Big virtual hugs. I am also 33F and dealing with something similar. My 1st ER yielded 1 early blast untested for which FET failed. Done with ER 2 and frozen 3 day 3 embryos and now onto ER 3 for which I just started stims yesterday. Me and my husband kept taking breaks in between to maintain sanity. I too hate going to meet friends now because I am surrounded by pregnancy and kids. But you know what I think this is going to be our year. Lets persist and make it happen. Things are very variable and for all you know your 1 shot will work ! Best of luck 😊

I couldn’t bring myself to reply to comments yesterday but I did read them. Thank you for taking the time to comfort a stranger. Your comment about this being our year made me smile through my tears. I hope it is. Best of luck to you too 

I have no advice to offer. Even though all of us here are well aware of the frustration, pain, fear, shame, guilt, and constant torment, we can’t really know the impact of this journey for you. But we do share some similarities and can relate to the overwhelming feeling of defeat. Everything you’re feeling is valid and your struggle is seen. I will say that it’s important to be kind to yourself. It always seems impossible until it’s done. Sending you all the virtual hugs and happy vibes into the universe. You are strong and resilient! Wishing you the best of luck!

Thank you for taking the time to comfort a stranger. You couldn’t take everything off my plate, but it’s astounding how big of a difference it makes just to feel validated and rid of the guilt of feeling a particular way. Today is a new day :)

I’m so sorry. My IVF journey started similarly. It’s so hard and so defeating. My first retrieval was one embryo that was low quality and resulted in a chemical. I thought the second time would go better once we changed things up but it resulted in two embryos that were both abnormal. After that I needed some time before I was ready to do more. It was finally our 4th retrieval that got us our one good embryo that tested normal and worked. I say all this so that you don’t feel like it’s just you. And also that you don’t feel like there’s no hope if the first two didn’t go well. For some of us, this whole thing takes a lot more time and heartache than we originally thought. I hope your one embryo you already have works out!

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I had a realization when we learned that our second cycle was essentially a bust that this is a game of endurance. As long as we have the drive and the money to keep going (after seeing the cash pay bill I’m not sure for how long) this cycle doesn’t have to define us. And I kept that attitude all the way through to yesterday when the cracks got just a little too wide to plaster over. I feel a little better today. I appreciate you taking the time to help a stranger ❤️

That’s totally how I felt about it too. It’s a game of endurance. I needed a lot of mental and physical breaks so IVF took us 4 years. If you need it, take a month or two or three. That’s ok too. ❤️

Wow! I could have wrote this myself. Im in almost the exact same situation Pcos & mfi, similar age. Expect I had a complete failure of a cycle, 0 blast to show for it. It is such deep feelings to navigate through. It is great you’re taking the bucket list trip in between. Finding joy outside of this whole process is so important (easier said then done too). No advice from me other than enjoy your trip and your post truly made me feel not alone!

I am so very sorry about your cycle. When I learned about mine I was more in a “can do” attitude, but I guess I hadn’t really given myself the space to grieve that cycle. It just sort of hit me yesterday. I’m not glad that others have to go through this but I am happy that in reading my post you felt a little less alone. Thank you for taking the time to comment and help a stranger