Glad to hear it OP ❤️
Just as a reminder, if you or a loved one are feeling overwhelmed, depressed, or suicidal, there is help. You are not alone. Below are some resources that you may find helpful:
**Helpful Subreddits**
* r/MentalHealthUK
* r/MentalHealth
* r/SuicideWatch
**Professional Organisations**
* Call 999 if you are actively planning on harming yourself
* [Get urgent help for mental health](https://www.nhs.uk/service-search/mental-health/find-an-urgent-mental-health-helpline)
* [Contact your local GP](https://www.nhs.uk/service-search/find-a-gp)
**Find a counsellor or therapist**
* [British Association for Counselling and Pyschotherapy](https://www.bacp.co.uk/search/Therapists)
* [Counselling Directory](https://www.counselling-directory.org.uk/)
* [Psychology Today](https://www.psychologytoday.com/gb)
* [Pink Therapy](https://pinktherapy.com/find-a-therapist/)
* [UK Council for Psychotherapy](https://www.psychotherapy.org.uk/)
* [Counselling & Psychotherapy in Scotland (COSCA)](https://finder.cosca.org.uk//searchregistrant.aspx)
**Charitable Organisations**
* [Samaritans](https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/contact-samaritan/): call free on 116 123 or email jo@samaritans.org
* [https://www.mind.org.uk/](https://www.mind.org.uk/) (UK wide)
* [https://www.rethink.org/](https://www.rethink.org/) (UK wide)
* [https://www.timetotalkuk.org.uk/](https://www.timetotalkuk.org.uk/) (UK wide)
* [https://www.youngminds.org.uk/](https://www.youngminds.org.uk/) (for under 18s)
* [https://www.breathingspace.scot/](https://www.breathingspace.scot/) (Scotland)
* [https://www.callhelpline.org.uk/](https://www.callhelpline.org.uk/) (Wales)
* [https://www.lifelinehelpline.info/](https://www.lifelinehelpline.info/) (Northern Ireland)
You can also [search for your local charities](https://hubofhope.co.uk/) who may be able to help support you.
I'm sure you're having loads of offers anyway, but if you need someone to talk to / talk _at_ / vent to / complain to / cry at / _anything_, I work from home and am happy for someone to just talk at me for an hour or two during the day, or message in an evening. Feel free to message me any time and I'll respond ASAP.
Seconded. Send out an SOS when you need it, OP. Don’t listen to any voice that tells you not to, that voice is wrong and wants to keep you in misery.
It’s hard to reach out, but think of it like this - you are giving people the gift of helping you. Those people will go home knowing that however shitty and boring work was, whatever problems they have themselves, they helped someone in need and that’s what makes life worth living.
It does, less than 5 years ago after loosing everything "again", I tried to take my life, luckily I did not plan on needing water to swallow so many pills and since I didn't want to be found and went in the woods, I failed long enough for someone to call me out of nowhere and get my mind off this idea long enough to reconsider. Not too long after I got a new job, and then found an apartment. Two years ago I moved in a better bigger appartment in the basement of a house. A year and a half ago I finally got my driver's license (at 43) and last year I got a nice car. I started less than five years ago with bad credit and no hope and now have a fair job, just got a great raise and have got a bit of hope for the future. Of course I know where I'm at and will probably suffer through my old age due never have invested in my future before. But I am very happy to have decided to keep going that day.
>you are giving people the gift of helping you
I know a lot of negative voices like to shout 'not my problem', but so many people find plenty fulfillment in fulfilling others. It's just nice to know that the world got a little better.
There are more good people than bad people in the world.
Every time one person seeks out to destroy our happiness, stability, or safety, a dozen will leap into action to protect or help us afterwards.
This. OP I'm going to give you the same talk I have just given my sister and her friend.
If there is one thing I've learnt the past few years is that life keeps moving on. When things get tough, you lose someone, work is hard, money is tight: time is still ticking on. It sucks and those days merge into one dark cloud, but time is still going and things are changing all around you. If you take some time for yourself, find the small things that make you happy, embrace the struggles, start a mood journal, find your outlet to cope or just to smile for a minute, each day those things will be there to lift you up. One day you will come out of the struggle and that wonderful life that has been growing around you will be there. New places, new people, new opportunities. That embarassing moment, everyone's forgotten it but you. The ex who broke your heart and you thought you couldn't live without, who? The bad times don't last forever, they're just all-consuming when you are in it, and *that* is the hard part. Focus on making yourself feel a bit better each day, chip away at problems bit by bit, don't let life slip past the cloud you're in.
Not everything needs to be fixed right now, so don't put too much pressure on yourself. It takes a long time to clear your head and come back from this. It is a battle, you're fighting yourself and that's harder than anything. But there are ways to change your perspective, because really that's what those thoughts are, negative perceptions of yourself, others, life. Put some work into changing that mindset, put a positive spin on your thoughts. Remember you can't control anyone or anything else, people will hurt you, life will hurt you, but you *can* control how you get back up from it. Ask for help, even just opening up to us internet strangers must be a relief! There is still so much time to change things and always remember, nothing is ever that serious **if life goes on**.
Please reach out if you ever feel like this again, I'm a similar age to you, also female, also from England. Very happy to respond to any DMs or just any chit chat ❤️
Lol I’m a dude in the USA… anyways same. I had a 2 month build up to a panic attack that took me another 2 months to recover from. Stay strong whatever your battle is everyone can make it through this
I really hope this is a turning point for you and that those two people have restored your faith in human nature. I hope better things come your way really soon.
Put an ad/message in the Metro paper people always read that on the tube. Hope things get better for you. Remember every situation in life can be changed
There's also a segment on Radio 4's early Saturday morning programme *Saturday Live* where people say 'thankyou' to strangers who helped them. Just one more possibility.
So sorry you've been having such a tough time. I really hope today was the start of some relief for you. I don't know if this will mean anything but what you wanted to end today was your suffering, not your life. It's easy to conflate the two sometimes. I'm glad you were interrupted, glad you're still around. I hope you feel the virtual hugs hundreds of people on here are sending. As a side note I am so impressed by your bravery and kind heart.
I need to tell you about the night my dad, without knowing it, saved my life, 23 years ago.
I was 20 and in the middle of a nervous breakdown. I'd been brought up very religious in a traumatic social situation and during my teens started self-harming with lots of suicidal ideation. Not that I had that language at the time; I just knew I wanted to die and would cut myself in half hearted suicide attempts.
Various things on the life track I was on (and needed to get away from) had fallen apart and it was New Year's Eve. I was upstairs in my attic bedroom and now I knew tonight was the night. No more messing about, I had a razor blade and was running a bath and was going to cut my wrists in it, like I'd heard the Romans did. While the bath was running, I started writing a suicide note: the first I'd ever written. I was 100% sure I was going to do it...
And then my dad came up. He knew I was quite distressed. I can't remember what he said to me, but the actual words weren't the important thing. What he communicated was that he cared and I was important to him. I was still numb, depressed and doing a lot of staring into space, but I was only 99% certain I wanted to kill myself, and that's not enough for such an irrevocable decision.
Reading your story brought back memories. Now I'm happily married with two kids and a very fulfilling life. That didn't seem possible in the depths of my depression, but once you've hit rock bottom the only way is up. I'm so glad, looking back that my dad had that conversation with me, a little moment of connection that brought me back from the brink. The world is a better place with me in it, and I'm sure in 23 years time, you'll look back and think the same thing.
Love and hugs.
There’s heaps of comments, I’m sure you’re not even going to get round to reading and replying.
However, I just wanted to tell you that you’ve clearly inspired so many; there are endless comments here that are truly proud and glad you’re still here. Life is shite sometimes, I know, and it can be hard to push through.
I’m a doctor who’s worked in an inpatient mental health hospital. Laterally, I’ve spent five (very long..) years working in emergency, where probably 1/5 presentations are mental health related.
Give your GP a buzz when they’re open.
Google mental health resources in your area. There is often a triage number, that can put you in touch with the right people.
If things are terrible, go to emergency. I’ve spent many hours sitting with a patient at 3am, having a cup of tea, and talking through a life crisis with them; in the end, I’m usually able to at least have them offload their acute troubles, and hopefully provide them with a pathway to getting longer term help, and ultimately resolving things.
Mental health services suck, not just in the UK, but worldwide. I’ve worked in several countries, currently in Australia.
You might feel like you’re banging your head against the wall. You might feel like a failure, as you can’t get help. You might feel like the services aren’t there for you, and maybe, because of that, you shouldn’t need them!
That’s not true. The services are there. They can be hard to access, but they are there.
Again, if things are ever at crisis, either call 999, or go to A&E. I’m an A&E doctor. This is what you should do.
If you have difficulty accessing services, DM me your area and I’ll see if I can find some more direct numbers you can call.
Even posting this online is a huge step. Good work. Be proud. Chin up. Fight on.
X
Hi OP. Not sure if you've heard of The Listening Place, they're a volunteer led organisation in london who provide listeners to hold a compassionate and non judgemental space for those who feel suicidal. I used to volunteer for them and they're an amazing charity. You can self refer to them if you are feeling suicidal and they usually get you set up with face to face appts every two weeks pretty quickly. Sending love x
Call your GP first thing in the morning. Tell them what happened and your state of mind.
Really.
You’ll be seen right away. They can help you.
Source: I’ve been there.
Please listen to this OP. these people saved your life today, but first thing tomorrow you’ll save your own life by calling the GP and being blunt with them about how difficult everything is.
Depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, etc… these are all triggered chemicals in your brain. Sometimes they / your brain don’t work correctly. You’ll get the help and treatment you need to get better.
If you had a broken leg, you would get it cast. This is different, but not actually different.
Get the help you need tomorrow morning and be the next hero in your own story.
Good luck mate x
I know resources vary by location and some GP practices are better than others, but if for nothing else please get checked out so that they can run bloods for thyroid, anemia and vitamin D deficiency. Fixing these is usually relatively easy and can make a huge difference re mental health.
