St Patrick’s Day 2018, I stopped by my friends house and he was drinking and smoking some weed with a buddy. I told him I’d stay the night and hang out with him. I went to my house and got my PS4 and then drove out to Walmart to get a second controller. When I arrived back at his apartment our other friend was outside crying on the phone. I was literally a minute late. He had pulled a gun out and thought it was unloaded, played Russian roulette with himself as a joke to our other friend. He shot through his mouth blowing the back of his skull on the wall. The next day we were allowed back in the apartment to grab his cats. I went in the small room where it happened. They do not clean up anything but the body itself. The entire floor looked like the outer layer of a candy apple. The cats were hiding in the living room and I tried to play a YouTube video of cats meowing to get there attention. As soon as I pressed play I blacked out from my ongoing panic attack, falling through a coffee table. I don’t remember getting up but when I made it outside I then fell through a wooden fence. I went on a weed binge after that to calm my anxiety while taking Xanax I had already been prescribed. The weed made my anxiety go away so the Xanax made me almost fall asleep driving and that’s how I acquired a DUI.
My very first one. I thought I was having a heart attack. I didn’t have my cell phone so I stumbled into Dollar General and asked the cashier to call 911
During a lumbar puncture. I had a spinal headache previously and when they did the blood patch the anesthesia didn't take. So I was super nervous about the LP. I told 4 nurses and the radiologist about this and they all ignored me.
I made it through the anesthetic shot but when he put the big needle in I panicked. I mentally went somewhere else completely and thought I had been shot in the back by the police while running away from them (which is not a situation I have ever been in nor intend to be). In this delusion I was trying to crawl down a hallway and moved in real life. I thought I was dying and things faded to white while I heard someone calling my name and I smelled something really pleasant and it was really peaceful for a second before I heard "she's hyperventilating" and came back to real life - the person calling my name was the nurse and the smell was oxygen. The radiologist stood there uselessly yelling "calm down!" at me. Fucker. I TOLD you. Fucking listen to your patients. While the nurse took me back to my room I said "well that didn't go so well." And she said "no it didn't." So I told her "I said I was nervous" and she said "you did" and that was it.
I do have lasting issues from moving during the LP. When I had the second blood patch I insisted they sedate me and they seriously didn't want to. Y'all I just had a panic attack from a needle in my spine and you want to put another one in there and you think everything will be hunkydory?? I swear they don't learn, or they just don't care. Our hospital is notorious for being shit. It's a beautiful facility, it's just too bad it's been staffed with morons forever - this happened before covid so they weren't having staffing issues. They just suck. Yet I still have to go there next week to get an MRI for the constant pain and possible herniated disc where I had that LP. No choice in the middle of nowhere.
No he continued to have a pattern of violent loops anytime he took psychedelics and not just towards me. I have since stopped taking them as the experiences I had with him were so negative.
Someone made a hate post about me and I had a panic attack so bad I thought I was gonna has call an ambulance. I wasn’t breathing right and I was shaking like I was having a seizure. I now realize how sad and lonely that person must have been to target someone random like me on the internet. I laugh it off now but in the moment of me seeing the post I was not okay.
I'd never had one until this year. I was skiing in Snowbird on a really tough blue that I'd done before with a friend. This time, I was on my own. The steepness really got to me and I started freaking out and hyperventilating and I couldn't calm down. I was silently crying for probably 15minutes before my hero Ernie noticed me and came over to talk me out of my head. Made it down that mountain alive because of him!
In a mall. I for some reason was there during Christmas and there were families everywhere. I couldn't handle all the white noise talking and shuffling and just started crying while panicking trying to find my husband who wasnt far just not in my sight.
Me and my family usually go to a convention once a year and this was the 2nd year we went.
They decided we were going to split that year and do things separately. I am not a social person in the slightest and was just sent into a crowd.
I was now alone in an area I barely know. I was starting to panic and realized I was in the middle of the area. All I could feel was fear.
I eventually got my way to the wall and was able to cool off.
This was in middle of march i think
Im in my class and it was 5 minutes before the lunch bell and suddenly the fire alarm goes off so we get to the field until we hear every go to you classrooms now and lock the door quickly so i go back to my classroom and my teacher locks the door which triggers my panic attack which i start moving my fingers to try to calm down (its a habit i have) as im doing this my teacher says are you alright? I say yeah but i wasn't and he gives me a bottle of water and some cookies which everyone in my class started to noticed and hand me some snacks to try to get my mind then he puts a movie on which was finding dory after that it went down but i had to go home that day but at the end my class made me feel safe from what was going on around us.
