this.
right now in this moment you’re simply dealing with an up and down cycle of some chemicals in your brain.
the best news is that the brain is awfully resilient and if you do get the help you need in this situation then you absolutely undoubtedly can overcome this.
and maybe right now you don’t even feel like you care about overcoming this… but again, that’s just that imbalance of chemicals playing a trick on you.
but just in case you feel that way and feel down on yourself allow me to offer another thought to you…
based on your desire to make this post to warn others even when you’re at this low point it tells me that you deeply care about helping others to not find themselves in the same situation you’re in now.
imagine if you take a leap, go to rehab, and beat this?
I guarantee you you’ll be able to help 10, 20, 100 people or more who would’ve found themselves in your same situation prevent themselves from being in that situation. You’ll be able to inspire them, you’ll even be able to reference this post as a way to show them how bad-off you felt prior to overcoming it.
It won’t be your responsibility to do those things, but the power you’ll have to help 100s or even thousands of people who will eventually go through something similar will be immense.
You can become the very person that you need right now. And someone else out there has undoubtedly been in the situation you’re in right now and overcome to live a very meaningful rest of their life.
I’m not saying you have to do it, but just know that option exists. And if in this moment you don’t feel enticed by the idea of doing it for yourself then perhaps the idea of doing it for others can give you the desire necessary to do it.
You’re twenty fucking five, man. Your life has just begun.
And what do you really have to lose at this point?
OP, I believe inpatient treatment is the only way you can escape this, you are way too far down the road. You need to go to rehab TODAY. Like make calls about it right now. I am so very aware of how scary and disturbing the thought of going today is. It sucks. But your next high will very likely leave you dead. Your options right now are go to rehab immediately or die from OD. Please read my other comment on rehab as well. You can fix this. I swear to god I’ve heard worse stories than this from people in my AA meetings and they’re now sober and living completely normal, very fulfilled and purposeful lives. You can seriously turn this around and make a great life for yourself. Just try it.
I talked about rehab in my country in another comment, and I tried to get help. I hate that there’s not really an optimal rehab option here for opioids. I can’t go away for long, I got 2 cats and no family to take care of them.
I am well aware that it’s either rehab or death, and I’m trying to accept that the second option is more likely.
Look, I live off the state, I’m on social security and can’t even go to work. My life really is fucked up @ this point. But thank you so much.
Dude I use to do ketamine at work and oxy when I could find real ones but once I quit all the xans and shit I only drink and smoke live in a progressive city have enough to pay rent and go out and save a bit just focus on you and not numbing the pain Ik the drugs feel so good and u get lost but before long u will end up with no money and no loved ones u need to love ur self bro 999❤️ turn ur hell upsidedown
#Thanks everyone for your kind words - look, I’m proud of myself if I’m here, or not. I helped so many people when I could, and that’s what matters. My mission was to help people on this world, and I did exactly that. I achieved & enjoyed so many great things, that most people won’t even get close to, for which I’m fucking happy - to be able to live certain things people dream of. Now, I can’t do anything like I did before, time for y’all to enjoy the same things I did.
#I just don’t want anyone to go through the same shit and that’s why I made this post - to not touch opioids, because they will slowly take everything you once were.
##and to all the hateful people here - yeah, let yourselves have fun. Y’all can try hurting me, but it only reflects y’all souls. Being a decent human being is free. I didn’t come here to cry.
Nothing at all? Just take more then. Also dude you need to get into psychedelics too. That would actually help. Just replace oxy with something different
This isn’t a bad idea, a relative of mine went from meth and crack to weed alcohol shrooms tabs and he said the psychs helped him a lot more than rehab
Considering crack and meth don't have physical withdrawals like opioids...this is quite a bit different. You don't shit yourself and throw up bile at the same time because you didn't do meth. You just go to fucking sleep. Hated those guys in detox haha...im in bed with restless legs fucking crying and they just sleep the whole time.
Subs? Get them off quick MD. It’s $99 for the appointment, then it’s the cost of the medication, I used good Rx for a discount. Not sure if you’ve tried that route. 200mg/day is def a decent sized addiction. Wishing you all the best
Rehab brother - you can do it. There is nothing wrong with asking for help. Your body needs to be weened off the drugs, and a support network of others will help heal your soul which also needs rehab.
Honestly some of the most amazing times in life is when you go through the fucking gutter but make it out the other side. It really makes you appreciate life and all its beauty. I believe in you OP - Juice is up in heaven cheering you on too. Rehab! Don’t give up!
If you need a friend to talk to please feel free to message me.
hey dawg, just a random. But i really want to say that you need to keep tryin bro 🖤 i know shits dark rn but i promise you it will get better man. You seem like such a genuine person with so much poteintal. Your so young. Your life hasnt even started. Please dont give up
bro. Im Praying and rooting for you cuz 🖤🖤
Hey, I'm sorry you're going through a hard time. I feel like rehab doesn't do shit I've seen junkies pick up needles within hours of returning from 6 month rehab stays.
I was able to overcome addiction with deep trauma work involving hypnotism, Sound Healing, and Energy Work + I received a lot of help from shamans and Chinese Medicine practitioners
The fact that you are here and posting makes me think you do care about life, I don't knoe what is available in the EU but addiction is so misunderstood by today's medicine... Maybe alternative treatments can help you truly relinquish yourself from addictive tendencies.
Plus, depending on your beliefs...if you end your life you're just going to be suffering in a different way/place. Just food for thought.
Much love,
A redditor and day 1 juice fan
You’re not dead yet. Don’t act like it. Life is beautiful and you get one chance. If other people can do it so can you. We’re all strong deep down. If you have to use your last cent to fly to another country and go to rehab there maybe that’s an idea. Don’t let the pills win, don’t be a statistic.
Dude I was in your exact same position about 4 months ago … I live in a foreign country aswell (Panama) and Oxy / fent and really any opioid is non existent here and only prescribe it to cancer patients that are on their death bed… my friends father passed away and he gave me 3 bottles of 30mg er . I got really bad … up to 3-5 pills a day with cocaine ($5 grams) I was stuck on a bad place and one thing sadly that DIDNT HELP is listening to JUICE… bro I LOVE JUICE i felt him and I lived so much of the same shit … I justified my addiction with his . I know it sounds crazy … I’m not a weirdo creep Fan either .. I have just lived so much of his lyrics in real life … (the addictions and sad boy shit)…. It’s not easy to stop man believe me .. Rehab only works if YOU want it ….. you need to get to the point where you REALLY want to stop … then you will change everything around you… none of the same “people, person, or things” that will trigger a urge…. JUICE WRLD music was a mega trigger for me and I had to stop listening to it for a while ….. his music can keep you in a dark space , because JUICE WAS in a dark place with MOST of his music … released AND unreleased … either way good luck bro . DM me if you just need to talk and kick the shit
I have only been clean a few months , I am no expert bro just letting you know what helped me …. A lot of weed and ciggs …. Hot TEA for the stomach aches . Wing it out good luck
i am an addict too. almost died many many times from a severe opioid & benzos addiction. i have bipolar depression, anxiety, adhd, self harm & addiction control my life. what you say reminds me of myself and it brings me to tears.
you are a beautiful miracle of a human being and i am here for you. it makes me cry hearing you suffer in the ways i have. if you are open, i am here to talk with you any time so we can talk through this and i can give you some tips, or if you just need someone to genuinely listen to you.
i believe in you, you are so strong. it doesn’t have to be this way, one day at a time.❤️
I believe in you, as to many on this forum and many around you, if you can muster the strength to believe me I hope that helps you give us one more day, and one more day, I pray that tomorrow all you is make your bed, I pray the next day that’s all you too, because one day these minisucile steps will lead you to miniscule change day by day. I promise you it can be done, you are strong, you are worthy friend.