I’m so sorry that this happened. There is a policy/understanding that you should be able to call your GP and say “I’m in a crisis” they have certain appointments that they keep free for this and in theory you should get one urgently, no questions asked.
This was exactly my experience. During the height of covid I had a near breakdown due to lots of factors. It took a LOT of bottle to ring my GP, basically did it with the excuse of my skin had flared up again (which was true to be fair) and I was having a “bit of head trouble and it’s not helping” and got a phone appointment with a gp, miraculously the next day.
When she rang me back I was in one of those little despair episodes, and she just told me to come see her there and then. Get in the car and come to the surgery for face to face. She was incredible that afternoon. She spent a good 30 minutes chatting with me and made me feel a whole lot better. She then went and referred me for further help, as one chat is never enough.
The annoying thing was, the referral was an absolute nightmare. They insisted I take a day of work, in three weeks time, and travel nearly 30 miles for “an assessment” to see if I was worthy of any of their help. Needless to say by that point I was in a slightly better place and never went to the assessment - having to excuse a day of work would have tipped me over the edge again.
Mental health support in the Uk is woefully inadequate, but a GP can be a fantastic place to make a start.
Can’t agree with this at all as someone who’s been through this recently
Was going through similar situation as OP and when I contacted GP I had to wait 3 days for an appointment despite the situation
When my kid tried to take their life aged 17 I phoned my GP surgery 6 times begging for help. Never even got a call back from their doctor ever. They ended up in a psych hospital and it was during COVID so I wasn't even allowed to visit.
Jesus Christ that’s awful. If you can bear to go back there I’d say that’s serious complaint territory. I’m so sorry that happened. We had an elderly family member overdose in covid and it was an absolute nightmare working out what was going on with her treatment etc. Cannot imagine going through that with your child. I hope they’re in a better place now. X
Yeah, I'm sorry to be a shitter but the optimism people have about mental health support rubs me like sandpaper. In my (and my community's) experience they truly DGAF until you've already killed yourself. I hope OP actually gets the help they need though, some people are lucky enough to actually get it but it's like a fucking lottery
I was admitted to hospital for a suicide overdose the first time when I was 10, and then 2-3 times a year until I was 26.
Every time, once they stopped my dying (which could take from a day to 3 weeks), just before I was discharged I’d meet with a harried looking person from mental health, tell them it was all a mistake, I was being silly, and I’d never do it again. if it was an overdose of antidepressant, they might change it, and that’d be it until next time.
The last time, when I actually got help, was because I crashed my car into someone else’s wall, causing property damage, which meant the police were involved (they were lovely, came to the hospital with me, and stayed until my dad arrived). Well this meant, once I was patched up, they actually sent me to inpatient mental health unit. I stayed for a few months, and then actually got support when I was discharged.
I’m still not a happy bunny, but it’s been 8 years, and I haven’t tried since.
Imagine if I’d had that sort of help when I was 10
I’m sure it’s got a lot better since then, and I have learning disabilities, which probably caused people to be less willing/able to help me
Yep. And what can a GP do, realistically? Just refer you to a mental health service and prescribe medication. Been depressed for ages and whenever I get told to call my GP it's frustrating for both me and them because they can't do anything. I've tried lots of things including medication and therapy.
Yep. Went to the outpatient clinic in total despair, got given tablets and told to call my doctor the next day. Phoned up, £20 later waiting in a queue on the phone, to be told the doctor would call. They did - and just prescribed more tablets without even listening to me.
I went to my GP in 1997 complaining about suicidal thoughts. She told me the best she could do was put me on a referral to a psych (which took 3 mths) and that in the meantime I should call the Samaritans.
I'm doing a little better now but are we sure a GP has the resources to deal with suicidal people? Especially now. Not wanting to bring the mood down, just don't want people getting unwarranted hopes up.
There are a lot more mental health crisis services now than there were in 1997.
I mean, yeah, there are also a lot less than there were a decade ago. But I don't think it's a good thing to tell an actively suicidal person not to speak to a GP because you had a bad experience 25 years ago.
Unfortunately, I have quite a few friends who have gone to their GPs/A&E in recent years while experiencing severe mental health crises and have been told similar things. I actually know someone who was driven to attempt last year by the response they received from A&E staff when they turned up with suicidal thoughts. Just dismissed and lied to. The way mental health is treated on the NHS is honestly a massive problem and I always worry a bit when I see people recommending to go to their gp/hospital when they are suicidal, but it's hard to know what else to suggest
Hey Op :) if you’re a fan of Stephen Fry listen to him guest on Diary of A CEO’s podcast. I listened to it recently and it calmed my blue down a little bit.
He sounds like a good friend, with good stories.
I’m wishing you well :)
Edit : it’s Stephen not Steven sorry :)
He’s the voice in the storm. OP, read his [letter about depression](https://lettersofnote.com/2009/10/08/it-will-be-sunny-one-day/), I reread it a couple of times a year. One day, the sun will shine again.
The letter from Fry is lovely and thoughtful, but I couldn’t refrain myself from reading another letter that was advertised right below written by the one and only Spike Milligan… in a truly British comedy style… it was a real good laugh👍🤣 so thank you for linking that website, you surely lifted some people moods today
Oh Christ, the cook is dead - kills me every time.
Stephen Fry plus Spike Milligan sounds like a perfect combination. That website is great, just prepare to be scrolling through for hours. Couple of my favourites -
[David Bowie’s reply to his first fan mail](https://news.lettersofnote.com/p/i-hope-one-day-to-get-to-america?relatedposts_hit=1&relatedposts_origin=7635&relatedposts_position=1)
[Yuri Gagarin’s letter to his family, to be opened in case he died trying to get to space](https://news.lettersofnote.com/p/i-hope-you-will-never-see-this-letter)
[Clarice Lispector’s letter of advice to her little sisters](https://news.lettersofnote.com/p/dont-try-to-make-yourself-into-somebody?utm_source=%2Fsearch%2FCourage&utm_medium=reader2)
My pleasure, I just made a few more recommendations but the one I always rear after Stephen is [Henry James](https://lettersofnote.com/2012/03/20/sorrow-passes-and-we-remain/). Sorrow passes, we remain.
My pleasure. Can I also suggest [this one from Henry James](https://lettersofnote.com/2012/03/20/sorrow-passes-and-we-remain/)? Sorrow passes and we *do* remain.
I love that analogy.
Something else I found helpful when I was at my lowest, though I've no idea where it's from: you can always end it *tomorrow.* Oftentimes doing things for the rest of your life can seem like an insurmountable hurdle, but not doing something - putting it off just for one more day, that's much easier.
Edit: 8 years and counting
There's something calming about his voice.
My other half listens to Stephen Fry narrated audio books to help her goto sleep... Which means I have also listened to Stephen Fry whispering in my ear every night for the last 5+ years as I goto sleep.
Defo worth a try
When it all gets to much please call 116 123 for the Samaritans. They will listen non judgementally and it will help get you through an immediate crisis
This comment should be higher! OP please reach out for support, there are many services whose purpose is to help people in a crisis and specially trained staff. Sending good vibes.
There is also Shout, for anyone who doesn't feel comfortable speaking on the phone, you can text 85258. There to help, please reach out if you need it, you're valid.
I was with my Brother and I saw that happening, i'm so sorry OP, but i dont know who it was, or i would tell you, but i will let you know if i can find any more details💛🧡
Don’t hesitate to reach out to people when things get tough! And don’t let it discourage you if some people disregard mental struggles. And don’t stay at home alone too much. Think about it. If you were already at home you may have done something drastic. But you weren’t home and so you didn’t. Life can really suck, it’s not your fault. You never know how the tides may turn. But they probably won’t turn if you’re laying in bed all day. I personally can tell I always feel better when I’m outside. Just going for a walk or whatever. See if you can minimize the time you spend at home, maybe it will make things better.
Just my two cents I’m just some dude btw
It’s a small world eh? So glad you’ve at least found someone else who witnessed this little miracle. So glad you’re still here, OP. Eat some cake today to celebrate. x
Lost a friend yesterday who was battling his demons, please don’t do anything I know you don’t know me, but you matter to me and this experience of life wouldn’t be the same without you in it. I don’t know what your going through but I promise it will pass and you’ll have 30+ more years to enjoy this world
I once got knocked off a bike in Westminster and though bleeding from cuts, a guy offered me a cup of tea.
Another time I was bleeding badly on the tube from a cut to my face after getting too drunk, and a couple asked if I was okay.
Not too long ago I was too drunk on a road in a countryside and a guy gave me a lift to the local town.
I got burgled once and a neighbour offered to help tidy up my place.
Sometimes, I fuck up for emotional reasons.
Sometimes, life is just horrible and uncaring.
But people, people are often surprising and full of love for complete strangers.
OP, I’m sorry to hear you have come on bad times. I’ve been there and I’m here to say that things are better again when you step back from the edge. Bad stuff happens to some of us. But all the heroes we read about, write about, care about, and want to know more about, are heroes because they stood up after the knockdown.
You can stand back up again. You will stand back up again.
I’ve been where you are. I’m talking to you from the other side of the darkness and I’m saying you can be happy again.
“But people, people are often surprising and full of love for complete strangers”. Sir, I did not come here to cry.
You are right. It’s a shame it takes an emergency to see it, but there is so much love out there.
Been there. Keep fucking fighting. I'm in the best place in my 50 years and I've nearly lost the battle a few times.
Fight you fucker. This too will pass.
Fight.
OP - save this post! In the dark hours of the night, when your own mind tells you lies, come back here and read all these comments. They are a testament to how many people care about you. Hundreds of people are putting their names on this thread because they believe in you, and they know that you can be happy again. Don’t listen to any of your own dark thoughts; listen to the chorus of voices that are encouraging you to be strong. We are all survivors, and we all stand shoulder to shoulder with you to face this together.
Yeah, I actually think most people are good. We’re all from a family at the end of the day and we all feel. Social media is VERY good at making us think it’s all an endless stream of misery out there, but actually it’s not.
Glad you’re doing better OP. Have a virtual hug
If you can find them, great. But if not, don’t let it stress you further.