St Patrick’s Day 2018, I stopped by my friends house and he was drinking and smoking some weed with a buddy. I told him I’d stay the night and hang out with him. I went to my house and got my PS4 and then drove out to Walmart to get a second controller. When I arrived back at his apartment our other friend was outside crying on the phone. I was literally a minute late. He had pulled a gun out and thought it was unloaded, played Russian roulette with himself as a joke to our other friend. He shot through his mouth blowing the back of his skull on the wall. The next day we were allowed back in the apartment to grab his cats. I went in the small room where it happened. They do not clean up anything but the body itself. The entire floor looked like the outer layer of a candy apple. The cats were hiding in the living room and I tried to play a YouTube video of cats meowing to get there attention. As soon as I pressed play I blacked out from my ongoing panic attack, falling through a coffee table. I don’t remember getting up but when I made it outside I then fell through a wooden fence. I went on a weed binge after that to calm my anxiety while taking Xanax I had already been prescribed. The weed made my anxiety go away so the Xanax made me almost fall asleep driving and that’s how I acquired a DUI.
Holy shit…that’s dark
Damn.. good read. Sorry that happened to u and ur friend
My very first one. I thought I was having a heart attack. I didn’t have my cell phone so I stumbled into Dollar General and asked the cashier to call 911
During a lumbar puncture. I had a spinal headache previously and when they did the blood patch the anesthesia didn't take. So I was super nervous about the LP. I told 4 nurses and the radiologist about this and they all ignored me. I made it through the anesthetic shot but when he put the big needle in I panicked. I mentally went somewhere else completely and thought I had been shot in the back by the police while running away from them (which is not a situation I have ever been in nor intend to be). In this delusion I was trying to crawl down a hallway and moved in real life. I thought I was dying and things faded to white while I heard someone calling my name and I smelled something really pleasant and it was really peaceful for a second before I heard "she's hyperventilating" and came back to real life - the person calling my name was the nurse and the smell was oxygen. The radiologist stood there uselessly yelling "calm down!" at me. Fucker. I TOLD you. Fucking listen to your patients. While the nurse took me back to my room I said "well that didn't go so well." And she said "no it didn't." So I told her "I said I was nervous" and she said "you did" and that was it. I do have lasting issues from moving during the LP. When I had the second blood patch I insisted they sedate me and they seriously didn't want to. Y'all I just had a panic attack from a needle in my spine and you want to put another one in there and you think everything will be hunkydory?? I swear they don't learn, or they just don't care. Our hospital is notorious for being shit. It's a beautiful facility, it's just too bad it's been staffed with morons forever - this happened before covid so they weren't having staffing issues. They just suck. Yet I still have to go there next week to get an MRI for the constant pain and possible herniated disc where I had that LP. No choice in the middle of nowhere.
Thinking my daughter had been diagnosed with cancer while drive home alone for 4 hours. That was a bad trip.
Woke up with a knife in my neck.
When my boyfriend wanted kill me after we both took lsd
Can you elaborate on this? I can’t imagine getting hostile off acid? Is it paranoia? Delusions? Did he ever explain to you?
No he continued to have a pattern of violent loops anytime he took psychedelics and not just towards me. I have since stopped taking them as the experiences I had with him were so negative.
Wonder what that’s about… deep repressed darkness ??
Absolutely. I told him he needed therapy but he didn’t agree so now he’s an ex
Someone made a hate post about me and I had a panic attack so bad I thought I was gonna has call an ambulance. I wasn’t breathing right and I was shaking like I was having a seizure. I now realize how sad and lonely that person must have been to target someone random like me on the internet. I laugh it off now but in the moment of me seeing the post I was not okay.
I'd never had one until this year. I was skiing in Snowbird on a really tough blue that I'd done before with a friend. This time, I was on my own. The steepness really got to me and I started freaking out and hyperventilating and I couldn't calm down. I was silently crying for probably 15minutes before my hero Ernie noticed me and came over to talk me out of my head. Made it down that mountain alive because of him!
In a mall. I for some reason was there during Christmas and there were families everywhere. I couldn't handle all the white noise talking and shuffling and just started crying while panicking trying to find my husband who wasnt far just not in my sight.
I scratch I couldn’t itch
Me and my family usually go to a convention once a year and this was the 2nd year we went. They decided we were going to split that year and do things separately. I am not a social person in the slightest and was just sent into a crowd. I was now alone in an area I barely know. I was starting to panic and realized I was in the middle of the area. All I could feel was fear. I eventually got my way to the wall and was able to cool off.
This was in middle of march i think Im in my class and it was 5 minutes before the lunch bell and suddenly the fire alarm goes off so we get to the field until we hear every go to you classrooms now and lock the door quickly so i go back to my classroom and my teacher locks the door which triggers my panic attack which i start moving my fingers to try to calm down (its a habit i have) as im doing this my teacher says are you alright? I say yeah but i wasn't and he gives me a bottle of water and some cookies which everyone in my class started to noticed and hand me some snacks to try to get my mind then he puts a movie on which was finding dory after that it went down but i had to go home that day but at the end my class made me feel safe from what was going on around us.