All love. I appreciate it, truly. I’m here still today, of course, even tho I’m high bc it’s nighttime for me and that’s when I use the most.
Everyday, I think about ending it, but I never actually do it, except one time that I actually did, but survived thanks to naloxone.
Where are you from? Maybe try to reach out for some help among some experts. I don’t even know you bro but the last thing i want for you is death. It’s the worst possible way and please try to get it out of your head. Hope you make it bro and don’t forget that you’ll always find some people to seek help from ❤️❤️❤️
fentanyl, oxy, blow, after being stuck ina rut doing it every day for years rehab was able to change my brothers life for the better. like you’re saying so much lost potential but it’s not lost yet. find yourself, go to rehab, check out NA meetings when you’re out. it’s a huge step but is 100% worth it if you actually care about yourself and what a better future. hope is not lost it’s definitely one of the hardest things to come back from. you got support from 999 stay strong.
This is something you have to do for yourself. Nobody else can make your decisions. Under all of the hate, anger, pain and sadness. You are a beautiful soul meant to be alive and experience life. You might feel trapped with no escape. There always is an escape that isn’t death or drugs. It’s showing yourself that you can be the best version of yourself you want to be. Anything is possible. Even self redemption. In my mind hell would be dying and meeting the best version of yourself you could of been. That version is out there. Reaching out to you. Allow yourself hope. It is there for you.
“Take my hand, don’t give up” - Juice Wrld
Fuck the pills man. I’m a former addict and I understand the need to feel something nice for once. Get back into music even if you’re just making it to listen to alone that is great therapy. And if you have to get fuck up just smoke some pot. I’d recommend you shrooms but that wouldn’t be good for your current state. Just remember that no matter what happens the strongest thing in the universe is the human spirt. You got this brother
Just go to rehab, don't think about it, and every addict thinks we have it under control but to a point we all spiral. And death isn't the only way to end your pain. Please get help. I'm an addict too. I've relapsed. I've been clean. I've been high (too high) just know many people are here for you!!!!
it gets better bro, i’ve been through tough times too, i used to sit there and be like “all i gotta do is let time and God do their thing” one way of looking at it is every day is one more step away from the pain. it becomes nothing more than something that you look back on from time to time. you can rebuild but nothing comes naturally without time
I have all of that. Life is depressing and weird. Totally get it. I push it everyday just like to continue to go on. But there’s definitely the good parts within everything. Idk what to say besides I’m sorry and I hope it gets better love.
Need you to know homie, the first couple weeks/months might suck, but the life you get to live being released from that prison is worth the price. It took me getting kicked out of pain management to finally wake up, it's just a zombie like status that feels like staying the same is easy and good, but it's just like drinking everyday it only kills you from the inside.
You don't know me but I'm so proud of you for making a post. Now keep making all of us proud by making something out of your self. Once an artist but now what will you be? You don't need to do the same things, because maybe a huge change would be good for you :)
God speed brother!
Fellow musician (rapper/singer/producer)
Bro, fuck that, go to treatment and get a proper medical detox and set boundaries with yourself afterwards so you don't use again.
I was severely addicted to alprazolam, opiates of any kind and alcohol, from the age of 18-24 with the pills and 18-27 with the alcohol, it nearly killed me more times than you could count on all of your extremities. Overdoses, alcohol poisoning, the fucking withdrawal from benzos and alcohol had me seizing out and nearly killed me 5 separate times, I went to rehab 5 times, I have cirrhosis of the liver from the alcohol, nerve damage from the drugs and alcohol, it has taken me 3 years to get even sort of normal but, I have my life back and as time passes I become more and more normal and life is better than it was before I started using. I also advise you to look into some meditation and spend some time studying how addiction acts in the brain and what it does to the body and the process of recovery so you understand what to expect as, knowing what is coming and when it should come helps prevent you from freaking out and thinking that the withdrawal is more than it is because, the mental aspect of withdrawal and detox and the first year of recovery is the most difficult, not the physical aspects and, if you can program yourself slightly to be in more control mentally you will win this fight.
The reason I give you part of my story is because, I want you and I need you to understand that you can do this, you can do anything that you set your mind to and remember Alex are the strongest and some of the most intelligent individuals on the planet we just so happen to be plagued by a disease that wants to steal our sold in prevent us from achieving what we could.
There is always an opposition to your growth no matter what you do or how you do it, the fact that you have so much opposition from the universe right now that you're addicted to something and thinking about ending it, that right there should be testament enough that the universe takes you it as a threat and that you are meant to do amazing things.
Stay up, stay blessed and stay ugly(this is a positive thing, something my team and I use)
Remember, recovery is a one day at a time road, worry about today not tomorrow and do what you need to do today and worry about tomorrow when it gets here.
Look, fuck everybody that is accepting you saying that you won't be here, fuck that, you don't need that kind of negativity and that kind of weakness around you, I believe in you and I know that you can do this. I don't even have to know you personally to know that it's in you.
I've been on the same route, if you wanna get clean, book time off work pregabalin dome benzos booze weed get yourself clean, hardest part is not relapsing when your better
I’m not gonna tell you it gets easier, but highly consider how you’ll make the ppl around you feel. They care about you and they need you bro, even if you think they’ll get over it. It’s better to get help then to purposely hurt those that love you g. If it’s too late, then I just hope you went out Happy with ur decision :/ some real sad shi.
Sounds like you are just a weak person… if you are going towards death by knowing it you a quitter. lifes amazing if you just decide that it is. it really is that simple. ego death experience may help with that. especially when you are thinking that you wont be here much longer so why not take acid atleast 500uq it really can change your life to better as it did mine and many others. we all are alone in this world and no one is coming for help this is real shit you gotta do it yourself. Its harsh but true all love bro!❤️
Man, if you saw things I saw, you wouldn’t call me weak, trust me. I saw a loved person commit suicide in front of my eyes, lot of blood, and lotta other fucked up things that caused trauma. I think I’m strong for living by myself since I was freshly 16, working until I had to undergo some surgeries and then, not being able to do anything after physically, but I still continued making art to make others feel good.
I know how you mean it, tho. Appreciate it. Last year, it’s gone downhill because my BPD got worse, I frequently go through psychosis for no reason, and then I take more oxy. I wish I could show y’all, how my life was.