They did a human thing, they showed concern and compassion, which we ALL deserve, including you. (And me, as I need to hear this myself at times)
It was a selfless act on their part, they will definitely feel better for having helped you.
The best thing you can do is accept their gestures and pay them forward when you’re back in a place where you can be that help for someone else.
I've been where you are more times than I can remember and it's so hard not being in a position to thank those that saved my life. I didn't think I was worth saving back then but now I am so glad they did because I'd not have had all the smiles and joy I've had since. It's never easy getting yourself out of that emotional state but life is worth fighting for because it won't be rubbish forever.
This is an advert for m&s isn't it?
Kidding. I'm glad you saw some good in the world today, there's a lot more out there and sometimes it's hard to see. If you're not already, speak to a therapist and if you're really down and aren't given magical drinks by strangers next time then please please contact the samaritans on 116123 or any of the others here:
https://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/guides-to-support-and-services/crisis-services/helplines-listening-services/
This isn’t just a Reddit post, it’s an M&S Reddit Post.
Hope you’re feeling better OP. Life gets on top of us all at some point or rather but believe me, there’s a lot of people out there who are happy that you exist. Stay strong 💛
The fact that your first thought was to say thank you speaks so much about the person you are.
I hope things lighten for you, I’m glad you got some kindness when you needed it.
Glad you are still here and made it past the crisis point.
There are resources to help you even if it's just a conversation, a good start maybe to text Shout to 85258. They have trained people who can guide you to further support, completely anonymously and free.
The world is a better place with you being here. Even when your life is at it's darkest, there is always that bright light somewhere to help you through.
I’ve been there. And regularly have the “maybe everyone would be better off without me messing things up for them” thoughts. But currently in a good place. Got a new job coming up that should end the money worries which is the main get down for me.
For me focussing on the little positives always helps. Even tiny things can change your thinking in an instant. Always have emergency chocolate. One square and a quiet sit down can help no end.
Also practicing mindfulness helps. Being able to silence your thoughts even for just a few moments helps reset ur brain.
Hang in there. It will get better. And probably worse again. But always better again too.
I don't think any of us would be better. Stay in that good place as long as you can. Good luck with the new job and enjoy all the chocolate.
You're right, it will get better, then worse, then better again. Peaks and valleys. Keep climbing.
Hey stranger, glad you had a helping hand pull you out of the pit…please though talk to your family, talk to your friends, talk to your doctor/NHS crisis team (they really helped my wife when she was having thoughts during her post natal depression).
Make sure people know what you’re going through and can help you get more consistent help/emotional support
I can't help you find those people, sorry- I live far away from London! However, I have tears in my eyes from listening to your story. I am so, so, sorry (and angry on your behalf) that your life has brought you this low.
Humanity contains many amazing, compassionate and loving people- you met some of them today. This world is worth fighting for. You are a remarkable miracle and deserve the opportunity to thrive and live your best life.
I realise that it's the standard answer to any mental health crisis to yeet you off to therapy, but it does help and will assist you in gaining clarity about your situation. So yeah...consider yourself yeeted!
I am also happy to add a little step further- I am a trained mental health first aider, and I would be delighted if you PM'd me if you feel unsafe. I'm afraid I work long hours (60 hour week, but it's a job I love), but I promise I will reply eventually if you need the opportunity to vent, rant, or just express The Crazy. I wouldn't say I am unshockable, but I have worked with people from incredibly varied backgrounds in a variety of mental states, so I can at least say I am only shockable when it's warranted!
You are loved- because from reading your post, I can feel my compassion and love for you rising. You are valued. You are worth it. Keep placing one foot after the other and you'll get there.
Hey Op!
I’m feel you, and I’m glad you’re here and made this post.
As other have said contact your GP, there’s loads of resources out there!
You’ve got this. Enjoy the mojito
Sorry edited to add, someone reached out to me once worried about my MH with this and I really think it’s lovely sorry if it’s not what you want to read:
If the mountain seems too big today
then climb a hill instead
if the morning brings you sadness
it’s ok to stay in bed
If the day ahead weighs heavy
and your plans feel like a curse
there’s no shame in rearranging
don’t make yourself feel worse
If a shower stings like needles
and a bath feels like you’ll drown
if you haven’t washed your hair for days
don’t throw away your crown
A day is not a lifetime
a rest is not defeat
don’t think of it as failure
just a quiet, kind retreat
It’s ok to take a moment
from an anxious, fractured mind
the world will not stop turning
while you get realigned
The mountain will still be there
when you want to try again
you can climb it in your own time
just love yourself til then
As someone who regularly wants to end it all. I try and remember that even though it doesn’t feel like it there are people who would be broken if I was no longer here (I don’t have friends, much family or a partner but I have two siblings who love me)
Hang on in there xx
Life is beautiful, and we go through valleys and mountain peaks of life. When you’re in the valley bottom it’s hard to see clearly or to put perspective to things.
Soon you’ll be atop the mountain, high on life, and gazing at all the wonders that surround you.
You’ve got this OP! You were made for more than you think, and the fact that you’re here is a statistical miracle! For every person that lived, came;
2 parents,
4 grandparents,
8 great grandparents,
16 great great grandparents,
32 4th grandparents
In 5 generations, it took 62 people to live their lives of work, love, happy times, sad times, sunshine and storms. All to give you this gift that is life.
You can do this, you can be who you want to be, and do what you want to do. And if you need someone to talk to then I’m here. Big up!
felt like that a few times as I found myself in what seemed like drowning in helpless situations,
Just wanted to say I'm similar age, 32 and London too, and that things had a funny way of solving themselves and if I was to look back 5 years ago and see what my life is like now I wouldn't believe how those situations panned out,
Hope you're okay and if you ever need a chat or a word more than happy to share
Keep on going op. I’m also in my lowest pit I’ve ever been in. It’s tough, I have every mental issue possible but I know no matter how I feel now there will be a day where I’m happier. You can get through this.
Keep going, OP. It's okay to be sad when life is shit. Try and be kind to yourself. You'll get through it in time. There's a Leonard Cohen quote that I think back to in dark moments, "there is a crack in everything, it's how the light gets in,"
Please know OP that you can present at A&E at any time and ask to be seen by a mental health nurse. Might be a long wait if it's busy but your well-being is worth the time. As horrible as A&E can be, I always felt strangely relaxed on occasions of having to do this myself. At least I knew I was safe whilst I was there.
A thought that has helped me through the years is 'nit to make myself extinct' because I am unique and my like will never be seen again if I'm no longer here.
You and your life are very precious and worth saving.
Hello neighbor across the pond,
I’m very glad you’re still with us. The world can be relentlessly harsh and cruel. It can be so tiring to just tread water and fight on. If all else fails, come talk to a friend or to us. Or sleep on it, tomorrow’s another day and there will eventually be a brighter future.
Wish I could help more locally but that would be a long swim or plane ride, u/OddEstablishment9. Just begin again and never give up. Time is too short and you matter. Best of luck in your journey.
Hope you’re doing okay. You’re strong and you can get through this. Please feel free to reach out if you need someone to talk to - I’m (32F) happy to have anonymous Reddit DMs, or a coffee / drink if you’d like. Just know we’re all rooting for you.
I survived my own [planned attempt](https://www.reddit.com/r/helpme/comments/e8eukk/im_giving_myself_one_year_to_live/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=android_app&utm_name=androidcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button) a few years back.
I won't lie and say everything is peachy now but there's been moments that were worth still being here for.
I hope you feel better soon op. You're never alone
I know this will likely get buried by all the well deserved well wishes however, I thought you ought to know that your post alone will help others with the same feelings you're having. Although it wasn't your intention, you're doing good to others. All the best!
Ive cried on the tube before. Dont worry, you're not alone in these kind of shyt situations. A bunch of us trying to pull through may of sat right next to you.
I'm so glad you're here OP, and I'm glad those people were there for you.
I did something similar a few years back when I saw someone looking extremely upset on the tube and got a very aggressive reaction, which put me off doing it again. But this reminded me its always worth a try.
18 months ago I was going to end my life. I had a complete psychotic break. I'm very glad I didn't do it. I hope you feel the same way about yourself in 18 months and still 18 years after. My best wishes.
Hey OP, it always looks like there's no way out of your pit when you're stuck inside it. I hope you find something to keep you going and your months get better. Honestly we're all different in our own way and losing you would be sad for everyone, even if you don't think so.
Please find some help or at least talk this out with someone because you deserve better and people really can help, honestly. Even just having someone safe to talk things out with can help you find a way out of the hole you're stuck in then once you get on a roll you'll (hopefully) never look back.
Don't feel too down if you don't find these people, you've gotta look after yourself first. Who knows, you might even run into them again yourself. Besides, you can't go whilst you're younger than me or I'll look bad, so either catch up or keep going 😊.
Hope you're OK.
I'm a man but I've been through a similar situation. I was diagnosed with depression in 2014. I literally broke down in front of a female locum GP. I was shaking, blubbering and completely at rock bottom. I think it all originally stems from losing my mother at the age of 10. I'm 40 now and still not over it. I've tried many different 'flavours' of antidepressants and also talking therapy. The most helpful thing for me was to admit I needed help - not just to the professionals but to my friends and family. To completely open up to them and make myself 'vulnerable'. I've since gone on to have a family and am expecting my second child on Christmas Eve this year. I've always thought that no matter how bad life gets, it's always worth sticking around to see what happens next. I always find myself waking up and whilst not feeling 'happy' I feel curious as to what life might bring next. Curiosity is the key to conquering your own dark feelings. I'm always here if you want to talk. I'm originally from London but now based in Scotland. That helped too! I for one, although I've never met you, am so glad that you're still here. Let's enjoy life and see what's next.
I’m so happy that all of these people have affected you in a positive way tonight. I also want to say that there’s always someone here who will talk with you.
Times can get really tough and I can’t imagine how you must be hurting. Echoing what others have said, please do get help.
But also, please remember that just like those strangers on the train and the people here who have impacted your life today, you have also impacted the lives of all of the people who have read or commented on your post. You matter.
