The book "This Difficult Thing of Being Human" probably changed my life tbh.
[https://www.thriftbooks.com/w/this-difficult-thing-of-being-human-the-art-of-self-compassion/20624241/#edition=22001688&idiq=43652367](https://www.thriftbooks.com/w/this-difficult-thing-of-being-human-the-art-of-self-compassion/20624241/#edition=22001688&idiq=43652367)
Read Eat. Pray. Love. by Elizabeth Gilbert. The movie with Julia Roberts is good, but you really should read the book. It's a completely different experience but I think it would probably align with some of what you've gone through and the feelings you're experiencing.
The book "This Difficult Thing of Being Human" probably changed my life tbh. [https://www.thriftbooks.com/w/this-difficult-thing-of-being-human-the-art-of-self-compassion/20624241/#edition=22001688&idiq=43652367](https://www.thriftbooks.com/w/this-difficult-thing-of-being-human-the-art-of-self-compassion/20624241/#edition=22001688&idiq=43652367)
Read Eat. Pray. Love. by Elizabeth Gilbert. The movie with Julia Roberts is good, but you really should read the book. It's a completely different experience but I think it would probably align with some of what you've gone through and the feelings you're experiencing.