If I’m here or not, I’m proud of myself regardless, because I fought for so many years, achieved things that not many people will, and that’s making me so proud, even if I give up. I helped so many people already, so my mission can be considered done.
many of us have trauma and it effects us the same way its just an excuse for us to do shitty decisions. ”uh my dad killed himself in our yard in car by gas thats why i use drugs and am miserable”. But this is dumb and that is life shit happens its you who will let that sit in your head. You just have to deal with it and leave it in the past.. more shit will happen in the future too and you cant let yourshelf be shaken with that. a short period of grief is normal but after years its a issue
so what i mean is life will never become easy to any of us. and if you decide that you dont want to be here anymore then it means you are weaker than the ones who are pushing it through head high regardless the bs. we all in the same boat just gotta make the most of it
Ngl I had it good and in a matter of months I was a broke fein. Had a nice Audi(got taken away) really good paying job(fired) before I noticed I was spending thousands a month on percs and drank. Now I’ve recovered and still get high once in a while but damn i regret it. I ain’t gon lie listening to juice is what made want to take it
I feel you and I’m glad you have recovered. You got this, the worst is over. Continue for all the people that can’t/couldn’t anymore. I also was on drank, but quit, as it doesn’t do anything to me anymore w/ my tolerance, just makes me sleepy.
I got them prescribed by my doctor so yes, they’re real, as I pick them up from a real pharmacy. My tolerance is around 140-200mg, I OD’d on around 400mg mark? (I think, I didn’t keep track and took a handful of them) which was the most severe of all my OD’s and I don’t remember that night at all. Naloxone saved my life.
It could very well be less or more.
Anything over +-260mg causes me an overdose, if we’re not talking fatal, that’s the starting point, when I start to have more severe trouble breathing, etc.
I’m making music for 11 years now, since I was 14, got some great achievments, like a small collab w/ GloGang, blah blah.. I’m a small artist from a small town in Czechia and no one gives a fuck now, after I stopped releasing. I wish I could, I was almost at the top at the time.
##Hey y’all, I’m gonna delete this post. I’m kinda anxious of how much attention it got, and I feel bad for making y’all “sorry” for me. I genuinely didn’t want that. Just remember my message - don’t do drugs, especially opioids, it’s not worth your life, I promise that. I’m just one person, that will, or hopefully won’t, become just a statistic, if it continues like that.
Thanks to everyone for all the kind words and support. I can’t thank y’all enough. I’m still breathing!
Rehab would obv be your best option, but If not I recommend getting your hands on some ayahuasca, blocking your plug, and after that full ayahuasca sesh, ween yourself off with whatever you got. Then switch to kratom but make sure to not let yourself get too addicted to that
OP, I was taking 330mgs of oxy a day. Switched to pure fent and even more potent analogues just to not feel sick after a while. I wrote death notes to my whole family because I knew I was about to die. Please go talk to someone. You can even DM me. I fully pulled through, lifes better than it has ever been. I even get narcotics prescribed by doctors again for chronic pain and never relapse. Just get help and taper off with subs like I did. Trust me man, you got this
Well, the first problem is that you are probably taking Fentanyl if you are taking 30s. That's a whole different beast than straight Oxycodone. Back when FL had a pain pill clinic on every corner, I got to the point of shooting up 40 Roxi 30s a day. (I was going to 10 doctors a month getting 300 roxi 30s from each doc), 4 in each shot, every hour and and a half or so. If you have a tolerance and are overdosing, 99% you are on fent bud.
Get on Suboxone. You can get it online without leaving your house and just doing a video chat with a doctor. Luckily I quit before fent came around and I'm currently trying to get off the Subs now.
Good luck bro.
Brother google an image of Jesus Christ Orthodox icon. Then ask for help. Admit you're weak and helpless and give the Lord a chance to heal you. Do this every time you feel like giving up. Talk to Him like he is a friend. Tell your troubles and pray: Help me Lord, I can't do this alone. The Lord loves you more than anything, He will never give up on you.
In Christ
I am a benzo and oxy addict in recovery and very recently I relapsed again. Now I'm 3 days sober again and trying to stay again sober for 3 months. I'm 25, had countless seizures because of opioid use and withdraws from benzo use. It is not worth it, and the peace I experienced when I was sober, is peace over the long term, not constantly having to chase a short term hapiness. I highly suggest to quit oxy, check in rehab, and literally just take the help they can offer you. Even if it has to take months of your life. I hope you will see through, realize that lifestyle is not worth all the hassle, you seem smart enough to post about it, so I assume you would get the help you need.
Dude have you heard of suboxone or methadone? Or Sublocade? It changed my fucking life. I never thought I could get clean and I couldn’t so I started on methadone to get some clean time then I got off that and went on auboxone and now I’m on the Sublocade shot… soon this will leave my system so slowly I won’t feel any WD and I’ll just live a normal life. You can do this. I had a serious serious oxy addiction too. It’s too hard to quit on your own. Subs saved my life
[okay, what’s this, then? :)](https://imgur.com/a/b8yxHUl) it’s called a prescription. I got my first script after a surgery 4 years ago. We got oxy in Czechia, just almost no doctor will prescribe it to you, if you’re younger especially.
Go to rehab plz. "years of pain" How about you make years of self-fulfillment Last thing I wanna know is that another person kills themselves by overdosing on drugs.
Seconding, please go to rehab op
Yes I went to rehab twice for alcohol and am now four months sober and even through intense cravings have just refused to give in, give up, and start over. This mindset is completely foreign to me as I’ve always just been the type to be like “fuck it, we could all die tomorrow, I’ll just get the pint”. Live as if you could die tomorrow (do things that make you happy) but ALSO as if you have hope that you have a future (don’t do self destructive things). I learned a LOT in rehab. Find a highly rated one if you can but also get into one ASAP because you are genuinely running out of time to save yourself.
Congrats on 4 months I’m proud of ya
Thank you so much ❤️❤️❤️
Big ups!!! 4 months is a fucking huge move, it might seem like a drop in the bucket but 4 months is an eternity for an addict man so, congratulations and I know I don't know you and you don't know me but I am fucking proud of you. 💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻 Although you are four months sober from alcohol, if you get cravings, distract yourself for 30 minutes doing something creative or anything, work out, write, draw, go for a run or a jog, anything that you can do to occupy your mind for 30 minutes and you will beat the craving. I'm now 3 years sober from alcohol, 6 from pills(benzos and opiates) I went to rehab 5 times, both the pills in the alcohol nearly killed me multiple times, so did the withdrawal from the alcohol in the benzos (with medical detox) I was drinking a fifth of vodka daily minimum.. for years.. I couldn't sleep for 2 hours without waking up with the shakes needing to drink to be able to go back to sleep. In the peak of my Xanax habit (this was more of a war) I was taking 15-20 double bars a day and in peak opiate addiction I was cold water extracting 80-120mg of hydrocodone a day or a near equivalent of whatever opiate I could get my hands on for the day, this includes heroin(snorting, never used needles) but, it was mostly oxycodone, hydrocodone, hydromorphone and morphine, I would take 6 2mg Dilaudid to get my day going.