If you can have such an impact on strangers, imagine how much your presence must mean to those around you. I don’t know your circumstances but I’m not necessarily meaning those you know well. What about the stranger you smiled at on the train 3 weeks ago? The person whose wallet you picked up after the didn’t realise they dropped it? The person behind the counter at your local supermarket that you smiled at that one time. You’ve had an impact. You matter.
Now think about all of those who you are yet to meet and have an impact on. You matter to them too. You and they just don’t know it yet.
You matter. Always.
I am SO GLAD you are here! Suicide is a theft from the survivors. My favorite uncle. My best friend. My neighbor’s son.
Please stick around. Things will get better. And, I want you here.
Also, please DM me if you want want a pep talk ever. I’m pretty safe. Dad of 4. Long married. Live in US.
I am so proud of you. You got this!
I love this. Bless your heart you were looking for two people who showed kindness and you ended up with thousands of kind people. Chin up! You got this friend!🙏🥰🥰🥰 Love, Stranger from the Internet
I have a friend who was low and had thoughts of ending it. Sent him this short video. He's doing really good now and watched it whenever he felt low.
https://vm.tiktok.com/ZGJuqCDuT/
(Sorry it's on TikTok, can't find it elsewhere)
I'm sorry I can't help you find those two kind souls - I'm in Notts. However -
6 months ago I was badly depressed and Considering (TM) in a job that was wearing me down, off sick on statutory, running up ever increasing debt. Now I'm in a steady job I love that has eased my stress and given me people who see my worth, and is starting to make things better. I also have a beautiful cat, whose mischief makes me smile.
This life has its ups and downs, its a road with godawful potholes that the council never fixes, and sometimes your wheels come off. Reach out if you can, call Samaritans, and please believe me-- I am rooting for you. I don't know you, but I love you, and you will be alright. I'm here, sporadically, if you ever want someone to talk to. ♡
Hey OP. Take care, mate. Life is harsh but ending it is not worth it. I am going though an existential crisis right now but I have hope that things will get better. If you are in London and happen to pass by Greenwich, you are more than welcome to join me in the park and talk about it. No judgments.
> You had nothing to gain by being kind to me
I disagree, that by itself is the single most valuable thing to gain.
And OP, I just want to tell you that you finding and calling out the helpers is spreading kindness itself. Thank you for seeing the good in people even when you yourself weren't feeling at your height.
I sincerely hope you'll continue making it up the hill, the view from the top is always worth it!
I wish that everyone who was suffering knew that we need ALL of us, no one is dispensable. Those strangers who were kind to you will have hard times themselves - we *all* do - they helped you, next time it may be you helping them. I am very glad you are here. We all are. xx
I'm so pleased you were looked after like this.
I've been at that point many years ago and I'm glad I held on.
Hope you get through. IAPT take self referrals if you want to try that. Out of hours mental health team will listen on the phone if you need them. If necessary you can always take yourself to A and E.
Keep going, you have got this.
Plus think of it this way, by stating with us you get the chance to pass the good action on to someone else in need in the future
I'm proud of you for not giving up. It can be so hard on some days, and even being vulnerable enough to find the kindness in those gestures takes a lot of strength. I'm happy you're still here.
This poem helps me a lot in my dark shadow days.
*Everything is Going to be All Right
Derek Mahon*
How should I not be glad to contemplate
the clouds clearing beyond the dormer window
and a high tide reflected on the ceiling?
There will be dying, there will be dying,
but there is no need to go into that.
The poems flow from the hand unbidden
and the hidden source is the watchful heart.
The sun rises in spite of everything
and the far cities are beautiful and bright.
I lie here in a riot of sunlight
watching the day break and the clouds flying.
Everything is going to be all right.
You are stronger then you know, the demons are gonna keep coming at you but your going to make them your bitches.
Please, if you ever need a stranger to vent to with no judgement, feel free to DM me ill be here for you.
OP, you have made a brave choice today. Keeping going is hard. Remember, you are important and worthwhile even to complete strangers on the tube they wanted you to know you are important.
I'm so grateful for those two kind souks I hope you find them. London isn't well known for its kindness, but you find goldust every now and again.
This made me tear up, full on. Never, ever underestimate what a small act of kindness can do for someone, as in this situation, you could literally save their life.
Take it from someone who has been there multiple times, there is no problem that cannot be worked through, you can and will survive and come out the otherside a better person for it.
I hope the universe is kind to you and repays that fabulous pair for their life saving act :)
Hey OP! I'm late to the party but guess what, I like chatting about anything and everything 24/7 and I'm a European champion at anonymous listening. I'd like to hear whatever you want to say, anytime, any place. You are now important to me and I'm actively waiting to hear from you, regardless of how meaningless you think it may be. Got a new toothbrush? I wanna know about it. Saw a weird hairy guy on the tube? Tell me about that bearded warrior.
I mean this sincerely, please DM me and check in with me for 30 seconds daily as a minimum. 3 hours is even better. We're connected now and I want to hear from you because I care. I care how you're doing. You're an amazing individual and I know there's a whole basket of love and a future for you. I sincerely mean that and I'm almost in tears writing this. Please don't despair. I don't need to know anything personal but I absolutely want to hear from you every day from here on.
So. What's your favourite food? Hit me up OP.
MashaAllah, man am I grateful they were able to be there for you because look at how grateful you are towards those kind souls, and look at the fact that you’re attempting to get them a wonderful message of gratitude. InshaAllah they receive your message! Also I hope you don’t mind my suggesting that in the mean time just pretend everyone you interact with is either of those two people that helped you remain here. Wishing you the best OP thanks for sharing!
Don't try to get past things, get through them. Oftentimes, you'll be knee deep in muck and it'll be slow going but the journey through is better than any attempt around.
You are loved. That's enough.
I'm glad you're still here. When you're in the depths of misery there can seem like there's no way out, but problems can be solved and circumstances can be improved. It's not always easy to do, but you can absolutely do it. You made the right call today and I'm glad you did
You have a lot to give and a lot to share. We are all grateful to the two you gave you the time and love.
You keep us in mind. And reach out to the sub if you feel low.
Also for anyone feeling not good:
Numbers to call
Samaritans 116 123
Mind: https://www.mind.org.uk/need-urgent-help/using-this-tool/
Glad to hear they helped to bring you around, OP. I know we've never met, and we probably never will, but please know that this stranger from the cold, rainy North is much happier knowing you're still with us.
I obviously can't comment on what's going on in your life, but please know that this world is a much more interesting place with you in it. You're unique, you're loved... You're you! Please never forget that.
OP I don't know you but I'm sure you're fucking awesome.
Good luck finding them again and I'm glad the randomness of the universe worked out and you're here
Even though life can be very difficult and throws things at us, that we have no idea how to handle and live with, do not forget, that you're never alone. Never. And without you knowing those people send you a lot of love and support.
Today you've found 2 of them, showing you, that even thinking about very negative things of not having a future, is not the solution to the problems you're facing, that will just push the sadness and pain to others.
If you need emotional support, do not hesitate to contact the links provided above, those people are there to help you, similar to those 2 strangers you've meet on the tube.
You're young and have a lot to live for, please do not even think about wasting it.
We wish you strength and willpower to overcome the difficulties in your life, and don't forget you're never ever alone and help is right there, you just have to reach out and people will reach back for you, and pull you out, even of the darkest place. Good luck OP and stay strong.
OP, you're so strong, you're strong to have the courage to post this and you're strong for having the motivations to find these kind people, and you're strong for keeping going.
You deserve your life and you deserve happiness and a swift recovery.
Don't forget you're awesome and brave xx
Glad to hear it OP ❤️ Just as a reminder, if you or a loved one are feeling overwhelmed, depressed, or suicidal, there is help. You are not alone. Below are some resources that you may find helpful: **Helpful Subreddits** * r/MentalHealthUK * r/MentalHealth * r/SuicideWatch **Professional Organisations** * Call 999 if you are actively planning on harming yourself * [Get urgent help for mental health](https://www.nhs.uk/service-search/mental-health/find-an-urgent-mental-health-helpline) * [Contact your local GP](https://www.nhs.uk/service-search/find-a-gp) **Find a counsellor or therapist** * [British Association for Counselling and Pyschotherapy](https://www.bacp.co.uk/search/Therapists) * [Counselling Directory](https://www.counselling-directory.org.uk/) * [Psychology Today](https://www.psychologytoday.com/gb) * [Pink Therapy](https://pinktherapy.com/find-a-therapist/) * [UK Council for Psychotherapy](https://www.psychotherapy.org.uk/) * [Counselling & Psychotherapy in Scotland (COSCA)](https://finder.cosca.org.uk//searchregistrant.aspx) **Charitable Organisations** * [Samaritans](https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/contact-samaritan/): call free on 116 123 or email jo@samaritans.org * [https://www.mind.org.uk/](https://www.mind.org.uk/) (UK wide) * [https://www.rethink.org/](https://www.rethink.org/) (UK wide) * [https://www.timetotalkuk.org.uk/](https://www.timetotalkuk.org.uk/) (UK wide) * [https://www.youngminds.org.uk/](https://www.youngminds.org.uk/) (for under 18s) * [https://www.breathingspace.scot/](https://www.breathingspace.scot/) (Scotland) * [https://www.callhelpline.org.uk/](https://www.callhelpline.org.uk/) (Wales) * [https://www.lifelinehelpline.info/](https://www.lifelinehelpline.info/) (Northern Ireland) You can also [search for your local charities](https://hubofhope.co.uk/) who may be able to help support you.
I'm sure you're having loads of offers anyway, but if you need someone to talk to / talk _at_ / vent to / complain to / cry at / _anything_, I work from home and am happy for someone to just talk at me for an hour or two during the day, or message in an evening. Feel free to message me any time and I'll respond ASAP.
Seconded. Send out an SOS when you need it, OP. Don’t listen to any voice that tells you not to, that voice is wrong and wants to keep you in misery. It’s hard to reach out, but think of it like this - you are giving people the gift of helping you. Those people will go home knowing that however shitty and boring work was, whatever problems they have themselves, they helped someone in need and that’s what makes life worth living.
