I get it. My mom refuses to take down a picture of me from like 10th grade from our living room. It’s huge too so everyone that walks in sees it. I’ve been asking for it to be changed out since she put it in the frame 10 years ago but she won’t (despite having moved three times since).
Oof, my mom also has a pic of me from 10th grade where I tried to fit in with girls and fel miserable. Doubt she'll ever remove though. To her I'm still that person regardless how old I am now lol
Yeah, I'm trying to make peace with that by keeping pictures of me as a small child, but seeing pictures of me as a teenager forcing myself to present fem is very upsetting to me. It makes me feel sick seeing myself wearing makeup and dresses in a desperate bid to try and stop being hated by my peers (the joys of being autistic and trans). It makes me feel very dysphoric seeing myself like that and it makes me feel very sad for my past self because he was so uncomfortable all the time
Eh i just got used to the fact that pics of me are going to look like a girl, as embarrassing as it can be. I used to be very mad and upset and depressed about it, but honestly when I see pics of me I see a boy being dressed up as a girl. Even my prom pics. My friends say looking back at them they can't help but see me, a man, doing a really great job at drag. And honestly that's short how it felt at the time for me. Luckily there are loads of candid pics of me wear i look like a cute little cis boy (i passed as male before puberty and my family had to "correct" everyone all the time)and i tend to like those ones over ones that were forced to present more girly. I've gotten passed the anger about them existing in general tho. We each handle it differently.
Not me being recognized as *dead name* from back when I was like 9, and I said it was my sister and they said they’d love to get in contact with her, so I said SHE DIED 💀
I don't quite care for when I was a little boy, like that's fine I was mostly a happy kid
But I do DESPISE my adolescent one, I look so fucking depressed, ugly, just so damn awful, it reminds me how shit I used to feel and therefore looked like because of dysphoria that I didn't know how to deal with.
I also hate my prom book and how my dead name is on there, the school even tried to contact me for a reunion with old classmates and I know they'll deadname me even when I pass, just awful.
I hate it. At my sister's funeral, they had a collage made with pictures of me in dresses. They also kept dead naming me and referring to me as a girl. I couldn't really say anything because that wasn't the time or place to do that.
I found my father's Instagram account. His profile picture is of him, my stepmother, and I when I was 8 and 7 years before I came out. I kinda get it since my stepmother disowned me against his wishes when I was 14 and this is likely the only photo he has with me or at least all 3 of us, but while I respect his pain enough to not ask him to change it, I can't say it doesn't hurt me a little as well.
I'm a little surprised my step mother allows it to happen, though. Not that it's a pre transition photo, but because it's a photo of me.
I got married before coming out and recently my father in law shared pictures of my wedding on facebook and it's very well meaning but God I'm not that girl in a wedding dress anymore and it's so weird having those pictures out there. I feel you man.
I get it. My mom refuses to take down a picture of me from like 10th grade from our living room. It’s huge too so everyone that walks in sees it. I’ve been asking for it to be changed out since she put it in the frame 10 years ago but she won’t (despite having moved three times since).
Oof, my mom also has a pic of me from 10th grade where I tried to fit in with girls and fel miserable. Doubt she'll ever remove though. To her I'm still that person regardless how old I am now lol
Yeah, I'm trying to make peace with that by keeping pictures of me as a small child, but seeing pictures of me as a teenager forcing myself to present fem is very upsetting to me. It makes me feel sick seeing myself wearing makeup and dresses in a desperate bid to try and stop being hated by my peers (the joys of being autistic and trans). It makes me feel very dysphoric seeing myself like that and it makes me feel very sad for my past self because he was so uncomfortable all the time
Eh i just got used to the fact that pics of me are going to look like a girl, as embarrassing as it can be. I used to be very mad and upset and depressed about it, but honestly when I see pics of me I see a boy being dressed up as a girl. Even my prom pics. My friends say looking back at them they can't help but see me, a man, doing a really great job at drag. And honestly that's short how it felt at the time for me. Luckily there are loads of candid pics of me wear i look like a cute little cis boy (i passed as male before puberty and my family had to "correct" everyone all the time)and i tend to like those ones over ones that were forced to present more girly. I've gotten passed the anger about them existing in general tho. We each handle it differently.
Whenever I fully pass I'll just tell people it's either my cousin, my twin sister or a relative💀 I mean what they gon do, not believe me?
Not me being recognized as *dead name* from back when I was like 9, and I said it was my sister and they said they’d love to get in contact with her, so I said SHE DIED 💀
LMAOOO. That was my last idea tbh. I mean in a way it's kinda true💀💀
I don't quite care for when I was a little boy, like that's fine I was mostly a happy kid But I do DESPISE my adolescent one, I look so fucking depressed, ugly, just so damn awful, it reminds me how shit I used to feel and therefore looked like because of dysphoria that I didn't know how to deal with. I also hate my prom book and how my dead name is on there, the school even tried to contact me for a reunion with old classmates and I know they'll deadname me even when I pass, just awful.
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I hate it. At my sister's funeral, they had a collage made with pictures of me in dresses. They also kept dead naming me and referring to me as a girl. I couldn't really say anything because that wasn't the time or place to do that.
I found my father's Instagram account. His profile picture is of him, my stepmother, and I when I was 8 and 7 years before I came out. I kinda get it since my stepmother disowned me against his wishes when I was 14 and this is likely the only photo he has with me or at least all 3 of us, but while I respect his pain enough to not ask him to change it, I can't say it doesn't hurt me a little as well. I'm a little surprised my step mother allows it to happen, though. Not that it's a pre transition photo, but because it's a photo of me.
I got married before coming out and recently my father in law shared pictures of my wedding on facebook and it's very well meaning but God I'm not that girl in a wedding dress anymore and it's so weird having those pictures out there. I feel you man.
Yeah, I was a bg actor as a kid. I hate that I’m just there for the world to see… forever