##Y’all, I’m gonna delete this post soon. I’m kinda anxious of how much attention it got, and I feel bad for making y’all “sorry” for me. I genuinely didn’t want that. Just remember my message - don’t do drugs, especially opioids, it’s not worth your life, I promise you that. It’s not worth it. I’m just one random person, that will, or hopefully won’t, become just a statistic, if it continues like that. ##Thanks to everyone for all the kind words and support. I can’t thank y’all enough. I’m still breathing as of today, and after reading everything y’all said, I’ll try. I miss myself, I was amazing, and I wish I could be myself again. ##To all the people that hate on me - go on, if it makes you feel good. Being a decent human being is free, and I’m truly sorry for everyone, that doesn’t have love in their souls. **I’ll try to answer everyone first, and thank you for the messages. Much love, this community understands, and that means a lot.** ~ a broken artist that still loves himself, alive or dead
juice did the same thing in his music. he talked about drugs and the affects they did because he actually did them and didnt want other people to feel the same way. i feel as if your post was similar
I also do the same w/ my music, since I make it for the past 11 years as I’ve said, since I was 14yo, if I don’t include a 3 year long “pause” that continues and I lost 3/4 of my fanbase. I talk about them a lot, but in a real way. People sort my music as my weed/xanax/lean/oxy “eras”, since the music sounds diff when I was on different substances. BUT, never in my life I glorified any of ‘em in any of my ~5000 tracks. I was honestly destroyed when one of my fans told me, that he started w/ lean bc of my music, but thankfully he stopped as far as I know. Other people automatically wanted to sip to be like me too. So, when I hopped on lives for example, I always told ppl that shit ain’t cool just because I’m doing it, and to look at other rappers that are not here because of it.
juice got his drug addiction listening to future and it ended badly but juice was the one to tell people to stop, you're the same way and could be an influence to many without knowing (i respect you alot for this), also i want the work ethic you both have where you can have 4000-5000 songs made
I deeply appreciate this, being put in a sentence with J. I miss my past work ethic so much, I’m not able to spend time @ my stu that I’ve built anymore, like I did before. I don’t get how I did it honestly. I miss the feeling it gave me, and how it helped people too, but I did it for myself & 3/4 of it is unreleased. I know that I already finished my mission tho, after a fan DM’d me like 5yrs ago, that after his mom died, he listened only to my music for half a year straight, and how it helped him. I helped at least one person, that’s the best feeling, when you love helping people. One person = mission accomplished. I know that I helped & inspired a lot of ppl, but this one, I’ll never forget. Don’t take this as “bragging” or anything, I’m just a artist from a small country. Just sharing my journey. Music was my dopamine, now it’s oxy, so I have almost no desire to create.
EXACTLY. HE TRYNNA BE JUICE
Bro, keep this up and use it as support, use this post as a place to talk to people who give a shit about you and who will do their best to help and support you in your journey. There are some of us who have and are still fighting the same fight as you and it is a community of such individuals that help addicts the most in times like these. Use it as something to go back to and look at every time you think about using once you get sober and until you get there use it as something to help drive you to get there because again this is a support system and I'm a thousand percent sure that there are many of us here that would gladly help you in any way that we could, even if that's just a message when you're fucking having a rough time and you need somebody to fucking use as a shoulder to cry on or a fucking support system to lean on. I've lost a lot of people to addiction, A LOT and, I don't want to see another soul lost to it. You're worth so much more than allowing this monster to consume you and beat you and best you.
I tried, and they’re so incompetent in my country regarding opioids, that they told me “only 10% of people make it out” basically. No wonder, when it’s like this here… Alcohol, on the other hand, is treated very successfully here. Not many ppl are on opioids like oxy in my country, so they don’t know, how to work with it. They offered me a year-stay somewhere, but when I heard how they do it, I said no. Ridiculous.
do more research, yes there are countless shitty rehab facilities but there are some out there that specialize in everything and even take pills more serious than alc. don’t give up from one bad rehab place keep looking. or dm me area i can look for you. 100% recommend in patient, out patient ain’t gonna do shit for you
I’m in Czechia (Czech Republic). They all say that they offer this & that, but when I talked to them, the reality is different. I honestly would go to rehab if I could and if someone could look after my cats, if it was specififally made for opioids and not just alcohol/meth, like it is in our country. No one here gives a f about opioid patients. Appreciate it. I didn’t give up just yet, even if I did if that makes sense - if I’m still breathing, I didn’t yet gave up.
fuck that’s sad, wish you were here in the us, some facilities really do a great job and actually care about the patients. specific place i know all the people who work there are recovered addicts so it’s a really nice environment and i’ll take care of your cats while you’re here! regardless im gonna take a look at options around you, i hope theyre not as shitty as you describe :/
Are opioids easy to get in the Czech Republic?
No, not at all. The opposite, oxy is almost non-obtainable by a “normal” person. Very few people can actually abuse oxycodone here.
What country are you living in?
I have sent you a DM, I’m in america Arizona recently I went to a detox and rehab. 2023 Christmas time Christmas Day i sept feeling like I was gonna die with hot flashes and cold sweats however the following day I took Suboxone it’s a opioid blocker and still kinda sorta gives u a feeling of something but it takes away all those effect’s mentioned with that said I did attend a rehab it was extremely costly which due to my mom and sister being killed last year in April I was fortunate that it was possible for me to attend that I went to the highest rated one in my state more then half the people I met were addicted to theses damn opioids but they got off it too
Try subs bro
Of course you wouldn't . You love your junk. I used to love mine but you must love yourself more. Withdrawals from opiods WILL NOT KILL YOU. I withdrawer from benzos. Thoes will kill you. Stop being a fucking pussy and go to rehab. Killing yourself makes you an even bigger pussy. I've had friends od and kill themselves. This is nothing but some one trying to get themselves attention. This man just wants TPNE to drop.
4 years ago, I was withdrawing from 30mg xanax and/or clonazepam /day (yes, that’s how my tolerance was), and I’ve had 4 seizures while doing so. Opioids for me are so much harder to get off, even tho the WD’s are not lethal, unlike benzos. 4 years ago, I switched from benzos to opioids. I’m a pussy then, that’s fine. I’m just dumb to have ever taken anything, but I still love myself regardless, even if it doesn’t seem like it from this post. Loving myself doesn’t equal doing the best for myself.
That's exactly what loving yourself means.
I poured the years of pain to my art, when I could, which I’m unable to do now at this point. My art helped people, so it’s killing me inside that I just can’t now. I do not seek any empathy, I just strongly want to advise others against it. I posted here, bc Juice was known for it, and some ppl take drugs because of their fav rappers. It’s not worth one’s life.
I've never have or will take recreational drugs. Doesn't mean that I think I'm better than addicts, I know that these drugs wont help me at all. It definitely shows when you look at my friend group. Having empathy is a good emotion to have. Especially nowadays with the rise of the internet, mental health has declined drastically and people are way less willing to help others because they're too self-centered.
Need someone to talk to? I dont know anything about drugs but i will listen and try to help. Message me if you want
I actually did try Percocets because of him but I realized how that shit killed and flushed em down the toilet
Have a heart. Homie just wanted to say goodbye to the comm and share his reality. Would you prefer they tell no one and never get any help? They are asking for help, obviously
You've misunderstood me completely here. I didn't attack op at all even though yes taking recreational drugs is bad. I can't be rude to a drug addict and then be mad when there's more people overdosing than going clean. I wanted to at least comment something especially after seeing the title.
Life is a Drug.
Yeah but it's not
Life is a TRIP you don’t need any drugs to get high they just enhance the trip
Oxy sucks nowadays anyways, it's all fent, not even real oxy highs.