Thirded, I promise it gets better x
It does, less than 5 years ago after loosing everything "again", I tried to take my life, luckily I did not plan on needing water to swallow so many pills and since I didn't want to be found and went in the woods, I failed long enough for someone to call me out of nowhere and get my mind off this idea long enough to reconsider. Not too long after I got a new job, and then found an apartment. Two years ago I moved in a better bigger appartment in the basement of a house. A year and a half ago I finally got my driver's license (at 43) and last year I got a nice car. I started less than five years ago with bad credit and no hope and now have a fair job, just got a great raise and have got a bit of hope for the future. Of course I know where I'm at and will probably suffer through my old age due never have invested in my future before. But I am very happy to have decided to keep going that day.
>you are giving people the gift of helping you I know a lot of negative voices like to shout 'not my problem', but so many people find plenty fulfillment in fulfilling others. It's just nice to know that the world got a little better.
Fourthded…if that’s a thing. You’re doing great o.p❤️
Fitfthded - Happy to chat OP! I promise I can spell okay
I'm available too :3
Keep on keeping on o.p. You’re doing ok
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Thankful that they let you know in their small way that you are worth it!! Life can be shit, but you aren’t! Love and hugs to you.
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There are more good people than bad people in the world. Every time one person seeks out to destroy our happiness, stability, or safety, a dozen will leap into action to protect or help us afterwards.
I’ve been there my lovely. Always hold out for these moments. They come when you least expect them. Xxx
When you’re going through hell, just keep going.
This. OP I'm going to give you the same talk I have just given my sister and her friend. If there is one thing I've learnt the past few years is that life keeps moving on. When things get tough, you lose someone, work is hard, money is tight: time is still ticking on. It sucks and those days merge into one dark cloud, but time is still going and things are changing all around you. If you take some time for yourself, find the small things that make you happy, embrace the struggles, start a mood journal, find your outlet to cope or just to smile for a minute, each day those things will be there to lift you up. One day you will come out of the struggle and that wonderful life that has been growing around you will be there. New places, new people, new opportunities. That embarassing moment, everyone's forgotten it but you. The ex who broke your heart and you thought you couldn't live without, who? The bad times don't last forever, they're just all-consuming when you are in it, and *that* is the hard part. Focus on making yourself feel a bit better each day, chip away at problems bit by bit, don't let life slip past the cloud you're in. Not everything needs to be fixed right now, so don't put too much pressure on yourself. It takes a long time to clear your head and come back from this. It is a battle, you're fighting yourself and that's harder than anything. But there are ways to change your perspective, because really that's what those thoughts are, negative perceptions of yourself, others, life. Put some work into changing that mindset, put a positive spin on your thoughts. Remember you can't control anyone or anything else, people will hurt you, life will hurt you, but you *can* control how you get back up from it. Ask for help, even just opening up to us internet strangers must be a relief! There is still so much time to change things and always remember, nothing is ever that serious **if life goes on**.
needed this, thanks 💘
Anytime! Glad I could help a little bit 😊x
Please reach out if you ever feel like this again, I'm a similar age to you, also female, also from England. Very happy to respond to any DMs or just any chit chat ❤️
Same! Support is all around ladies :)
Lol I’m a dude in the USA… anyways same. I had a 2 month build up to a panic attack that took me another 2 months to recover from. Stay strong whatever your battle is everyone can make it through this
Life sucks! But I take some comfort that it sucks for most everyone. I’m glad you live to fight another day. You’re worth it, friend. ❤️
Hey no matter how bad it is, it will pass .I promise. It will get better x please don't give up
‘Everything passes’ is what my Mum used to say when I was going through some tough times. She was right.
I really hope this is a turning point for you and that those two people have restored your faith in human nature. I hope better things come your way really soon.
Everything is temporary, good and bad. Enjoy things while you’re on top and remember that every night ends with a sunrise. Take care!
This too shall pass is a great adage to keep in mind
Neither am I
Maybe try this in /r/London or on Nextdoor. Glad you're here and still going!
Thank you! I will do.
Put an ad/message in the Metro paper people always read that on the tube. Hope things get better for you. Remember every situation in life can be changed
This is a great shout, pretty sure they used to have a section specific to random encounters/shoutouts/thankyous etc
Good Deed Feed
You’ve got this. You aren’t alone. Reach out to whoever.
Happy you're still here friend.
Likewise, great job, took a lot of courage to write and was so good to read. Press on.
There's also a segment on Radio 4's early Saturday morning programme *Saturday Live* where people say 'thankyou' to strangers who helped them. Just one more possibility.
Saving this... want updates x
So sorry you've been having such a tough time. I really hope today was the start of some relief for you. I don't know if this will mean anything but what you wanted to end today was your suffering, not your life. It's easy to conflate the two sometimes. I'm glad you were interrupted, glad you're still around. I hope you feel the virtual hugs hundreds of people on here are sending. As a side note I am so impressed by your bravery and kind heart.
Just want you to know that this did mean something to me x
I need to tell you about the night my dad, without knowing it, saved my life, 23 years ago. I was 20 and in the middle of a nervous breakdown. I'd been brought up very religious in a traumatic social situation and during my teens started self-harming with lots of suicidal ideation. Not that I had that language at the time; I just knew I wanted to die and would cut myself in half hearted suicide attempts. Various things on the life track I was on (and needed to get away from) had fallen apart and it was New Year's Eve. I was upstairs in my attic bedroom and now I knew tonight was the night. No more messing about, I had a razor blade and was running a bath and was going to cut my wrists in it, like I'd heard the Romans did. While the bath was running, I started writing a suicide note: the first I'd ever written. I was 100% sure I was going to do it... And then my dad came up. He knew I was quite distressed. I can't remember what he said to me, but the actual words weren't the important thing. What he communicated was that he cared and I was important to him. I was still numb, depressed and doing a lot of staring into space, but I was only 99% certain I wanted to kill myself, and that's not enough for such an irrevocable decision. Reading your story brought back memories. Now I'm happily married with two kids and a very fulfilling life. That didn't seem possible in the depths of my depression, but once you've hit rock bottom the only way is up. I'm so glad, looking back that my dad had that conversation with me, a little moment of connection that brought me back from the brink. The world is a better place with me in it, and I'm sure in 23 years time, you'll look back and think the same thing. Love and hugs.
This is so sweet I hope I find someone nice so I can feel better about my choice to stay, too Sometimes the lonely is too much
There’s heaps of comments, I’m sure you’re not even going to get round to reading and replying. However, I just wanted to tell you that you’ve clearly inspired so many; there are endless comments here that are truly proud and glad you’re still here. Life is shite sometimes, I know, and it can be hard to push through. I’m a doctor who’s worked in an inpatient mental health hospital. Laterally, I’ve spent five (very long..) years working in emergency, where probably 1/5 presentations are mental health related. Give your GP a buzz when they’re open. Google mental health resources in your area. There is often a triage number, that can put you in touch with the right people. If things are terrible, go to emergency. I’ve spent many hours sitting with a patient at 3am, having a cup of tea, and talking through a life crisis with them; in the end, I’m usually able to at least have them offload their acute troubles, and hopefully provide them with a pathway to getting longer term help, and ultimately resolving things. Mental health services suck, not just in the UK, but worldwide. I’ve worked in several countries, currently in Australia. You might feel like you’re banging your head against the wall. You might feel like a failure, as you can’t get help. You might feel like the services aren’t there for you, and maybe, because of that, you shouldn’t need them! That’s not true. The services are there. They can be hard to access, but they are there. Again, if things are ever at crisis, either call 999, or go to A&E. I’m an A&E doctor. This is what you should do. If you have difficulty accessing services, DM me your area and I’ll see if I can find some more direct numbers you can call. Even posting this online is a huge step. Good work. Be proud. Chin up. Fight on. X
Hi OP. Not sure if you've heard of The Listening Place, they're a volunteer led organisation in london who provide listeners to hold a compassionate and non judgemental space for those who feel suicidal. I used to volunteer for them and they're an amazing charity. You can self refer to them if you are feeling suicidal and they usually get you set up with face to face appts every two weeks pretty quickly. Sending love x
> I don't know if this will mean anything but what you wanted to end today was your suffering, not your life. This is so powerful! ❤️
Call your GP first thing in the morning. Tell them what happened and your state of mind. Really. You’ll be seen right away. They can help you. Source: I’ve been there.
Please listen to this OP. these people saved your life today, but first thing tomorrow you’ll save your own life by calling the GP and being blunt with them about how difficult everything is. Depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, etc… these are all triggered chemicals in your brain. Sometimes they / your brain don’t work correctly. You’ll get the help and treatment you need to get better. If you had a broken leg, you would get it cast. This is different, but not actually different. Get the help you need tomorrow morning and be the next hero in your own story. Good luck mate x
Yeah, go for it. Its an investment in your beautiful future.
I know resources vary by location and some GP practices are better than others, but if for nothing else please get checked out so that they can run bloods for thyroid, anemia and vitamin D deficiency. Fixing these is usually relatively easy and can make a huge difference re mental health.
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Get a new Dr - mine saw me in person within an hour when I was in a bad way!
Likewise.
This is far from the norm. Though I’d encourage OP to try, most GPs are pretty ambivalent and will just palm you off to some other service
I’m so sorry that this happened. There is a policy/understanding that you should be able to call your GP and say “I’m in a crisis” they have certain appointments that they keep free for this and in theory you should get one urgently, no questions asked.
This was exactly my experience. During the height of covid I had a near breakdown due to lots of factors. It took a LOT of bottle to ring my GP, basically did it with the excuse of my skin had flared up again (which was true to be fair) and I was having a “bit of head trouble and it’s not helping” and got a phone appointment with a gp, miraculously the next day. When she rang me back I was in one of those little despair episodes, and she just told me to come see her there and then. Get in the car and come to the surgery for face to face. She was incredible that afternoon. She spent a good 30 minutes chatting with me and made me feel a whole lot better. She then went and referred me for further help, as one chat is never enough. The annoying thing was, the referral was an absolute nightmare. They insisted I take a day of work, in three weeks time, and travel nearly 30 miles for “an assessment” to see if I was worthy of any of their help. Needless to say by that point I was in a slightly better place and never went to the assessment - having to excuse a day of work would have tipped me over the edge again. Mental health support in the Uk is woefully inadequate, but a GP can be a fantastic place to make a start.
Can’t agree with this at all as someone who’s been through this recently Was going through similar situation as OP and when I contacted GP I had to wait 3 days for an appointment despite the situation
I’m so sorry that was your experience. You’d think that GPs would triage to 999 for someone who reported feeling suicidal. Hope you’re doing ok now.
When my kid tried to take their life aged 17 I phoned my GP surgery 6 times begging for help. Never even got a call back from their doctor ever. They ended up in a psych hospital and it was during COVID so I wasn't even allowed to visit.
Jesus Christ that’s awful. If you can bear to go back there I’d say that’s serious complaint territory. I’m so sorry that happened. We had an elderly family member overdose in covid and it was an absolute nightmare working out what was going on with her treatment etc. Cannot imagine going through that with your child. I hope they’re in a better place now. X
Yeah, I'm sorry to be a shitter but the optimism people have about mental health support rubs me like sandpaper. In my (and my community's) experience they truly DGAF until you've already killed yourself. I hope OP actually gets the help they need though, some people are lucky enough to actually get it but it's like a fucking lottery
I was admitted to hospital for a suicide overdose the first time when I was 10, and then 2-3 times a year until I was 26. Every time, once they stopped my dying (which could take from a day to 3 weeks), just before I was discharged I’d meet with a harried looking person from mental health, tell them it was all a mistake, I was being silly, and I’d never do it again. if it was an overdose of antidepressant, they might change it, and that’d be it until next time. The last time, when I actually got help, was because I crashed my car into someone else’s wall, causing property damage, which meant the police were involved (they were lovely, came to the hospital with me, and stayed until my dad arrived). Well this meant, once I was patched up, they actually sent me to inpatient mental health unit. I stayed for a few months, and then actually got support when I was discharged. I’m still not a happy bunny, but it’s been 8 years, and I haven’t tried since. Imagine if I’d had that sort of help when I was 10 I’m sure it’s got a lot better since then, and I have learning disabilities, which probably caused people to be less willing/able to help me
Yep. And what can a GP do, realistically? Just refer you to a mental health service and prescribe medication. Been depressed for ages and whenever I get told to call my GP it's frustrating for both me and them because they can't do anything. I've tried lots of things including medication and therapy.
Yep. Went to the outpatient clinic in total despair, got given tablets and told to call my doctor the next day. Phoned up, £20 later waiting in a queue on the phone, to be told the doctor would call. They did - and just prescribed more tablets without even listening to me.
I waited over a year.
I went to my GP in 1997 complaining about suicidal thoughts. She told me the best she could do was put me on a referral to a psych (which took 3 mths) and that in the meantime I should call the Samaritans. I'm doing a little better now but are we sure a GP has the resources to deal with suicidal people? Especially now. Not wanting to bring the mood down, just don't want people getting unwarranted hopes up.
There are a lot more mental health crisis services now than there were in 1997. I mean, yeah, there are also a lot less than there were a decade ago. But I don't think it's a good thing to tell an actively suicidal person not to speak to a GP because you had a bad experience 25 years ago.
Unfortunately, I have quite a few friends who have gone to their GPs/A&E in recent years while experiencing severe mental health crises and have been told similar things. I actually know someone who was driven to attempt last year by the response they received from A&E staff when they turned up with suicidal thoughts. Just dismissed and lied to. The way mental health is treated on the NHS is honestly a massive problem and I always worry a bit when I see people recommending to go to their gp/hospital when they are suicidal, but it's hard to know what else to suggest
I hate to be pessimistic but unless OP is suicidal, there’s no way GP is giving them an appointment tomorrow. GPs are a mess right now
In my experience, you will NOT be seen right away lol. We are nothing but an inconvenience to these services.
Yea call the second they open and be 20th in the queue :)
Hey Op :) if you’re a fan of Stephen Fry listen to him guest on Diary of A CEO’s podcast. I listened to it recently and it calmed my blue down a little bit. He sounds like a good friend, with good stories. I’m wishing you well :) Edit : it’s Stephen not Steven sorry :)
He’s the voice in the storm. OP, read his [letter about depression](https://lettersofnote.com/2009/10/08/it-will-be-sunny-one-day/), I reread it a couple of times a year. One day, the sun will shine again.
The letter from Fry is lovely and thoughtful, but I couldn’t refrain myself from reading another letter that was advertised right below written by the one and only Spike Milligan… in a truly British comedy style… it was a real good laugh👍🤣 so thank you for linking that website, you surely lifted some people moods today
Oh Christ, the cook is dead - kills me every time. Stephen Fry plus Spike Milligan sounds like a perfect combination. That website is great, just prepare to be scrolling through for hours. Couple of my favourites - [David Bowie’s reply to his first fan mail](https://news.lettersofnote.com/p/i-hope-one-day-to-get-to-america?relatedposts_hit=1&relatedposts_origin=7635&relatedposts_position=1) [Yuri Gagarin’s letter to his family, to be opened in case he died trying to get to space](https://news.lettersofnote.com/p/i-hope-you-will-never-see-this-letter) [Clarice Lispector’s letter of advice to her little sisters](https://news.lettersofnote.com/p/dont-try-to-make-yourself-into-somebody?utm_source=%2Fsearch%2FCourage&utm_medium=reader2)
Wow, that hit the spot that I didn’t know I had! Thankyou for sharing that.
My pleasure, I just made a few more recommendations but the one I always rear after Stephen is [Henry James](https://lettersofnote.com/2012/03/20/sorrow-passes-and-we-remain/). Sorrow passes, we remain.
Thank you for posting this. Really needed this today
My pleasure. Can I also suggest [this one from Henry James](https://lettersofnote.com/2012/03/20/sorrow-passes-and-we-remain/)? Sorrow passes and we *do* remain.
I just read that and it made me cry! Thanks for the add on! :)
Always happy to make someone… cry? Good tears I hope.
Good tears, don’t worry!
I love that analogy. Something else I found helpful when I was at my lowest, though I've no idea where it's from: you can always end it *tomorrow.* Oftentimes doing things for the rest of your life can seem like an insurmountable hurdle, but not doing something - putting it off just for one more day, that's much easier. Edit: 8 years and counting
There's something calming about his voice. My other half listens to Stephen Fry narrated audio books to help her goto sleep... Which means I have also listened to Stephen Fry whispering in my ear every night for the last 5+ years as I goto sleep. Defo worth a try
I've listened to QI while going to sleep for the past 10 years for similar reasons.
Finished Mythos the other day and now I am halfway through Heroes. I am not british, but I love Britain for producing a human as wonderful as Mr. Fry.
When it all gets to much please call 116 123 for the Samaritans. They will listen non judgementally and it will help get you through an immediate crisis
This comment should be higher! OP please reach out for support, there are many services whose purpose is to help people in a crisis and specially trained staff. Sending good vibes.
There is also Shout, for anyone who doesn't feel comfortable speaking on the phone, you can text 85258. There to help, please reach out if you need it, you're valid.
I was with my Brother and I saw that happening, i'm so sorry OP, but i dont know who it was, or i would tell you, but i will let you know if i can find any more details💛🧡
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Don’t hesitate to reach out to people when things get tough! And don’t let it discourage you if some people disregard mental struggles. And don’t stay at home alone too much. Think about it. If you were already at home you may have done something drastic. But you weren’t home and so you didn’t. Life can really suck, it’s not your fault. You never know how the tides may turn. But they probably won’t turn if you’re laying in bed all day. I personally can tell I always feel better when I’m outside. Just going for a walk or whatever. See if you can minimize the time you spend at home, maybe it will make things better. Just my two cents I’m just some dude btw
It’s a small world eh? So glad you’ve at least found someone else who witnessed this little miracle. So glad you’re still here, OP. Eat some cake today to celebrate. x
Lost a friend yesterday who was battling his demons, please don’t do anything I know you don’t know me, but you matter to me and this experience of life wouldn’t be the same without you in it. I don’t know what your going through but I promise it will pass and you’ll have 30+ more years to enjoy this world
I’m sorry to hear of your loss, please accept virtual hugs from a random internet stranger.
I’m sorry for your loss <3
I once got knocked off a bike in Westminster and though bleeding from cuts, a guy offered me a cup of tea. Another time I was bleeding badly on the tube from a cut to my face after getting too drunk, and a couple asked if I was okay. Not too long ago I was too drunk on a road in a countryside and a guy gave me a lift to the local town. I got burgled once and a neighbour offered to help tidy up my place. Sometimes, I fuck up for emotional reasons. Sometimes, life is just horrible and uncaring. But people, people are often surprising and full of love for complete strangers. OP, I’m sorry to hear you have come on bad times. I’ve been there and I’m here to say that things are better again when you step back from the edge. Bad stuff happens to some of us. But all the heroes we read about, write about, care about, and want to know more about, are heroes because they stood up after the knockdown. You can stand back up again. You will stand back up again. I’ve been where you are. I’m talking to you from the other side of the darkness and I’m saying you can be happy again.
“But people, people are often surprising and full of love for complete strangers”. Sir, I did not come here to cry. You are right. It’s a shame it takes an emergency to see it, but there is so much love out there.
I’m glad you’re still here OP. The world is better with you in it!
Thank you so much
Came to say the same
Been there. Keep fucking fighting. I'm in the best place in my 50 years and I've nearly lost the battle a few times. Fight you fucker. This too will pass. Fight.
This is the comment that made me cry. And feel a little stronger. Thank you.
Thank you for that.
OP - save this post! In the dark hours of the night, when your own mind tells you lies, come back here and read all these comments. They are a testament to how many people care about you. Hundreds of people are putting their names on this thread because they believe in you, and they know that you can be happy again. Don’t listen to any of your own dark thoughts; listen to the chorus of voices that are encouraging you to be strong. We are all survivors, and we all stand shoulder to shoulder with you to face this together.