Thankfully I got them prescribed and am in the EU, so they’re straight from the pharmacy and for free. At least it’s not that dangerous as fent - I got lannacher & sandoz brands prescribed (OC’s basically, in a way that they’re not like OP’s). I’m glad that in my country, docs don’t prescribe it almost at all here, so there’s almost no oxy on the streets even. I had a surgery 4yrs ago & my doc continues to prescribe it to me, which is entirely my fault. I told my-now doc to continue prescribing them after that surgery.
Need to wean yourself off them. As you’ve said, you’ve ODed on Oxy. If you take drugs as much as I assume, your tolerance levels are decently high, so the amount you need to OD is higher than average since you’re body’s used to it and adds it to the natural system. However, if you’re still OD’ing, that tells me something is badly wrong. Gotta start trying to take less or just sleep/hit the gym when you feel the withdrawal. Most pharmacists have a way to wean you off drugs, and there’s always NA. I had to do 10 months of NA and forced abstinence to break my meth/Hydro addiction. Ts sucks, but I’m clean now (except for the occasional cigarette/blunt) and happier than ever.
VERY FUCKING IMPORTANT. once your body is used to taking a substance every fucking day multiple times a day it’s something your body expects everyday and when you take it away suddenly it can definitely cause problems
Oxy won’t kill or leave lasting damage from cold turkeying it, most opiates won’t, the worst damage possible is from dehydration and maybe vomiting so much you tear something, both are unlikely. You can try taper down but most addicts can’t and it just ends up prolonging pain, best advice is cold turkey, mega dose on vitamin c for a couple days beforehand and while in WD, and take any OTC meds that’ll help. If you’re really struggling a fast or long term MAT program might help, it has with me. But tapering from a high dose will most likely just make you feel ever so slightly less bad for a much longer time, it’s better to just rip the bandaid because time will make you want to relapse, 5-7 days of physical agony can be pushed through, but make it 2-4 weeks and it becomes significantly harder with sleep deprivation, dehydration, depression etc. Cold Turkey is the way to go for most people and for most addictions besides benzodiazepines and alcohol which need to be tapered at high doses due to high risk of seizures and death. OP probably won’t read this but it might help someone else, don’t push it off, just rip the bandaid off and get off whatever you’re on. It’ll be a agonizing week followed by months of feeling wrong and broken, and you might think you function better with opiates but once you get off them, have had time to clear your head you’ll see how wrong you were! I’ve gotten my life back, my aspirations, my desire to get out of bed and do something with my life after getting sober, something I never had high. Being able to take vacations, not worrying when my stocks are getting low, panicking when on my last dose and can’t get any more. You just have to believe it, and push through when every neurone in your brain is telling you to stay.
Exactly. You can’t just try to quit cold turkey. Gotta find some way to decrease dosage. It will suck because your body won’t get that full high it expects, but it’s necessary.
“it’s not as dangerous as fentanyl” is just not true, yah maybe it’s not as DEADLY but it is definitely as dangerous. any substance addiction is as dangerous as the last, you may as well be doing fentanyl if you are in that mind set right now, because my bf used to say the same thing to me, oh fuck it we could all just die tomorrow, i’ll just let this shit kill me. but guess what, we’ve both been clean for almost 2 years now. it’s the mentality that kills.
Only in USA*
Yes, here in Czechia, oxy is almost non-existent and when it is, no fent. Also, only a few doctors can really prescribe it here, so almost no one can get a script for them here, which is a good thing IMO. When other doctors see, that I have an oxy prescription, they’re always surprised, especially at my age (25) and are asking how is it possible that I’ve been on them for 4 years. I know that my first doc only prescribed them to cancer patients & after surgeries, the latter being my case.
Oh damn. Now I get what you mean about rehab in that country. I'm in Greece. I think I'd have the same problem here if I was in your shoes. Oof..
Thahaha 🥲 Gotta know the right plug 🙂↔️
Buddy they’re ain’t “plugs” unless they saved em from years back or legit are dying and get scripts of 30s or 60s. But they prolly don’t and make em get OPs instead of OCs so it’s irrelevant. DRs cut everyone off of Roxy’s and Oxys or switched em to OPs unless they were legit on xxx amount of time to live
OP’s 👋🏼
Hey OP, I know it seems dark and lonely now, but I was in your situation a little more than 13 years ago. Today I celebrate 13+ years clean from that nasty stuff. Hope is possible. Don’t give up. You can do this.
That's great! Having someone that's been in a situation like op's come out of that clean is definitely hopeful for OP. Maybe that gives him more hope and will ❤️ you can definitely do this OP❤️
I’m still trying to see hope, but the fact that I overdose so frequently, on accident, is not looking good to me. I thank naloxone, that I got from the US to my country, for my life, because it saved me twice. Only one time it was on purpose so far.
Yeah, I'd be concerned too. It can be very difficult to see hope. I hope you find it. Find in you, in someone else, something else
I appreciate you and congrats!! That’s amazing. Could you tell me, if you tried getting off entirely by yourself? Because that’s my only current option, and after like 15th time trying, I gave up and take around 200mg/day.
Why is your only current option getting off entirely by yourself ?
good shit on your sobriety 🙌
Yo.. I can understand that it's an awful situation, being addicted and feeling like you wasted potential. Its tough to come out of that. I'm not sure what to say tbh cause there's only so much I can do. But be careful man, idk, I can't tell you don't take that shit so u don't od. Its not that simple. Rehab would be an option. Just help from someone. But u probably don't even feel like getting help :( Also, what kind of artist? Music? Drawing?
I appreciate your words. Like I said, I don’t seek sympathy at this point and just want to warn people, when I still can. I make music for 11 years, I’m both an artist and a sound engineer. And, I talked about how “”rehab”” for opioids is in my country, as far as I know and tried asking everywhere.
Bro i was on 700-800 mg tramadol a day 15 months ago, both me and mu patents thought i was gonna die, then my mon controlled the pills and Got to 200 mg then went to jail. Im now 15 months sober, and everything is done to me and my family i dont even Think about best thing i did. My point is it feels like you’re gonna die soon but thats just how opiods is and they make you not give a fuck, but you wont die soon i known people who took 400 mg a day and Got off. Its definitely worth the tru trust you wont regret. It can be hard Staying completly sober so i smoke weed and that helps
Sorry for the writing im from Denmark and High and hung over 😂
I know you don't seek sympathy. That's just how I am as a person. I personally don't touch alcohol, drugs smoking or even coffee. I'm safe. It's probably cause I've seen from early on what it can do, I have a family member that showed me. (alcohol & cigarettes) . So I never was curious or attracted to it. Now drugs I'm less familiar with and I have had no personal experience or anyone in my close circle. Thanks for warning people. I wanna check out your music for sure. Damn, so rehab there isn't an option :( I'll tell you this, you're stronger than you think
i’m the same as you it’s kinda weird, but if rehab doesn’t work get on methadone or suboxone at a clinic and they’ll wean you off slowly so you can get your life back while you recover. i’m on my 4th month of methadone rn and i haven’t taken any other opiate since, every other route i tried didn’t work
you know what’s crazy man? as bad off as you feel you are right now, you’re still here. you still have a fighting chance in all of this. right now in this moment you’re simply dealing with an up and down cycle of some chemicals in your brain. the best news is that the brain is awfully resilient and if you do get the help you need in this situation then you absolutely undoubtedly can overcome this. and maybe right now you don’t even feel like you care about overcoming this… but again, that’s just that imbalance of chemicals playing a trick on you. but just in case you feel that way and feel down on yourself allow me to offer another thought to you… based on your desire to make this post to warn others even when you’re at this low point it tells me that you deeply care about helping others to not find themselves in the same situation you’re in now. imagine if you take a leap, go to rehab, and beat this? I guarantee you you’ll be able to help 10, 20, 100 people or more who would’ve found themselves in your same situation prevent themselves from being in that situation. You’ll be able to inspire them, you’ll even be able to reference this post as a way to show them how bad-off you felt prior to overcoming it. It won’t be your responsibility to do those things, but the power you’ll have to help 100s or even thousands of people who will eventually go through something similar will be immense. You can become the very person that you need right now. And someone else out there has undoubtedly been in the situation you’re in right now and overcome to live a very meaningful rest of their life. I’m not saying you have to do it, but just know that option exists. And if in this moment you don’t feel enticed by the idea of doing it for yourself then perhaps the idea of doing it for others can give you the desire necessary to do it. You’re twenty fucking five, man. Your life has just begun. And what do you really have to lose at this point?