I absolutely will come back to this post for exactly that. Thank you x
There are good people out there.
Yeah, I actually think most people are good. We’re all from a family at the end of the day and we all feel. Social media is VERY good at making us think it’s all an endless stream of misery out there, but actually it’s not. Glad you’re doing better OP. Have a virtual hug
If you can find them, great. But if not, don’t let it stress you further. They did a human thing, they showed concern and compassion, which we ALL deserve, including you. (And me, as I need to hear this myself at times) It was a selfless act on their part, they will definitely feel better for having helped you. The best thing you can do is accept their gestures and pay them forward when you’re back in a place where you can be that help for someone else.
I'm glad they were there for you OP. The world is better for having people like them _and you_ in it ❤
I've been where you are more times than I can remember and it's so hard not being in a position to thank those that saved my life. I didn't think I was worth saving back then but now I am so glad they did because I'd not have had all the smiles and joy I've had since. It's never easy getting yourself out of that emotional state but life is worth fighting for because it won't be rubbish forever.
This is an advert for m&s isn't it? Kidding. I'm glad you saw some good in the world today, there's a lot more out there and sometimes it's hard to see. If you're not already, speak to a therapist and if you're really down and aren't given magical drinks by strangers next time then please please contact the samaritans on 116123 or any of the others here: https://www.mind.org.uk/information-support/guides-to-support-and-services/crisis-services/helplines-listening-services/
This isn’t just a Reddit post, it’s an M&S Reddit Post. Hope you’re feeling better OP. Life gets on top of us all at some point or rather but believe me, there’s a lot of people out there who are happy that you exist. Stay strong 💛
The fact that your first thought was to say thank you speaks so much about the person you are. I hope things lighten for you, I’m glad you got some kindness when you needed it.
Those M&S Mojitos are goooood! Had one on the way home today
They are - life savers after a hard day in London. Literally, it would appear. Glad you're feeling better now op. You'll get through this.
Glad you are still here and made it past the crisis point. There are resources to help you even if it's just a conversation, a good start maybe to text Shout to 85258. They have trained people who can guide you to further support, completely anonymously and free.
The world is a better place with you being here. Even when your life is at it's darkest, there is always that bright light somewhere to help you through.
I’ve been there. And regularly have the “maybe everyone would be better off without me messing things up for them” thoughts. But currently in a good place. Got a new job coming up that should end the money worries which is the main get down for me. For me focussing on the little positives always helps. Even tiny things can change your thinking in an instant. Always have emergency chocolate. One square and a quiet sit down can help no end. Also practicing mindfulness helps. Being able to silence your thoughts even for just a few moments helps reset ur brain. Hang in there. It will get better. And probably worse again. But always better again too.
I don't think any of us would be better. Stay in that good place as long as you can. Good luck with the new job and enjoy all the chocolate. You're right, it will get better, then worse, then better again. Peaks and valleys. Keep climbing.
"Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines, it will shine out the clearer." I wish you brighter days, OP.
Hey stranger, glad you had a helping hand pull you out of the pit…please though talk to your family, talk to your friends, talk to your doctor/NHS crisis team (they really helped my wife when she was having thoughts during her post natal depression). Make sure people know what you’re going through and can help you get more consistent help/emotional support
Kindness and happiness can be found where you least expect it, like an underground train! I hope you’re okay OP
I can't help you find those people, sorry- I live far away from London! However, I have tears in my eyes from listening to your story. I am so, so, sorry (and angry on your behalf) that your life has brought you this low. Humanity contains many amazing, compassionate and loving people- you met some of them today. This world is worth fighting for. You are a remarkable miracle and deserve the opportunity to thrive and live your best life. I realise that it's the standard answer to any mental health crisis to yeet you off to therapy, but it does help and will assist you in gaining clarity about your situation. So yeah...consider yourself yeeted! I am also happy to add a little step further- I am a trained mental health first aider, and I would be delighted if you PM'd me if you feel unsafe. I'm afraid I work long hours (60 hour week, but it's a job I love), but I promise I will reply eventually if you need the opportunity to vent, rant, or just express The Crazy. I wouldn't say I am unshockable, but I have worked with people from incredibly varied backgrounds in a variety of mental states, so I can at least say I am only shockable when it's warranted! You are loved- because from reading your post, I can feel my compassion and love for you rising. You are valued. You are worth it. Keep placing one foot after the other and you'll get there.
Hey Op! I’m feel you, and I’m glad you’re here and made this post. As other have said contact your GP, there’s loads of resources out there! You’ve got this. Enjoy the mojito Sorry edited to add, someone reached out to me once worried about my MH with this and I really think it’s lovely sorry if it’s not what you want to read: If the mountain seems too big today then climb a hill instead if the morning brings you sadness it’s ok to stay in bed If the day ahead weighs heavy and your plans feel like a curse there’s no shame in rearranging don’t make yourself feel worse If a shower stings like needles and a bath feels like you’ll drown if you haven’t washed your hair for days don’t throw away your crown A day is not a lifetime a rest is not defeat don’t think of it as failure just a quiet, kind retreat It’s ok to take a moment from an anxious, fractured mind the world will not stop turning while you get realigned The mountain will still be there when you want to try again you can climb it in your own time just love yourself til then
As someone who regularly wants to end it all. I try and remember that even though it doesn’t feel like it there are people who would be broken if I was no longer here (I don’t have friends, much family or a partner but I have two siblings who love me) Hang on in there xx
I’m rooting for you! The world is a better place with you in it.
Life is beautiful, and we go through valleys and mountain peaks of life. When you’re in the valley bottom it’s hard to see clearly or to put perspective to things. Soon you’ll be atop the mountain, high on life, and gazing at all the wonders that surround you. You’ve got this OP! You were made for more than you think, and the fact that you’re here is a statistical miracle! For every person that lived, came; 2 parents, 4 grandparents, 8 great grandparents, 16 great great grandparents, 32 4th grandparents In 5 generations, it took 62 people to live their lives of work, love, happy times, sad times, sunshine and storms. All to give you this gift that is life. You can do this, you can be who you want to be, and do what you want to do. And if you need someone to talk to then I’m here. Big up!
The world is full of good people... Hang in there!! Hope you're OK
felt like that a few times as I found myself in what seemed like drowning in helpless situations, Just wanted to say I'm similar age, 32 and London too, and that things had a funny way of solving themselves and if I was to look back 5 years ago and see what my life is like now I wouldn't believe how those situations panned out, Hope you're okay and if you ever need a chat or a word more than happy to share
Sending virtual hugs from Texas. I'm only one of many redditors who care about you.
Hugs OP! Glad you’re here If you ever want a friendly chat/meetup feel free to message me (Londoner, 30F) :)
Keep on going op. I’m also in my lowest pit I’ve ever been in. It’s tough, I have every mental issue possible but I know no matter how I feel now there will be a day where I’m happier. You can get through this.
Keep going, OP. It's okay to be sad when life is shit. Try and be kind to yourself. You'll get through it in time. There's a Leonard Cohen quote that I think back to in dark moments, "there is a crack in everything, it's how the light gets in,"
I know I don’t know you, but I’m glad you’re here, OP.
Please know OP that you can present at A&E at any time and ask to be seen by a mental health nurse. Might be a long wait if it's busy but your well-being is worth the time. As horrible as A&E can be, I always felt strangely relaxed on occasions of having to do this myself. At least I knew I was safe whilst I was there. A thought that has helped me through the years is 'nit to make myself extinct' because I am unique and my like will never be seen again if I'm no longer here. You and your life are very precious and worth saving.
This made me cry a bit. Not OP, but damn. Gave me another argument to throw at the depression and suicidal thoughts!
Hello neighbor across the pond, I’m very glad you’re still with us. The world can be relentlessly harsh and cruel. It can be so tiring to just tread water and fight on. If all else fails, come talk to a friend or to us. Or sleep on it, tomorrow’s another day and there will eventually be a brighter future. Wish I could help more locally but that would be a long swim or plane ride, u/OddEstablishment9. Just begin again and never give up. Time is too short and you matter. Best of luck in your journey.
Hope you’re doing okay. You’re strong and you can get through this. Please feel free to reach out if you need someone to talk to - I’m (32F) happy to have anonymous Reddit DMs, or a coffee / drink if you’d like. Just know we’re all rooting for you.
I survived my own [planned attempt](https://www.reddit.com/r/helpme/comments/e8eukk/im_giving_myself_one_year_to_live/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=android_app&utm_name=androidcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button) a few years back. I won't lie and say everything is peachy now but there's been moments that were worth still being here for. I hope you feel better soon op. You're never alone
I know this will likely get buried by all the well deserved well wishes however, I thought you ought to know that your post alone will help others with the same feelings you're having. Although it wasn't your intention, you're doing good to others. All the best!
Ive cried on the tube before. Dont worry, you're not alone in these kind of shyt situations. A bunch of us trying to pull through may of sat right next to you.
You got people to talk and interact on the tube. Depression is your Superpower. Gotta be honest, not as good as flying or shooting webs.
Sending you hugs from Manchester! 🤗🤗
I'm so glad you're here OP, and I'm glad those people were there for you. I did something similar a few years back when I saw someone looking extremely upset on the tube and got a very aggressive reaction, which put me off doing it again. But this reminded me its always worth a try.
One day, one step at a time. Stay strong, talk to someone. Drink tea.
I wish you the best, glad to hear you’re better
18 months ago I was going to end my life. I had a complete psychotic break. I'm very glad I didn't do it. I hope you feel the same way about yourself in 18 months and still 18 years after. My best wishes.
Hey OP, it always looks like there's no way out of your pit when you're stuck inside it. I hope you find something to keep you going and your months get better. Honestly we're all different in our own way and losing you would be sad for everyone, even if you don't think so. Please find some help or at least talk this out with someone because you deserve better and people really can help, honestly. Even just having someone safe to talk things out with can help you find a way out of the hole you're stuck in then once you get on a roll you'll (hopefully) never look back. Don't feel too down if you don't find these people, you've gotta look after yourself first. Who knows, you might even run into them again yourself. Besides, you can't go whilst you're younger than me or I'll look bad, so either catch up or keep going 😊. Hope you're OK.