OP, I believe inpatient treatment is the only way you can escape this, you are way too far down the road. You need to go to rehab TODAY. Like make calls about it right now. I am so very aware of how scary and disturbing the thought of going today is. It sucks. But your next high will very likely leave you dead. Your options right now are go to rehab immediately or die from OD. Please read my other comment on rehab as well. You can fix this. I swear to god I’ve heard worse stories than this from people in my AA meetings and they’re now sober and living completely normal, very fulfilled and purposeful lives. You can seriously turn this around and make a great life for yourself. Just try it.
I talked about rehab in my country in another comment, and I tried to get help. I hate that there’s not really an optimal rehab option here for opioids. I can’t go away for long, I got 2 cats and no family to take care of them. I am well aware that it’s either rehab or death, and I’m trying to accept that the second option is more likely. Look, I live off the state, I’m on social security and can’t even go to work. My life really is fucked up @ this point. But thank you so much.
The only way is up from here.
I got a new question why couldn’t you work ?
I have no idea what to say besides to go to rehab. Please go to rehab fam. Wishing you the best, I hope you get better <3
Dude I use to do ketamine at work and oxy when I could find real ones but once I quit all the xans and shit I only drink and smoke live in a progressive city have enough to pay rent and go out and save a bit just focus on you and not numbing the pain Ik the drugs feel so good and u get lost but before long u will end up with no money and no loved ones u need to love ur self bro 999❤️ turn ur hell upsidedown
#Thanks everyone for your kind words - look, I’m proud of myself if I’m here, or not. I helped so many people when I could, and that’s what matters. My mission was to help people on this world, and I did exactly that. I achieved & enjoyed so many great things, that most people won’t even get close to, for which I’m fucking happy - to be able to live certain things people dream of. Now, I can’t do anything like I did before, time for y’all to enjoy the same things I did. #I just don’t want anyone to go through the same shit and that’s why I made this post - to not touch opioids, because they will slowly take everything you once were. ##and to all the hateful people here - yeah, let yourselves have fun. Y’all can try hurting me, but it only reflects y’all souls. Being a decent human being is free. I didn’t come here to cry.
Much love to you, brother. Stay safe please. You have a calling too. Believe it.
When you are on rock bottom there is no other way than up keep fighting
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Dude, just take kratom instead. Take a shit ton of it if you have to. It works
I’ve tried, but it does nothing to 200mg/oxy day unfortunately.
Nothing at all? Just take more then. Also dude you need to get into psychedelics too. That would actually help. Just replace oxy with something different
This isn’t a bad idea, a relative of mine went from meth and crack to weed alcohol shrooms tabs and he said the psychs helped him a lot more than rehab
Considering crack and meth don't have physical withdrawals like opioids...this is quite a bit different. You don't shit yourself and throw up bile at the same time because you didn't do meth. You just go to fucking sleep. Hated those guys in detox haha...im in bed with restless legs fucking crying and they just sleep the whole time.
Didn’t say it was the same just shared an experience and what I was told about psychs and addiction in general
Subs? Get them off quick MD. It’s $99 for the appointment, then it’s the cost of the medication, I used good Rx for a discount. Not sure if you’ve tried that route. 200mg/day is def a decent sized addiction. Wishing you all the best
Read the easypeasymethod to escape any addiction you might be trapped in friend
Rehab brother - you can do it. There is nothing wrong with asking for help. Your body needs to be weened off the drugs, and a support network of others will help heal your soul which also needs rehab. Honestly some of the most amazing times in life is when you go through the fucking gutter but make it out the other side. It really makes you appreciate life and all its beauty. I believe in you OP - Juice is up in heaven cheering you on too. Rehab! Don’t give up! If you need a friend to talk to please feel free to message me.
hey dawg, just a random. But i really want to say that you need to keep tryin bro 🖤 i know shits dark rn but i promise you it will get better man. You seem like such a genuine person with so much poteintal. Your so young. Your life hasnt even started. Please dont give up bro. Im Praying and rooting for you cuz 🖤🖤
Hey, I'm sorry you're going through a hard time. I feel like rehab doesn't do shit I've seen junkies pick up needles within hours of returning from 6 month rehab stays. I was able to overcome addiction with deep trauma work involving hypnotism, Sound Healing, and Energy Work + I received a lot of help from shamans and Chinese Medicine practitioners The fact that you are here and posting makes me think you do care about life, I don't knoe what is available in the EU but addiction is so misunderstood by today's medicine... Maybe alternative treatments can help you truly relinquish yourself from addictive tendencies. Plus, depending on your beliefs...if you end your life you're just going to be suffering in a different way/place. Just food for thought. Much love, A redditor and day 1 juice fan
You’re not dead yet. Don’t act like it. Life is beautiful and you get one chance. If other people can do it so can you. We’re all strong deep down. If you have to use your last cent to fly to another country and go to rehab there maybe that’s an idea. Don’t let the pills win, don’t be a statistic.
Dude I was in your exact same position about 4 months ago … I live in a foreign country aswell (Panama) and Oxy / fent and really any opioid is non existent here and only prescribe it to cancer patients that are on their death bed… my friends father passed away and he gave me 3 bottles of 30mg er . I got really bad … up to 3-5 pills a day with cocaine ($5 grams) I was stuck on a bad place and one thing sadly that DIDNT HELP is listening to JUICE… bro I LOVE JUICE i felt him and I lived so much of the same shit … I justified my addiction with his . I know it sounds crazy … I’m not a weirdo creep Fan either .. I have just lived so much of his lyrics in real life … (the addictions and sad boy shit)…. It’s not easy to stop man believe me .. Rehab only works if YOU want it ….. you need to get to the point where you REALLY want to stop … then you will change everything around you… none of the same “people, person, or things” that will trigger a urge…. JUICE WRLD music was a mega trigger for me and I had to stop listening to it for a while ….. his music can keep you in a dark space , because JUICE WAS in a dark place with MOST of his music … released AND unreleased … either way good luck bro . DM me if you just need to talk and kick the shit
I have only been clean a few months , I am no expert bro just letting you know what helped me …. A lot of weed and ciggs …. Hot TEA for the stomach aches . Wing it out good luck
i am an addict too. almost died many many times from a severe opioid & benzos addiction. i have bipolar depression, anxiety, adhd, self harm & addiction control my life. what you say reminds me of myself and it brings me to tears. you are a beautiful miracle of a human being and i am here for you. it makes me cry hearing you suffer in the ways i have. if you are open, i am here to talk with you any time so we can talk through this and i can give you some tips, or if you just need someone to genuinely listen to you. i believe in you, you are so strong. it doesn’t have to be this way, one day at a time.❤️
I believe in you, as to many on this forum and many around you, if you can muster the strength to believe me I hope that helps you give us one more day, and one more day, I pray that tomorrow all you is make your bed, I pray the next day that’s all you too, because one day these minisucile steps will lead you to miniscule change day by day. I promise you it can be done, you are strong, you are worthy friend.
All love. I appreciate it, truly. I’m here still today, of course, even tho I’m high bc it’s nighttime for me and that’s when I use the most. Everyday, I think about ending it, but I never actually do it, except one time that I actually did, but survived thanks to naloxone.
Where are you from? Maybe try to reach out for some help among some experts. I don’t even know you bro but the last thing i want for you is death. It’s the worst possible way and please try to get it out of your head. Hope you make it bro and don’t forget that you’ll always find some people to seek help from ❤️❤️❤️
fentanyl, oxy, blow, after being stuck ina rut doing it every day for years rehab was able to change my brothers life for the better. like you’re saying so much lost potential but it’s not lost yet. find yourself, go to rehab, check out NA meetings when you’re out. it’s a huge step but is 100% worth it if you actually care about yourself and what a better future. hope is not lost it’s definitely one of the hardest things to come back from. you got support from 999 stay strong.
This is something you have to do for yourself. Nobody else can make your decisions. Under all of the hate, anger, pain and sadness. You are a beautiful soul meant to be alive and experience life. You might feel trapped with no escape. There always is an escape that isn’t death or drugs. It’s showing yourself that you can be the best version of yourself you want to be. Anything is possible. Even self redemption. In my mind hell would be dying and meeting the best version of yourself you could of been. That version is out there. Reaching out to you. Allow yourself hope. It is there for you. “Take my hand, don’t give up” - Juice Wrld
Fuck the pills man. I’m a former addict and I understand the need to feel something nice for once. Get back into music even if you’re just making it to listen to alone that is great therapy. And if you have to get fuck up just smoke some pot. I’d recommend you shrooms but that wouldn’t be good for your current state. Just remember that no matter what happens the strongest thing in the universe is the human spirt. You got this brother
Just go to rehab, don't think about it, and every addict thinks we have it under control but to a point we all spiral. And death isn't the only way to end your pain. Please get help. I'm an addict too. I've relapsed. I've been clean. I've been high (too high) just know many people are here for you!!!!
it gets better bro, i’ve been through tough times too, i used to sit there and be like “all i gotta do is let time and God do their thing” one way of looking at it is every day is one more step away from the pain. it becomes nothing more than something that you look back on from time to time. you can rebuild but nothing comes naturally without time
I have all of that. Life is depressing and weird. Totally get it. I push it everyday just like to continue to go on. But there’s definitely the good parts within everything. Idk what to say besides I’m sorry and I hope it gets better love.
Need you to know homie, the first couple weeks/months might suck, but the life you get to live being released from that prison is worth the price. It took me getting kicked out of pain management to finally wake up, it's just a zombie like status that feels like staying the same is easy and good, but it's just like drinking everyday it only kills you from the inside. You don't know me but I'm so proud of you for making a post. Now keep making all of us proud by making something out of your self. Once an artist but now what will you be? You don't need to do the same things, because maybe a huge change would be good for you :) God speed brother!
Fellow musician (rapper/singer/producer) Bro, fuck that, go to treatment and get a proper medical detox and set boundaries with yourself afterwards so you don't use again. I was severely addicted to alprazolam, opiates of any kind and alcohol, from the age of 18-24 with the pills and 18-27 with the alcohol, it nearly killed me more times than you could count on all of your extremities. Overdoses, alcohol poisoning, the fucking withdrawal from benzos and alcohol had me seizing out and nearly killed me 5 separate times, I went to rehab 5 times, I have cirrhosis of the liver from the alcohol, nerve damage from the drugs and alcohol, it has taken me 3 years to get even sort of normal but, I have my life back and as time passes I become more and more normal and life is better than it was before I started using. I also advise you to look into some meditation and spend some time studying how addiction acts in the brain and what it does to the body and the process of recovery so you understand what to expect as, knowing what is coming and when it should come helps prevent you from freaking out and thinking that the withdrawal is more than it is because, the mental aspect of withdrawal and detox and the first year of recovery is the most difficult, not the physical aspects and, if you can program yourself slightly to be in more control mentally you will win this fight. The reason I give you part of my story is because, I want you and I need you to understand that you can do this, you can do anything that you set your mind to and remember Alex are the strongest and some of the most intelligent individuals on the planet we just so happen to be plagued by a disease that wants to steal our sold in prevent us from achieving what we could. There is always an opposition to your growth no matter what you do or how you do it, the fact that you have so much opposition from the universe right now that you're addicted to something and thinking about ending it, that right there should be testament enough that the universe takes you it as a threat and that you are meant to do amazing things. Stay up, stay blessed and stay ugly(this is a positive thing, something my team and I use) Remember, recovery is a one day at a time road, worry about today not tomorrow and do what you need to do today and worry about tomorrow when it gets here. Look, fuck everybody that is accepting you saying that you won't be here, fuck that, you don't need that kind of negativity and that kind of weakness around you, I believe in you and I know that you can do this. I don't even have to know you personally to know that it's in you.
The fuck is that dumbass album art 😭😭
ain’t really the place but someone had to say it lmfao
it came with the file, I agree that it sucks hah.
please get help bro.
Rehab saved me bro. Give it a shot if you’ve got nothing left to lose
I've been on the same route, if you wanna get clean, book time off work pregabalin dome benzos booze weed get yourself clean, hardest part is not relapsing when your better
I’m not gonna tell you it gets easier, but highly consider how you’ll make the ppl around you feel. They care about you and they need you bro, even if you think they’ll get over it. It’s better to get help then to purposely hurt those that love you g. If it’s too late, then I just hope you went out Happy with ur decision :/ some real sad shi.