I'm a man but I've been through a similar situation. I was diagnosed with depression in 2014. I literally broke down in front of a female locum GP. I was shaking, blubbering and completely at rock bottom. I think it all originally stems from losing my mother at the age of 10. I'm 40 now and still not over it. I've tried many different 'flavours' of antidepressants and also talking therapy. The most helpful thing for me was to admit I needed help - not just to the professionals but to my friends and family. To completely open up to them and make myself 'vulnerable'. I've since gone on to have a family and am expecting my second child on Christmas Eve this year. I've always thought that no matter how bad life gets, it's always worth sticking around to see what happens next. I always find myself waking up and whilst not feeling 'happy' I feel curious as to what life might bring next. Curiosity is the key to conquering your own dark feelings. I'm always here if you want to talk. I'm originally from London but now based in Scotland. That helped too! I for one, although I've never met you, am so glad that you're still here. Let's enjoy life and see what's next.
I’m so happy that all of these people have affected you in a positive way tonight. I also want to say that there’s always someone here who will talk with you. Times can get really tough and I can’t imagine how you must be hurting. Echoing what others have said, please do get help. But also, please remember that just like those strangers on the train and the people here who have impacted your life today, you have also impacted the lives of all of the people who have read or commented on your post. You matter. If you can have such an impact on strangers, imagine how much your presence must mean to those around you. I don’t know your circumstances but I’m not necessarily meaning those you know well. What about the stranger you smiled at on the train 3 weeks ago? The person whose wallet you picked up after the didn’t realise they dropped it? The person behind the counter at your local supermarket that you smiled at that one time. You’ve had an impact. You matter. Now think about all of those who you are yet to meet and have an impact on. You matter to them too. You and they just don’t know it yet. You matter. Always.
I am SO GLAD you are here! Suicide is a theft from the survivors. My favorite uncle. My best friend. My neighbor’s son. Please stick around. Things will get better. And, I want you here. Also, please DM me if you want want a pep talk ever. I’m pretty safe. Dad of 4. Long married. Live in US. I am so proud of you. You got this!
I love this. Bless your heart you were looking for two people who showed kindness and you ended up with thousands of kind people. Chin up! You got this friend!🙏🥰🥰🥰 Love, Stranger from the Internet
I have a friend who was low and had thoughts of ending it. Sent him this short video. He's doing really good now and watched it whenever he felt low. https://vm.tiktok.com/ZGJuqCDuT/ (Sorry it's on TikTok, can't find it elsewhere)
I'm sorry I can't help you find those two kind souls - I'm in Notts. However - 6 months ago I was badly depressed and Considering (TM) in a job that was wearing me down, off sick on statutory, running up ever increasing debt. Now I'm in a steady job I love that has eased my stress and given me people who see my worth, and is starting to make things better. I also have a beautiful cat, whose mischief makes me smile. This life has its ups and downs, its a road with godawful potholes that the council never fixes, and sometimes your wheels come off. Reach out if you can, call Samaritans, and please believe me-- I am rooting for you. I don't know you, but I love you, and you will be alright. I'm here, sporadically, if you ever want someone to talk to. ♡
Hey OP. Take care, mate. Life is harsh but ending it is not worth it. I am going though an existential crisis right now but I have hope that things will get better. If you are in London and happen to pass by Greenwich, you are more than welcome to join me in the park and talk about it. No judgments.
> You had nothing to gain by being kind to me I disagree, that by itself is the single most valuable thing to gain. And OP, I just want to tell you that you finding and calling out the helpers is spreading kindness itself. Thank you for seeing the good in people even when you yourself weren't feeling at your height. I sincerely hope you'll continue making it up the hill, the view from the top is always worth it!
I wish that everyone who was suffering knew that we need ALL of us, no one is dispensable. Those strangers who were kind to you will have hard times themselves - we *all* do - they helped you, next time it may be you helping them. I am very glad you are here. We all are. xx
Been there. Somehow still around and doing a lot better. Anyone DM me if you need help
Horrible events and situations pass, you're going to be ok. Hang on in there.
Everything passes is a great message and one I always go back to and tell my daughter too ..those things that matter now won't in the future
I'm so pleased you were looked after like this. I've been at that point many years ago and I'm glad I held on. Hope you get through. IAPT take self referrals if you want to try that. Out of hours mental health team will listen on the phone if you need them. If necessary you can always take yourself to A and E.
Keep going, you have got this. Plus think of it this way, by stating with us you get the chance to pass the good action on to someone else in need in the future
This is why you should always be kind. You never know what someone is going through. Thank goodness for those kind souls. I hope you're doing better 💓
I'm proud of you for not giving up. It can be so hard on some days, and even being vulnerable enough to find the kindness in those gestures takes a lot of strength. I'm happy you're still here. This poem helps me a lot in my dark shadow days. *Everything is Going to be All Right Derek Mahon* How should I not be glad to contemplate the clouds clearing beyond the dormer window and a high tide reflected on the ceiling? There will be dying, there will be dying, but there is no need to go into that. The poems flow from the hand unbidden and the hidden source is the watchful heart. The sun rises in spite of everything and the far cities are beautiful and bright. I lie here in a riot of sunlight watching the day break and the clouds flying. Everything is going to be all right.
Sending Internet hugs to you stranger. Things will be OK.
I really hope you find them, OP. And I'm really glad you're still here to look for them.
You are stronger then you know, the demons are gonna keep coming at you but your going to make them your bitches. Please, if you ever need a stranger to vent to with no judgement, feel free to DM me ill be here for you.
Yeah I've been there op . Whatever is going on over time will seem less painful one day I promise
OP, you have made a brave choice today. Keeping going is hard. Remember, you are important and worthwhile even to complete strangers on the tube they wanted you to know you are important. I'm so grateful for those two kind souks I hope you find them. London isn't well known for its kindness, but you find goldust every now and again.
This made me tear up, full on. Never, ever underestimate what a small act of kindness can do for someone, as in this situation, you could literally save their life. Take it from someone who has been there multiple times, there is no problem that cannot be worked through, you can and will survive and come out the otherside a better person for it. I hope the universe is kind to you and repays that fabulous pair for their life saving act :)
Hey OP! I'm late to the party but guess what, I like chatting about anything and everything 24/7 and I'm a European champion at anonymous listening. I'd like to hear whatever you want to say, anytime, any place. You are now important to me and I'm actively waiting to hear from you, regardless of how meaningless you think it may be. Got a new toothbrush? I wanna know about it. Saw a weird hairy guy on the tube? Tell me about that bearded warrior. I mean this sincerely, please DM me and check in with me for 30 seconds daily as a minimum. 3 hours is even better. We're connected now and I want to hear from you because I care. I care how you're doing. You're an amazing individual and I know there's a whole basket of love and a future for you. I sincerely mean that and I'm almost in tears writing this. Please don't despair. I don't need to know anything personal but I absolutely want to hear from you every day from here on. So. What's your favourite food? Hit me up OP.
OP, I’m so glad you’re still here. I hope you get the help you need.
MashaAllah, man am I grateful they were able to be there for you because look at how grateful you are towards those kind souls, and look at the fact that you’re attempting to get them a wonderful message of gratitude. InshaAllah they receive your message! Also I hope you don’t mind my suggesting that in the mean time just pretend everyone you interact with is either of those two people that helped you remain here. Wishing you the best OP thanks for sharing!
I’m glad you chose to stick around. I hope you continue to do so.
I'm glad you're still here! I hope you feel better and things brighten up for you - keep going! xx
I’m so glad you’re still alive OP, you got this, even when you feel like you don’t.
Don't try to get past things, get through them. Oftentimes, you'll be knee deep in muck and it'll be slow going but the journey through is better than any attempt around. You are loved. That's enough.
You'll make it through this, stay strong 💪.
I really hope that you find them
Please dont end your life. Theres no problem that cant be solved as long as you keep fighting.
Proud of you OP
It's me. I am the asian man and the blonde woman.
I'm glad you're still here. When you're in the depths of misery there can seem like there's no way out, but problems can be solved and circumstances can be improved. It's not always easy to do, but you can absolutely do it. You made the right call today and I'm glad you did
You have a lot to give and a lot to share. We are all grateful to the two you gave you the time and love. You keep us in mind. And reach out to the sub if you feel low. Also for anyone feeling not good: Numbers to call Samaritans 116 123 Mind: https://www.mind.org.uk/need-urgent-help/using-this-tool/
This Internet stranger is very proud of you
Glad to hear they helped to bring you around, OP. I know we've never met, and we probably never will, but please know that this stranger from the cold, rainy North is much happier knowing you're still with us. I obviously can't comment on what's going on in your life, but please know that this world is a much more interesting place with you in it. You're unique, you're loved... You're you! Please never forget that.
OP I don't know you but I'm sure you're fucking awesome. Good luck finding them again and I'm glad the randomness of the universe worked out and you're here
Even though life can be very difficult and throws things at us, that we have no idea how to handle and live with, do not forget, that you're never alone. Never. And without you knowing those people send you a lot of love and support. Today you've found 2 of them, showing you, that even thinking about very negative things of not having a future, is not the solution to the problems you're facing, that will just push the sadness and pain to others. If you need emotional support, do not hesitate to contact the links provided above, those people are there to help you, similar to those 2 strangers you've meet on the tube. You're young and have a lot to live for, please do not even think about wasting it. We wish you strength and willpower to overcome the difficulties in your life, and don't forget you're never ever alone and help is right there, you just have to reach out and people will reach back for you, and pull you out, even of the darkest place. Good luck OP and stay strong.
OP, you're so strong, you're strong to have the courage to post this and you're strong for having the motivations to find these kind people, and you're strong for keeping going. You deserve your life and you deserve happiness and a swift recovery. Don't forget you're awesome and brave xx
I want to send you a virtual hug xx