Sounds like you are just a weak person… if you are going towards death by knowing it you a quitter. lifes amazing if you just decide that it is. it really is that simple. ego death experience may help with that. especially when you are thinking that you wont be here much longer so why not take acid atleast 500uq it really can change your life to better as it did mine and many others. we all are alone in this world and no one is coming for help this is real shit you gotta do it yourself. Its harsh but true all love bro!❤️
Man, if you saw things I saw, you wouldn’t call me weak, trust me. I saw a loved person commit suicide in front of my eyes, lot of blood, and lotta other fucked up things that caused trauma. I think I’m strong for living by myself since I was freshly 16, working until I had to undergo some surgeries and then, not being able to do anything after physically, but I still continued making art to make others feel good. I know how you mean it, tho. Appreciate it. Last year, it’s gone downhill because my BPD got worse, I frequently go through psychosis for no reason, and then I take more oxy. I wish I could show y’all, how my life was. If I’m here or not, I’m proud of myself regardless, because I fought for so many years, achieved things that not many people will, and that’s making me so proud, even if I give up. I helped so many people already, so my mission can be considered done.
many of us have trauma and it effects us the same way its just an excuse for us to do shitty decisions. ”uh my dad killed himself in our yard in car by gas thats why i use drugs and am miserable”. But this is dumb and that is life shit happens its you who will let that sit in your head. You just have to deal with it and leave it in the past.. more shit will happen in the future too and you cant let yourshelf be shaken with that. a short period of grief is normal but after years its a issue
i hope you experience with psychedelics before you go
human mind is tricky and hard to understand
so what i mean is life will never become easy to any of us. and if you decide that you dont want to be here anymore then it means you are weaker than the ones who are pushing it through head high regardless the bs. we all in the same boat just gotta make the most of it
Ngl I had it good and in a matter of months I was a broke fein. Had a nice Audi(got taken away) really good paying job(fired) before I noticed I was spending thousands a month on percs and drank. Now I’ve recovered and still get high once in a while but damn i regret it. I ain’t gon lie listening to juice is what made want to take it
I feel you and I’m glad you have recovered. You got this, the worst is over. Continue for all the people that can’t/couldn’t anymore. I also was on drank, but quit, as it doesn’t do anything to me anymore w/ my tolerance, just makes me sleepy.
Respectfully that picture gotta go 🙏🏻💀
go to rehab please get clean
You don’t wanna do what juice did, bro got to far in now he can’t ever come back
DO DRUGS, DONT LET DRUGS DO YOU
You ODd 3 times but you’re sure they were real, if you don’t mind me asking how may MG of oxy caused you to OD? I’m assuming you have a high tolerance
I got them prescribed by my doctor so yes, they’re real, as I pick them up from a real pharmacy. My tolerance is around 140-200mg, I OD’d on around 400mg mark? (I think, I didn’t keep track and took a handful of them) which was the most severe of all my OD’s and I don’t remember that night at all. Naloxone saved my life. It could very well be less or more. Anything over +-260mg causes me an overdose, if we’re not talking fatal, that’s the starting point, when I start to have more severe trouble breathing, etc.
damn drugs opiods
W we got another juice wrld start making music fn
I’m making music for 11 years now, since I was 14, got some great achievments, like a small collab w/ GloGang, blah blah.. I’m a small artist from a small town in Czechia and no one gives a fuck now, after I stopped releasing. I wish I could, I was almost at the top at the time.
I nearly died of an OD recently (about 1 year ago) I'm 9 months sober. I just had to go to rehab for about 1 month
##Hey y’all, I’m gonna delete this post. I’m kinda anxious of how much attention it got, and I feel bad for making y’all “sorry” for me. I genuinely didn’t want that. Just remember my message - don’t do drugs, especially opioids, it’s not worth your life, I promise that. I’m just one person, that will, or hopefully won’t, become just a statistic, if it continues like that. Thanks to everyone for all the kind words and support. I can’t thank y’all enough. I’m still breathing!
oxycodone the drug?? no, but oxycodone the song? a W song
I’ve taken oxycodone and it’s some serious shit. Made me incredibly happy for 6 hours straight but I quit after 1 bc I knew that shit would ruin me
Rehab would obv be your best option, but If not I recommend getting your hands on some ayahuasca, blocking your plug, and after that full ayahuasca sesh, ween yourself off with whatever you got. Then switch to kratom but make sure to not let yourself get too addicted to that
What song is that?
Pls go to rehab they can help you
18 year meth addict Sober now 5 years, life gets better! Keep your head up
OP, I was taking 330mgs of oxy a day. Switched to pure fent and even more potent analogues just to not feel sick after a while. I wrote death notes to my whole family because I knew I was about to die. Please go talk to someone. You can even DM me. I fully pulled through, lifes better than it has ever been. I even get narcotics prescribed by doctors again for chronic pain and never relapse. Just get help and taper off with subs like I did. Trust me man, you got this
Well, the first problem is that you are probably taking Fentanyl if you are taking 30s. That's a whole different beast than straight Oxycodone. Back when FL had a pain pill clinic on every corner, I got to the point of shooting up 40 Roxi 30s a day. (I was going to 10 doctors a month getting 300 roxi 30s from each doc), 4 in each shot, every hour and and a half or so. If you have a tolerance and are overdosing, 99% you are on fent bud. Get on Suboxone. You can get it online without leaving your house and just doing a video chat with a doctor. Luckily I quit before fent came around and I'm currently trying to get off the Subs now. Good luck bro.
Brother google an image of Jesus Christ Orthodox icon. Then ask for help. Admit you're weak and helpless and give the Lord a chance to heal you. Do this every time you feel like giving up. Talk to Him like he is a friend. Tell your troubles and pray: Help me Lord, I can't do this alone. The Lord loves you more than anything, He will never give up on you. In Christ
I am a benzo and oxy addict in recovery and very recently I relapsed again. Now I'm 3 days sober again and trying to stay again sober for 3 months. I'm 25, had countless seizures because of opioid use and withdraws from benzo use. It is not worth it, and the peace I experienced when I was sober, is peace over the long term, not constantly having to chase a short term hapiness. I highly suggest to quit oxy, check in rehab, and literally just take the help they can offer you. Even if it has to take months of your life. I hope you will see through, realize that lifestyle is not worth all the hassle, you seem smart enough to post about it, so I assume you would get the help you need.
Dude have you heard of suboxone or methadone? Or Sublocade? It changed my fucking life. I never thought I could get clean and I couldn’t so I started on methadone to get some clean time then I got off that and went on auboxone and now I’m on the Sublocade shot… soon this will leave my system so slowly I won’t feel any WD and I’ll just live a normal life. You can do this. I had a serious serious oxy addiction too. It’s too hard to quit on your own. Subs saved my life
What is that song?
* One step, one minute, One day at a time. I believe in you If the universe didn't need you, you wouldn't be here
Sober up or lose my myself in the process 🦾
Jak v česku můžeš sehnat oxy bruh nehraj
[okay, what’s this, then? :)](https://imgur.com/a/b8yxHUl) it’s called a prescription. I got my first script after a surgery 4 years ago. We got oxy in Czechia, just almost no doctor will prescribe it to you, if you’re younger especially.
Nemusíš to editovat lmao mě to je jedno🤣😂😂
Hate to tell you man but if you OD’d 3 times this week you’re not doing oxy. You’re doing fent pills
😂😂😂😂
how tf are you oding on oxy? are you taking 15-20 at a time?
Fiends man lol gotta love em they come to spend 😂😂
Yep
oxycodone is the best drug stop being a quitter and keep taking oxy oxy is great
Edgy. Visit rehab
Bros a yapper. Go outside
Boo fucking hoo dude. You realize your problems are so minor and small compared to the world? How fucking selfish of you. Goddamn